Happy girls are the prettiest
Happy girls are the prettiest
You just know when you have written the stars already but it begs to be rewritten. I often crave for stability but people will never see my persistent desire to free myself from the shackles of society, unmended but unbent and unbroken
Jk Rowling did not became an author if she had not faced and of her demons unfazed and conpletely fought for her rights.
In this real world, nobody gives a shit where you came from, what your mission here is, what your intent lies.
All they care about is what they get from the situation
I realised how, if ever we got our constants to have our backs then we would never beg for us to become prone to self reliance.
Our intelligent and wit is our greatest enemy and weapon.
If we let society mule and control us, we would be killing our self joy and pride.
Ego drives us to the goal, but patience is the key to our happiness behind the lenses of oppresion and belligerent suffering.
The personal is the political
My voice is lost.
By doing so many routines, like paying bills, tryna overlook the future, moving on to further heights, armageddon hurt
Losing your power is like losing your self, your boss, your ally.
What we mirror becomes our reality.
Sometimes we go too far in life, we forget the fact that we too have weaknesses which people use against us.
It is too rare nowadays for people to just …be themselves.
The farther you go, the realization sinks in.
There were some people who really believed in you, whether they have destroyed you or made you more mature.
Their words hurt.
But you know,
It is up to you to become so affected to the noise.
Up to you.
To be patient.
We get all what we deserve.
Only God knows what we are up to.
I will never forget this day I got hold up by the world and felt compromised in a way that I mirrored myself through reflections and thoughts and analyzed them and finally figured out how people easily see through me and I reframed my mind and weakness to the point it was becoming a struggle to become myself since I don’t know if I should change and play the games of this wild world or stay true to who I am where the lotus in me broke and that inner child died and was replaced by a bloody version eager to prey on others as to which my journey continues on how do I handle problems like a monkey, an adult, or a lion.
Will I keep on this game and continue it like an adult and be influenced by the deadly world, or do I retreat in my sanctuary and still be myself, listen to the still, small voice and wait.
For change to come
Where is my million
Why do I have to endure bloodshot eyes and bloodshed and recognize the lack of validity love structure support spine in my family…the root cause of evil, the main reason I got shookt and taken by societal norms and dunno whether to conform and fight for myself or face moral obligation as a mere mortal and surrender everything to God.
Only He knows my true worth and struggle
Please pray for me.
Am I done in sales or is life truly just a matter of playing hide and seek
Of deceit and figures
Disillusionment and illusion
Will I throw away my sanity and literature world to this futile collaborative, destructive world of mortal combat
Or take everything literally and lose my world of literature, adventure, sense, being, time, philosophy, moral values, my distinction of right and wrong.
When does this life end?…when will my suffering end
I figured I should just put a stop to sales. I have harbored enough hatred and disfigured negativity and am tired of playing poker cards chess horsemanship when they cannot even back me up
So much for you,
Ayala Land Premier
Ortigas & Company
Love the brand, hate the people culture and bigotry and hurt they piled up inside my heart and made me a human monster
-how not to be influenced by others, become a noncomformist
When you were born a fucked up leader and born to stand out in a world of lies continuing to hurt and manipulate you?!
Forever my friend and constant enemy
Sobrang hirap mamuhay pag nagiba values mo.
Kahit manalo ka, tibay parin ang lakas na alam mo nasa lugar ka
And hindi ka ever vinulgar nang mundo, ibang tao, impuwensiya at iba pa
So much for society
I have killed myself and reborn myself a million years for sales
Trumped persistence and trumped everything over and over again
Kneeled and bowed down to my own biological parents, who shookted me into the world, constantly apologized for people who will never understand me and see my worth.
Thanks to the people who truly supported me
Ms Dior and Boss Gad
I always struck by Alveo because of the bosses
They were my three kings
I was the constant
That was my world in the past
Now I think exiting sales after a day of training in Ayala Land Premier should be worth it
Never regret a day in your life
Bad days always give you experience and a fresh take on your self
Never compromise the flesh and the world and be eaten by it
This is not Venom, this is the real world
I will never compromise my character over people who treat me like a puppeteer when I used to be a puppet to society
The everlasting iconoclast
Do I believe in hardship and suffering!??
Never since I was a born strong woman and have felt the gravity in this world.
I am constantly growing, learning, achieving
I might be stuck now but there always is tomorrow
Hi im sherry, yes sherry
I tried gnocchi the first time yesterday
Rode a car that looked like silver
But they say it was green
Im way too tired
Dealing with my problems
Wanting to push thru alp
But I left them na
Too bad they were so young
So today, I thought I just will not become myself again, or be myself again.
The choices you make define you, see if you pick career and health but end up drowning in stress or loneliness then what is the point, the entirety of the energy you are giving out to the world.
Most peoples take from you, rarely think about themselves as these are the common many, it sure is hard to deal with them on the surface.
But you know deep inside you know your self, what you stood and stand for, and your own net worth.
Only the universe can offer you the best, so choose wisely.
▶️tomorrow the battle of tomorrowland begins
Let this be light in path that I, Sherry Mae T. Chan will be guided by Nirvana and music to heal and step thru darkness and bullets thrown at me at me …behind my back so don’t look back!
~im too tired but the show must go on 💔
Have u ever felt like ur entire life was a lie.
Zombies do exist and ecstacy is just a click or pill away.
Moments have hindered me from believing in fantasy, religion, god, bullshit fake friends, drinking, superseding,
Doing my own thing
It chills me out
Listening to music
Having true valuable friends and loved ones
Not biologically related
People who show than tell
People who have values
And aren’t scared to be themselves
2019 – so lately i have been feeling so much noise, but have keep my inner spirit clean from the noiselessness of the world i have, cut my ties from people who barely cared
I rarely feel ice nowadays but am clinging onto my icebreak sale
Lately there has been so much grievance over my sales life that my content mainly gravitated
Towards the bullshit of it all , if you know what I mean: so maybe I lost sum readers but
Will keep the fight to make this blog bloom 💖
In all fairness and honesty
I get easily distracted by happenings like steel feelings moaning over me
Curbing me to chill ya know
If I got the life , meaning the money I’d go for a bad boy who only wants me and is good at tech and shit and knows his goals really well,
Has philosophy and is unafraid to fight for his dream and loved ones
Recently I have philosophized how working in a nutshell is hard and will and can make you go nuts
Speak of the devil my workmates in Ortigas were all very lovely with their circus piggery attitude and their high regard for illuminati and their lovely boss who calls his team mate “stupid”
Never have I ever cried so hard in this crappy dinosaur restaurant eating paella like shit and ordering a Bicol express Filipino food worth a diamond care of remembering my former boss
I grow so fond
I realised he doesn’t give a damn about me anymore
Since all he thinks
Is im this damsel pabebe alienated family heavy emo girl na nagyayabang mag Atenista #char
So what kung wala akong pamilya jowa kaibigan best pren or like normal na buhay
Natuklasan ko na maigi nang tumira muna magisa para makilala lalo ang sarili
Like u know im super duper proud
I navigated Taiwan, the suburbs and the city itself all on my own at my early 20s
At 22 I was a variety of obesed culture shock edition where my main shelter was Eslite bookstore
24 hours ito and tambayan ko lagi
Tapos I always buy them german beers and roam around like a lost girl
Super saya maging malaya
Minsan wish ko nagkajowa ako pero ok lang kasi inggitera ako super haha
I have confessed feelings for two guys sa alveo not worthy of me este di sila guwapo and all pero mabait
Kaso lang marealise ko na di ko dapat yun ginawa kasi wala naman ako nun sa sarili kakalungkot na ginawa ko yun pero diba we always grow naman to become better versions of ourselves
Basta this 2019 pagpapasensiyahan ko na may attachments pa ko sa nakaraan, na di ako makapag aral nang fashion or writing or german
Na kahit na lola na tingin sakin never ako mag padala lagi sa mga tanders na yan
Cool kid parin tapos swag queen , sasaya parin ako sa pain ko
At naniniwala ako sa mga taong di ako nalimutan at parati akong tinutulungan
I have no time frame actually
Sunod lang ako sa galaw nang mundo
Kahit emotionally abused kid ako and adolescent noon gusto ko kind magara sikat jk magaling and graceful lady naman ako ngayon sa adulthood ko.
Ayoko ma mmk story ko
Pero someday bay may balak ako sana to write an autobiography: a memoir
Sakin lang sapat na na nakita ko yung dalawang may crush sakin sa college nun nung 2017 and 2018
Lam ko may jowa naman sila kaya oks lang
Be graceful and grateful
Sawa na rin ako mag muni muni
Tuloy lang ang segunda mano
Yung orasan palage lang yan nandiyan
Basta one step closer sa pangarap
Kahit anung hirap may ginhawa din
Proud of u Sherry
My greatest ambition
Is to be happy
😇💙👆many thanks readers from all over the world: rome was not built in a day or two , it was built with wings grit and determination
Never give up
Dami mo pa challenges she
Wish ko sana magka anak sa near future, have my clothing store and protection palagi kay Lord
At patawarin niya ko sa lahat nang hurt ko, kasi mahirap walang nakikitang constant eh .
Nalearn ko na di ako maghahanap nang any relationship sa coworkers ko-at never be manipulated by anything.
Saludo ako sa mga mamamayang naniniwala pa at naaalala pa ko
With love always and fearlessness
Stay kind, be golden face the present
Here are sum of my bucketlist
128 follow thank u next
18 follow ig thank u next
2 charity donate phonez lel
thank u third phone plz
highly intuitive organize rm
thank u next
achieving aching believing my
thank u thank u thank u
hope every little thing turns around well / cheers
-to my inactive facebook
So today i woke up very early, 730 am and I saw my tiara when I came to circuit mall again to buy some food and other essentials
I started by bazinga going to shopwise vito cruz since the tricycle fare was only 30 bucks yo going there and like I literally wanted and wished I would have a clothes rack and viola! A kuya found me and he even suggested there was a gray alternative to the black colour and happily assembled it for me! Yay!
Starting 2019 I choose to be positive no matter what and accept all my disasters and negative situations.
I always consider the miles away I had gone thru and looking back is definitely not the answer
I would love to make resolutions so here we go!
1 buy a third phone …yes yes yes
2 spend only on what i need…
3 beautify my room way too much that it declutters itself and can be a symbol of hope strength courage and peace
4 be an inspiration to other people
5 basically be empathic and choose joy, always be kind and respectful most especially grateful
6 leave past behind
7 earn earn hustle hustle
8 be a quick decision maker
9 stop crossing oceans for people who would only cross a puddle for you
10 make you a priority
Thanks 128 followers
11 have 200 followers by Dec 2019
12 back to 138 pounds
13 travel once by myself this year
14 forget ive never been in a relationship before
15 minus the shopping, ukay is lyfer
16 prettify is there is the time
17 away from narcissistic people and idiots, fools
18 be wise and have courage
19 always pray
20 don’t panic chill lang
21 sana mahanap ko na tropa ko, if not ok lang
22 lose the baggage
23 clean room is next to godliness
24 impress yourself not others
25 compete with yourself not others
Forgive people, darling
26 parin ako
F*ck the people and plans who wouldn’t choose me
…forever 21 nbsb pero love hard
Hey loves. Though nobody really reads my blog anymore. It’s efffin fine. I will still create quality content. 🔮
Super happy today ever since 2019 started
I feel like I have so much to let go
My feelings do not define me
And I know how it is
Thats kinda enough
Hard to be livin
But good to be scared the hella outa ya
Kung pasok ba ko
Im soryy if u dont accept me
Di ko pala nga talaga kaya
Ang tanga ko kase
…Woman like me ! 🔮🔫🎐🤘🏻
To the people who hurt me, did me wrong, said shit behind my back, poured me plenty alcohol, backstabbed me
I have this anti bullshit pill for you.
Kindly delete all the contents of this blog from 2017 to 2018
My years were 2010 2011 2012
Sexiest at 2013
Baddest bitch at 2014
Kakagrad ko lang
Tinapon na ko abroad
2015 camp counselor pain
Tryna fit in
dear loveds thanks for always being there for me even though im a perfectly flawed and imperfect being that keeps on changing and spinning around like crazy wherein i have zero friends and fucks to give this fuckin new year since sometimes when i do become alone which is all the time i feel so lonely but i catch myself and always count my blessing
I think at 26 i have grown enough adulthood swag that the swag lowd have mercy on me and my hatred on : lloyd cervantes, hazel dee and jeoff racelis. They hurt me too much like hell
I miss alveo and their culture to the point i wasn’t culture shocked at all
I fear change the most but that is all we always need to move forward
I have come freed from the motherfuckin world
I miss being 22
I miss being thrown to the depths of Taiwan
Not knowing a thing about the universe or the world itself
Just leaving the world of the academe without much merit or recognition
Was truly, deeply hellish
but then again we are the choices that we make.
Last year was a sitch
i can’t believe i got hired like cray 2 days after my birthday
when nobody came and i spent a dime tryna think i could have fun
I will always miss my boss in alveo
The only boss
Next to dior
i know my blog is hoarish but pls bear with me
i have hurt myself Too deeply last year
am quite afraid
But the new will always be new
…no yosi pls sherry
Tama na sa mga taong nakaraan.
Btw facebook stopped me from liking posts again…
more like blocked me.
…God knows everything.
May I always forgive people and accept rejection. May I always accept the past and the mistakes I have been making. Thank you for trusting me the magic of new beginnings，thanks sa mga taong naniniwala pa sakin and salamat sa lahat nang nagawa nang Lord kapit lang at mararating din.
Thanks for making me wake up consistently na nang 8am kasi di ko akalain na maaga na ko nagigising.
Pasasalamat sa mga taong tunay na may pakialam sakin.
Yung mga they took their way to greet me pa sa New Year.
Salamat at may gift din ako galing sa Ninang ko nung End nang 2018.
It means a lot really.
The magic of waking up to a peaceful place.
My condo. My year.
Anything I want to be.
Thanks, 125 followers.
If it weren’t for you,
I might have given up
Dear 122 followers
You never know how much you make my holidays happy
I didn’ t celebrate Christmas and the New Years thru all the hurt I have received
I tried wrapping excellent gifts for others but got none so much in return
I always always wished I had a foster fam but now that I am an adult, I just have to continue on my 18 year old dream to become independent.
I don’ t ever want to brag but at 26 I feel like I have soared enough skies to heal my broken wings and rise again
I can’t wait for the movie “Dark Phoenix”as I myself have struggled over many opportunities in the past that didn’t push thru due to parental or home reasons
Am glad to have my Makati condo since June 2017 and my real world existence to be in peace
Even though this year I got run over by a tric
I am extremely hugely grateful for all my blessings
I may not have gotten gifts
But my self love is quite enough to pull myself through
Hey y’all. I dunno whats up anymore lately. I feel like something strange weird is going on but no more feels and fucks to give since people keep taking and taking. And im too tired anymore to give. To show them my true self and feelings. Because once you do they pounce on you like a cheetah. Super cray. Keeping to yourself is power. Also stop the negativity and the trauma. You know you are a good person. So much angst since teenage years but oh hey age doesn’t matter. Try to think positive despite all your downfall
Most especially, love and light ✖⚜⛾ create
If there is one thing I regret nowadays it’s being too kind and overreaching to people who never will, ever.
Deserve my kindness and strength
See oftentimes we think it would be better to leave people alone. But no, we must in fact keep loving this cruel world inspite of the fact that the people we love actually harbor hatred towards us
And that my dear is the time you your self should set yourself on fire and set love free
Dont keep others warm
Stay close who truly slay kindness
And know the worth of glory honour respect and most especially,
Thanks be to God.
My 2018 was silly af
Thanks for making me rich in intuition and selfless ignorance
That though people hurt me, etc
I still go on
Merry Christmas loves
Thanks be to all the kindest souls I have met
And will yet to meet !!!! 📿
Calm become be good be good
Love love and love stop
Love love and love
Even though you fall
Can say you have loved
Though nobody sometimes ,
Sabi nila pag nag sipag ka makukuha mo rin
Yung ninanais mo na ginhawa
Sabi nila mag sikap ka upang makita
Ang mga upalap sa mundo
Ginto ng katotohanan
Mga minamahal at minahal
Sa buhay, sabi nila
Pag respetuhin mo yung iba giginhawa ka rin
Ako pagod na pagod na
Sa mga kabuluhan dito sa mundo
Di na kaya ni Sherry
Sobrang pagod na ko
As in tutal parang halos
His Will Be Done
I Miss Manning.
I dunno anymore since im way too tired to fight anything, fear anything, worry about tomorrow, solving my adult problem, finding a boyfriend, a bestfriend, adventure
And also never giving up, always the light, dignity
Speaking up, owning your voice, cherishing the moment, representing your past, moving towards the present
Its always darkest
Before Dawn, YOLO 🎀🤗
Thank u Lord for all my blessing
Though I can’t make my Apple Macbook Air work like I want to
I deeply wish you will give me someone who can teach me tech stuff
And make me interested in graphic design and video editing again
Often I Reminisce the Times
I used to stay up all night and day trying to edit videos in college
Up to this day in my old Macbook White it still
I wish I can be a pro again @ video editing
Will surely cheer me up
I know I’m Super Fly, ☆ ey 119 followers
I am entirely grateful u all been there with me, truly universe has been so kind, im broke and jobless, kinda, i got an insurance job, was very very very lucky 😚
I passed the exams last October 26.
I resigned from Ortigas October 13.
Since then Hallelujah
I met a bad bitch boss at Ortigas who promised me entry again next twenty o nine but she left me gaping… I thought she said six mos. exit then come back around but hell no, she f*cking left me in the air, like hanging there with so much pain tbh since I was hoping to get back at the bad bosses downing me out and backlashing me out.
But then I realize as I swam this real world loves me so much.
No need to have comparison over others, as God has loved me thru thick and thin. He gave me a 2nd life when I was eight and dying. Though my mum and dad are cruel people, He always gave me the back hand and the upper edge to succeed in no matter any situation
Let me meet people who were and always will be, amazing
Btw I went home today shopping for Christmas, most of them were pink, classy and unicorn style，
I miss Ateneo, I miss Ms Dior from Taipei, I miss Alveo and Boss Gad,
I miss our dog Ollie Back Home…the home I will never run back
To no matter how hopeless I am, no matter how injured, hurt, even though just recently I got hit AF by a tric but he was nice as he took me in for a free ride since I was stunned shookt there, like basically motionless, kneeling
In my wounds…pero in fair
Di siya malala
Kaya super thanks 💋
Can’t wait for 2019, am sad Karina is sad and Aljon got evicted sa PBB
I thought of vlogging my life pero parang di na ganun ka natural pag ivlog mo haha,
Dame kong nakakausap sa labas,
I even got lost in Poblacion only to have my lost TIN ID notarized quite expensively for 250 bucks, sinabi nung guy na nag sell nang burgers na Car name yung names nang burgers na mahal daw dapat 100 to 150 lang yung price.
Pinakaasar ako is that I waited mga 10 ish to 15 min, parang eternity yon kasi the guy there was like making landi to his old classmate instead of working, like inuna pa niya mag add sa FB kaysa gawin yung Notary ko, dafudge diba
Tapos nainis na ko kasi hello nag aantay ako amp tas mahal pa sinigil saken huwaw such work ethic… sometimes ya know
I secretly wish I was missed by my co-workers in Ortigas
Kasi pati ba naman sa Circuit
Nakita ako lel
Like she shouted, “Sherry!”
While I was crossing the lil pedestrian at the back
And um na huwaw ako na Sherry finally tinawag niya sakin
Kasi names are important ya know!
Sobrang saya ko na nawalan ako nang takot sa Angkas
It made me feel like a rockstar
Sana buhay ko ganon
Fyi sobrang gandara nang calling card
Pinagawa ko sa Chill Hub
Grabe galing nila
Sarap talaga mag promote hehe
Like maybe doing a vlog might be so nice
But the mystery and the sponteneity of you, living your raggedy, jackass of a life
Might be lost right
Di perfect buhay
Wala akong ya know
Kinakaya ko naman
Kasi di mo naman kailangan muna
Dame ko pang pangarap na magagawa
Like it was my first time this December to clean my meager apartment
And clean it like hell
Tryna find my TIN card!
Then awhile ago sa morning I was so happy I got to Atrium Makati to finally
Hopefully get my TIN ID tom
Btw Affidavit of loss pala yung tinaga saken
Mediyo first time ko rin kasi asikasuhin yang
Mga yan oh btw I stole a knife um jk fork today mahahaa
Um natapon ko din ata yung Sterling spoon and fork ko sa apartment kaya yun squad poor life talaga
Tapos di na ko nagpapaapekto sa mga humihingi nang money sa sampaguita
Kasi last year andame ko na binili sa mga yan
Pati rose nga eh
To be continued
So the ganap is I went to Makati City Hall last Dec 6 to get my NSO and got my SSS verified at PRC and submitted my requirements for Grepa Life Insurance, so I can get my code and start selling.
I am tryna focusing on myself these days and am really hurt, wasak and lonely but it doesn’t affect me at all. All I do is try hardest to be productive and jam many things in the day to make it work like in Dec 6 all I did was 1) verify my SSS which was already existing
2) get my NSO well nauna ito kaya yun, mabilis lang ang process
3) I paid mah rent asap so Insured na ko sa January kasi di ako nakikipag communicate sa mom ko kaya di niya binayara rent, este caretaker had to contact her and she didn’t pick up the phone daw so text nalang, nakakahiya diba
4) paid grepa insurance fee at RCBC well easy peasy
5) go to my dentist who was a bitch at real world circumstances like um why do we even small talk lel …i still wear retainers hot dang. Ugm
6) go to Brahma Kumaris
The same day… Makati, I rode behind the tric drivers back omg cringe but well ganyan talaga kapag mahirap na este tag hirap na lalo na pasko season traffic kaoras uy
7) Made it to Brahma Makati paying only 40 bucks kasi nga nakisakay lang ako galing kalye after crossing the long damn train in Filmore like guh
8) thought of taking a cab to La Fuerza to eat dinner at Lido but plan failed
9) I got into some weird crazy maniac …again cab driver whom I asap lipad na kasi ew, di niya lam san yung La Fuerza At Chino Roces uhuh
10) So I dropped the cab sa Amorsolo kasi yun lang kaya ko ituro fron GMaps ayay
11) Naligaw nanaman sa Makati, before that nag lakad lakad pala ako bago nag cab…
13) I bailed the German party thing at La Fuerza since ang late na tapos may “interview” ako sa bitchy boss nato na gurl na sinabi na on the fri of next week daw nyak napakaspecific day, di man lang sinabi yung date ang gulo noh,
14) so Like after fixing my adult problems the entire day, made lil tambay to Cash n Carry, rode the dang tric to Bagtikan cor Zobel St. in San Antonio
15) In a nutshell naligaw sa Amorsolo, nagtambay sa isang weird lil resto na nag sell nang nike shoes, yosi at anu pang kakaibang merch
16) I therefore went home na kasi wawa naman diba may interview
17) crazy part is of course duh the next day mamimis ko yung interview ko sad
18) which is worse kasi inadvice ko yung bossy bitch na malalate ako kasi 10 yung interview sa CV tapos ulul gagu 2am as always gising pa yours truly diba
19) tapos alam naman niya na nag linis ako nang bahay because did I mention, To her na linigpit ko lahat nang bahay ko maghanap lang nang TIN ID ko for requirements sa GREPA
20) Which, to my disadvantage, my so called biological mutter confiscated my passport weeks months ago and I decided to cut my ties with them like yeah, you deserve it ,all of YOU.
21) I wanna cry but tears can’t stream down my tear ducts anymore lel
22) So there I finished going to the dentist Today, for my Retainers
And then the sitch is, I keep eating sticky foods like craving them and shit like pichi pichi and not working out oh noes
And um I was so very happy I was able to buy lots of kutchinta huhu awhile ago huhu super huhu food is soul like lifer ahuhu
23) mediyo naaawa na ko sa sarili ko at this point
24) pero keri lang hehe
Dame kong haters btw
Like sa real life, di lang family ko…
Dami nag hurt saken dis year,
Pati yung boss bitch na tatrabahuan ko nayayabangan ako sakanya like oh my
Di nag rereply,
Im the girl na kahit ilang buwan ako tulog este tameme namahiga sa kama,
Never ako yung type na di gagawa nang paraan para umusad
Para kong gago kakamessenger nang maayos grabe sobrang nega nya
Like RIP Sales na siguro for me,
Sobra akong winasak wild talaga ang drama drama dameng peke jan na tao kala mo mabait wala namang halaga ang puso mo sakanila
I cannot compose myself out of speechlessness and the hatred
You just cennet help it
Fyi si ateng boss pa grabe kabulul sa English
Yubung yubung gawd
Like omg can you take my life already
Im about to explode
Di ko kaya
Alam ko TMI eto pero swear, ang hirap mag panggap na okay lang lahat at okay lang sinasaktan ka, di ka binibigyan nang kaluluwa
Kahit kaluluwa nalang eh
Dami rin gago jan
Lalo na mga lalake
Hanep talaga si Ateng, sinabi niya “I want you to be part of my team”… im like
No mam go KEKE yourself… magsama kayo ni LEC jan sa Ortigas
So kapal uh
No matter what, stand up, fight for something. Be happy. Stay calm，be happy. Life is short. Love your life. Love yourself. Love your enemies. Forgive ，let go. Let God ，you will win
Sometimes, I wonder
If it is worth the pain and risk to endure all the attacks, cruelty, stares, glares, stars, signs, almighty power of the world.
To not give a fuck
Is like removing your heart
That constantly pumps sorrows of veins and oxygenated blood
Whatever happened to chivalry, to people who are actually, decent and kind
To people who actually, look good and make u feel good,
To people who actually, respect that you are straight af
That you dont apparently like lgbt peers but respect them.
To people who dont have a fam
But get over life like its their last laugh
Where are those people
I know most of you have lives, lives meaning you got friends, a family more or less, a good home, a stable income, or a committed partner.
Times have been changing and lately, I just laugh off my depression and anxiety since the world is too cruel to be true.
But other times, I gain inspiration from other people I observe from he streets, people who are homeless, clothes and all, no food to eat.
Those who just lay in the streets, while watching expensive luxurious black friday hauls on Youtube and being hella scared off my future.
Me ready to die anytime soon, 26 and partyless friendless alone and living broke as hell.
I just wanna have decent friends who share my emotional fields, battles, common ground.
Those who are willing to fight for me as I am for them.
Those who prioritize the time we spent.
People who are, authentic.
Well, to normalize, extraordinary but normal, people.
I may not know how to be one, as my heart turned cold last June 2018 when my work with Ayala Land disappeared.
I decided to blew things off by deciding for myself and by myself, with a blessing from my entrepreneur uncle, none so from my so called biological rents.
As I write this worrying about everything, I pray I can have the heart to start all over again.
To the people reading this, bless you more and have a great last days of November.
Love you all.
Ey guys and girls
For not leaving me
All the likes
For 116 🔥
Love ya all
In five months
I will be turning 27
I lost everything
I left em
They are so arbitrary
Very money minded
I am super psyched for 2019
Am bit worried about finances
But I always have full of hope
Thanks to you guys
Facebook is boo yah
WordPress is the best
Yours truly since 2015
Ps hope to make my own youtube channel
That vietnamese korean looking, chinese looking Asian stroller
Haha peace 🏜
Idol ko 🏖
Walang ganap sa buhay ko,
Bumili lang ako tagal na nang mirror na buy one take one sa shopwise.
It costs around 853 ish
Pero like nobody like would help me place it at the wall,
Our caretaker at the condo sucks
But ey its okay
I remember the time nakadampot ako nang 60 php …note tig bebente na tatlo
Sa labas nang condo namin
The world goes round.
Tutuo ang karma.
Wag mag hinay hinay or mahinaan nang loob.
As they say,
Laban at umahon
Here is me to my new job at Grepa
Hope to earn commision work
Hope to get back to ortigas
Hope to forget meine enemies
Hope to live a fun life
Cheers xx Sher
why it pays to be kind humble and smart
nowadays ive been on the hunt for genuine happiness. facebook has been such a joy giver all the pages or blogs per se i follow post some ridiculous on point (pardon the jargon) shit that totally meshes well or like, um relates well in my life, speaking of, I keep ordering mcdonalds delivery food, note the double iced coffee for my caffeine boost and extra virgin vanilla jk lawl ive been dealing heavy stuff lately. I mean my blog means the world to me as it is my baby. It really makes me happy someone, you probably don’t know, but a simple like can make my day bloom.
It has been 35 days since I resigned. I have gone through emotional whirlwinds I cannot myself comprehend. Done shit as an agent I couldn’t fuckin compromise as it goes against my logic and identity… Things such as
1 begging clients in chinese, translating chinese, helping my teammates …former,speak in chinese hilariously
2 chasing richies
3 giving my card and having small talk la la
4 enjoying the fuck out of my job
… i feel like my life died a bit when i left sales
Good thing, Ms J …lets just call her that, came to my rescue last September 4 like omg I was getting bully vibes from my teammates but nonetheless, Karma is there to teach us humility and patience,
So I met this lady who gave me her card.
I got deep, deep salute to her as she is the Girl Boss I always always will follow and admire …hello Dior, my first official girl boss.
Also Ms Mary Chinjen, shout out to you,
I hope you both will make my journey worthwhile and teach me lessons worth more than a golden minefield.
To my Taiwan experience, goodbye. Also, Alveo. Good bye.
Love you all.
xx Sher 2018
pls dont be scared
keep the faith
the rest will follow
as i stood there shaken, i got no words but tongue tied and struck by
still truck movin way
some body once told me
im too quiet to become anything
better be quiet than to retaliate
you better regret
all you people
who hurt me
so i got up
i started dorm 2009
barely slept since
my family is so cold
my crushes gone
but my life still
so i totally like today
whilst it still
is 11:54,i miss LA and the good vibes around there .
yeah nobody cares
i often try
but when do i stop
my patience eventually runs
neither does my career shift
it has been hard
i pretend it is all happy
post nice shit on fb
live my legacy as an eagle
but wounds hurt
and my heart dies day by day
emo much but ey
so much people hurt me
should i still
or run away
…cheers from my enemies
recently i made my first trip to divisoria alone at manila,
for foreigners, divisoria is a thrift flea market that sells all kind of crazy affordably ridiculous things
if you know how to haggle
since last 2013
i came there
went back last Nov 12
prices have indeed changed
like pricey AF
but am glad super
i was able to go by myself
despite fearing getting lost
many kind souls were there to guide my way
and even make chit chat to me
like there really are sellers dedicated
to their job
and some really kind
see you, sales
thank u, next xx sher
shoot for the moon, so that when you fall you will land amongst the stars
i can’t thank the lord enough how much it took me to resign and bring back the faith i got
you may,call it
i have been working my ass off double shift since january
i was completely terrified
getting kicked out of real estate
getting tormented and laughed at by wicked bosses
yun lang ang masasabi
mga pangarap,anu pinapaglaban mo
ang mga nananakit
may bagong araw,oras,panahon sa isang araw
okay lang di niyo ko tawagan, pamilya ko
tuloy lang ako sa mundo.
wala man love life
okay na okay gud
tapos natutuwa ako
naka divi magisa guy
music is my everything
my soulmate, best friend, comforter
so am not too religious
thanks a mil
closing time, every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end…
never regret a day in your life. good days bring you hope，all days are
i truly regret ,2018 has been such a wasted year
i left my job at alveo
in the dumpster
worked for sh*t ass bosses
who cannot get THE work done
and even handle you with this nasty, self entitlement you got served dish.
so dont work for them
im very worried
not my thing.
i cried before
see the huge or like life time
i made !
wtf holy sh*t, like
i woke up
and my jobs gone.
i still have two months …
two months for what !
contract ends december 20
who cares ?
evil is evil
and choose your battle
love and light
i never quite like them romantic stories where people say sappy shit and make googly eyes with one another.
i lost five …and still counting, motherfucking years in,my life
all started 2014.
this will be my first christmas,alone
no family yeps yeps
no more shit tours…
i love y’all
sometimes i feel cold hearted but the numb
sardonic feel of it all kinda succumbs to the fact :
i just want to be happy.
over the course of my life i have gained enough courage to let go of the past but sometimes dreams come in the form of water to shake us out of our reality, the doors we dared opened and the consequences we face everyday, the decisions we make and fight .
i deeply cannot forgive my mom and all her antics, drama and mess
but i know as an adult i am responsible for what i say and do, and saying less means being blessed more by grace everyday and my faith stands stronger and moves mountains,
as i write this, i wish my life were just a paper towns movie.
everything is on paper
and you just watch the roles play.
and you could disappear and no one will notice
… note the jenna hamilton reference
my life feels like it went dead for five years
i just woke up and opened my eyes to a new light… that of being an adult but missing the lingering feeling of being a teenaged rebel who always possessed spunk, attitude and rock and roll vibes
to the talented college admu me who sang avril songs precomposed by me, edited and shit
and people just congratulated you
for the insane lyrics and humour of it all
to sleeping in class and lousy prefactorial teachers like theologians cray waking the hell outta you and asking you silly questions like phone sex and shit
like whut in the world
and you blabber some nonsense sense-ical answer in return
why is life like a moving train
you see it in pictures,
you pretend its a movie
but movies end
in,tightropes and figures
speeches and remarks
winners and trophys
what about- the battle of troy, significance and splendor
the glory of death
of fight club
-people who actually cared
hello loves. it felt good to be 26. turning 27 in april next year but the hype continues on proving myself to the world . its quite disappointing im no performer in the realm of arts, a designer by profession, a business owner or something that i dream of.. all i did was graduate admu by 21 and work
you know that feeling when you get older you get some bee jees or like hair raising feel that you are actually alive
and nobody can bring you down
because you only get one life
so might as well be the best version of your self
learn from your mistakes,
truly appreciate people
most esp God
the Maker of all good things
Someone you can come to
Someone whom gave you enough battles to prove to the world you are not a weakling
So if you get depressed some days
Or if you are living alone like me
Get out and talk to people
I may be out of sales
But my heart for humanity
is not ever cold
thank you everyone
i hope u become successful
woke up in the morning today
i have been having insomnia for the past two weeks
im glad i woke up at 7 today when i slept at three
thats the grandest
i also unfollowed my first 💋
im glad i was friends with T and he didn’t block me when I said goodbye to him
Im quite sad nobody likes my blog posts anymore
But its alright.
I originally planned to go shopping today
Ukay in Philippines or Thriftshop
But Im too lazy
Way too tired cleaning everyday
Wish I have kids already
Anyhow boo hoo
Happy halloween loves
Thanks for 103 friends in FB, 40 followers in IG and 112 here at WordPress
im quite happy beyond odds
ive liked my own post four times
not expecting anyone to like this anymore
but will keep fighting
i cannot believe
i was able
to make it
i got invited for a free event
all of a sudden
i went there
was thirty min late
and the lady outside the booth promoting stuff ushered me like cray
there were no ushers
i was so blessed nakarating ako
first time ko manuod
like when i entered it felt like a bar slash boxing ring feel
then i just listend to ate telling me which direction to go
that was the highlight i guess
people guiding you when you feel lost as fuck
putting walls down
efforts that remain unanswered
may pa ballet dance pa
and talk about death
such a meaning full pre halloween for me
i wished my mom wer there to watch with me
so many tears flood this 2018
keep going, strong woman
hey all its raining today in mnl philippines and i recently got out my condo to buy food and shakes, paid 20 to the tric driver whom told me he always noticed me walking by the streets, commenting i walk quite too far from where i was going and im like shutting up since he is a stranger old man and im minding my own business
kidding aside i literally save money by walking so even though plenty times jeepneys motorbikes esp cars beep honk and yap at me, like “DO YOU WANNA DIE”
I still cross the streets and walk.
Tbh abroad you can easily navigate the streets due to pedestrians and walkways,
how i wish in the future there will be a plan to build more walkways in the streets so people wont jaywalk anymore
i miss working
later on i might try to go out again and go to circuit and pretend i have a social life
i was invited to a free entrance to power mac spotlight and it might be my first time to watch there if ever i do come
wish me luck
my mom wants me home since i know marami yan papautos sakin
im like no mom im staying here
been nice and warm
we can never really wait for the one, our soulmate or that one guy
just that one guy .
most days i listen to music and sleep during the day like a vampire awake at night and full of the moon and thoughts that both disturb and intrigue me …1000 to 5000 thoughts they say
all i have right now is panic at the disco and this is gospel, my music and own beat. my disposition and my choice continues to use logic and calmness to my solution as the world spins around and what goes around comes back around
my mom has been such a stella in the abs cbn drama as she always goes so dramatic and full of blame
i changed since i dont react anymore to her hurled comments
basically keep quiet or minimal but strong reply to her messages
i dont wanna go home until 2019 dawns on me
i always appreciate people supporting me
ive been fighting a war since 2013 october when i fell literally five times hundred
i am coping
i know one day my day will come
here is to all people who dream
a life of significance
you become better
just around the corner
so like yestuhday i took my insurance exam like a pro __ um
i really didn’t study much so i quite predicted to say sorry i failed the test since it has 50 items and the mock exams were quite difficult to understand……
a miracle happened, all my sleepless nights worrying turned out real mighty fine as i took the exam around 15 min since computerized and time limit and all and you gotta have a username
mine was st.chan@acevariable
i had a great time last oct 24 -25 since
i went to the gym then was able to buy at kevins toy store 100 php real cool collectible toys probably from clash of clans
they also sell ninja turtle
pero mejo hype
kaya i went with the unique quirky cool ones
check my ig they’re there.
the next morning as always unable to have a sleep cycle i basically ordered yet another mcdonalds delivery but this time it was the best as it arrived no sooner than ten minutes and the two piece chix was so delish like uhhhm
then i grab then arrived at un ave…
what to expect
i hate exams since sales made me dumber people watching…
i passed oh waw
for like fifteen minutes
trauma na ko sa exam
kasi like the last exam sa ortigas training (they literally have a lot of training) … my seatmate checked my answer wrong when it was right.
tapos ako pag mag check nung sakanya kahit mali spelling check nalang like i just gauged it on his deviance more than the regular academic precision
but he naman on the other hand corrected my super duper minor mistakes like maybe my handwriting was not legible for his understanding.
was making my right answer wrong to the point i had to ask a random girl seatmate on the left if tama ba yung sagot
i woulda gotten three or like two dumb mistakes lang but i got like around 4.5 or 5 mistakes thanks to him
actually 2 mistakes lang
pero the trainor gio praised me naman
tapos ako lang nakapasok from our so called team sa training room
since my then boss threatened me of salary deduction if i didn’t come
may sakit pa ko non
enough about it
im quite ecstatic napasa ko yung license exam
i was ready to fail pero waw
and btw glorietta 3 and 4 are the best
never ko na appreciate since always manning ako since 2017 sa ayala malls greenbelt and glorietta
di ko alam ano na mangyari sakin
sira yung circadian rhythm ko huhuhuhu
ilang weeks na kong zombie
100 years na
nag move out ako dorm na sa college di nakakatulog
sleep is life pa naman
sana naman maging maayos na
tipidera pa kasi sobrang takot ako walang allowance
tapos may client na nag offer nanaman nang job
tama na pls
sobrang dami na kong nakilala this year tbh na gusto ako ihire
dream ko lang naman magkastore na street vibes hay hay buhay
my fashion designer dreams died
but i still doodle.
dunno about ma though
hirap na magaral pag nagtatrabaho ka na
unless kaya mo ibalance
ok thanks bye
sorry for the rant
im so tired the whole motherfucking year
met tons of people
i hope i get my voice heard
up to the next years
Standard times , call for big things
life is perfect
especially to those who know how to wait and run at the same time.
today was amazing! i just revamped my blog again for some grunge vibes since im really emo in persona
and its halloween yay folks!
today i fit a beige whitish chunky heels that cost 450 php and like the lady was telling in the air how it looked pretty on me but like i cant really wear it so it just looked purdy
i realize since 2017 or 2016 when i knew about my savings leftover in the bank, basically debut money as charity from my always ever money loving rents…
i kept buying stuff i dont need.
talagang hoarder ako ng abubut at mga kyuti na bagay
tapos di naman nagagamit
i am still learning
esp how broke i am slash broken inside
thanks to the people who like my content
hearing me out yo
its been a wild ride
i miss you, sales
sana ok lang ako maging magisa sa pasko
hahah im changing na sobra
good luck to me bukas
oks lang walang may pake alam nang ig ko
mga reasons ko kung bakit nagresign ako
sapat na tong blog
kalimutan mo na yan