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You just know when you have written the stars already but it begs to be rewritten. I often crave for stability but people will never see my persistent desire to free myself from the shackles of society, unmended but unbent and unbroken

Jk Rowling did not became an author if she had not faced and of her demons unfazed and conpletely fought for her rights.

In this real world, nobody gives a shit where you came from, what your mission here is, what your intent lies.

All they care about is what they get from the situation

I realised how, if ever we got our constants to have our backs then we would never beg for us to become prone to self reliance.

Our intelligent and wit is our greatest enemy and weapon.

If we let society mule and control us, we would be killing our self joy and pride.

Ego drives us to the goal, but patience is the key to our happiness behind the lenses of oppresion and belligerent suffering.

 

Know nothing

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The personal is the political

My voice is lost.

By doing so many routines, like paying bills, tryna overlook the future, moving on to further heights, armageddon hurt

Losing your power is like losing your self, your boss, your ally.

What we mirror becomes our reality.

Sometimes we go too far in life, we forget the fact that we too have weaknesses which people use against us.

It is too rare nowadays for people to just …be themselves.

The farther you go, the realization sinks in.

There were some people who really believed in you, whether they have destroyed you or made you more mature.

Their words hurt.

But you know,

It is up to you to become so affected to the noise.

Up to you.

To listen.

To be patient.

Practice patience.

We get all what we deserve.

Only God knows what we are up to.

Achilles heel.

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I will never forget this day I got hold up by the world and felt compromised in a way that I mirrored myself through reflections and thoughts and analyzed them and finally figured out how people easily see through me and I reframed my mind and weakness to the point it was becoming a struggle to become myself since I don’t know if I should change and play the games of this wild world or stay true to who I am where the lotus in me broke and that inner child died and was replaced by a bloody version eager to prey on others as to which my journey continues on how do I handle problems like a monkey, an adult, or a lion.

 

Will I keep on this game and continue it like an adult and be influenced by the deadly world, or do I retreat in my sanctuary and still be myself, listen to the still, small voice and wait.

For change to come

Where is my million

Why do I have to endure bloodshot eyes and bloodshed and recognize the lack of validity love structure support spine in my family…the root cause of evil, the main reason I got shookt and taken by societal norms and dunno whether to conform and fight for myself or face moral obligation as a mere mortal and surrender everything to God.

 

Only He knows my true worth and struggle

 

Please pray for me.

 

Am I done in sales or is life truly just a matter of playing hide and seek

Of deceit and figures

Disillusionment and illusion

Will I throw away my sanity and literature world to this futile collaborative, destructive world of mortal combat

Or take everything literally and lose my world of literature, adventure, sense, being, time, philosophy, moral values, my distinction of right and wrong.

When does this life end?…when will my suffering end

I figured I should just put a stop to sales. I have harbored enough hatred and disfigured negativity and am tired of playing poker cards chess horsemanship when they cannot even back me up

So much for you,

Ayala Land Premier

What brand

Ortigas & Company

Love the brand, hate the people culture and bigotry and hurt they piled up inside my heart and made me a human monster

-how not to be influenced by others, become a noncomformist

When you were born a fucked up leader and born to stand out in a world of lies continuing to hurt and manipulate you?!

Sherry,

Forever my friend and constant enemy

Sobrang hirap mamuhay pag nagiba values mo.

Kahit manalo ka, tibay parin ang lakas na alam mo nasa lugar ka

And hindi ka ever vinulgar nang mundo, ibang tao, impuwensiya at iba pa

 

So much for society

I have killed myself and reborn myself a million years for sales

Trumped persistence and trumped everything over and over again

Kneeled and bowed down to my own biological parents, who shookted me into the world, constantly apologized for people who will never understand me and see my worth.

 

Thanks to the people who truly supported me

Ms Dior and Boss Gad

I always struck by Alveo because of the bosses

They were my three kings

I was the constant

That was my world in the past

Now I think exiting sales after a day of training in Ayala Land Premier should be worth it

Never regret a day in your life

Bad days always give you experience and a fresh take on your self

Never compromise the flesh and the world and be eaten by it

This is not Venom, this is the real world

 

I will never compromise my character over people who treat me like a puppeteer when I used to be a puppet to society

 

Yours truly,

The everlasting iconoclast

 

Do I believe in hardship and suffering!??

 

Never since I was a born strong woman and have felt the gravity in this world.

 

I am constantly growing, learning, achieving

 

I might be stuck now but there always is tomorrow

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So today, I thought I just will not become myself again, or be myself again.

The choices you make define you, see if you pick career and health but end up drowning in stress or loneliness then what is the point, the entirety of the energy you are giving out to the world.

Most peoples take from you, rarely think about themselves as these are the common many, it sure is hard to deal with them on the surface.

But you know deep inside you know your self, what you stood and stand for, and your own net worth.

Only the universe can offer you the best, so choose wisely.

……@quitnaALP

Gods sign

Have u ever felt like ur entire life was a lie.

Zombies do exist and ecstacy is just a click or pill away.

Moments have hindered me from believing in fantasy, religion, god, bullshit fake friends, drinking, superseding,

Doing my own thing

Sometimes

Scares me

But

It chills me out

Like

Listening to music

Having true valuable friends and loved ones

True ones

Not biologically related

Just people

Pep talk

Truth

People who show than tell

People who have values

And aren’t scared to be themselves

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Rich in God.

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2019 – so lately i have been feeling so much noise, but have keep my inner spirit clean from the noiselessness of the world i have, cut my ties from people who barely cared 

I rarely feel ice nowadays but am clinging onto my icebreak sale

Lately there has been so much grievance over my sales life that my content mainly gravitated

Towards the bullshit of it all , if you know what I mean: so maybe I lost sum readers but

Will keep the fight to make this blog bloom 💖

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In all fairness and honesty

I get easily distracted by happenings like steel feelings moaning over me

Like um

Curbing me to chill ya know

If I got the life , meaning the money I’d go for a bad boy who only wants me and is good at tech and shit and knows his goals really well,

Has philosophy and is unafraid to fight for his dream and loved ones

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Recently I have philosophized how working in a nutshell is hard and will and can make you go nuts

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Speak of the devil my workmates in Ortigas were all very lovely with their circus piggery attitude and their high regard for illuminati and their lovely boss who calls his team mate “stupid”

Never have I ever cried so hard in this crappy dinosaur restaurant eating paella like shit and ordering a Bicol express Filipino food worth a diamond care of remembering my former boss

I grow so fond

Of

Then

I realised he doesn’t give a damn about me anymore

Since all he thinks

Is im this damsel pabebe alienated family heavy emo girl na nagyayabang mag Atenista #char

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So what kung wala akong pamilya jowa kaibigan best pren or like normal na buhay

 

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Natuklasan ko na maigi nang tumira muna magisa para makilala lalo ang sarili

Like u know im super duper proud

I navigated Taiwan, the suburbs and the city itself all on my own at my early 20s

At 22 I was a variety of obesed culture shock edition where my main shelter was Eslite bookstore

24 hours ito and tambayan ko lagi

Tapos I always buy them german beers and roam around like a lost girl

Super saya maging malaya

Minsan wish ko nagkajowa ako pero ok lang kasi inggitera ako super haha

I have confessed feelings for two guys sa alveo not worthy of me este di sila guwapo and all pero mabait

Kaso lang marealise ko na di ko dapat yun ginawa kasi wala naman ako nun sa sarili kakalungkot na ginawa ko yun pero diba we always grow naman to become better versions of ourselves

Basta this 2019 pagpapasensiyahan ko na may attachments pa ko sa nakaraan, na di ako makapag aral nang fashion or writing or german

Na kahit na lola na tingin sakin never ako mag padala lagi sa mga tanders na yan

Cool kid parin tapos swag queen , sasaya parin ako sa pain ko

At naniniwala ako sa mga taong di ako nalimutan at parati akong tinutulungan

I have no time frame actually

Sunod lang ako sa galaw nang mundo

Kahit emotionally abused kid ako and adolescent noon gusto ko kind magara sikat jk magaling and graceful lady naman ako ngayon sa adulthood ko.

Ayoko ma mmk story ko

Pero someday bay may balak ako sana to write an autobiography: a memoir

Sakin lang sapat na na nakita ko yung dalawang may crush sakin sa college nun nung 2017 and 2018

Lam ko may jowa naman sila kaya oks lang

Never assuming

Be graceful and grateful

Sawa na rin ako mag muni muni

Tuloy lang ang segunda mano

Yung orasan palage lang yan nandiyan

Basta one step closer sa pangarap

Kahit anung hirap may ginhawa din

Proud of u Sherry

My greatest ambition

Is to be happy

😇💙👆many thanks readers from all over the world: rome was not built in a day or two , it was built with wings grit and determination

Never give up

Dami mo pa challenges she

Wish ko sana magka anak sa near future, have my clothing store and protection palagi kay Lord

At patawarin niya ko sa lahat nang hurt ko, kasi mahirap walang nakikitang constant eh .

Nalearn ko na di ako maghahanap nang any relationship sa coworkers ko-at never be manipulated by anything.

Saludo ako sa mga mamamayang naniniwala pa at naaalala pa ko

With love always and fearlessness

Stay kind, be golden face the present

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Dear fellas

Here are sum of my bucketlist

128 follow thank u next

18 follow ig thank u next

2 charity donate phonez lel

thank u third phone plz

highly intuitive organize rm

thank u next

achieving aching believing my

dreams

thank u thank u thank u

hope every little thing turns around well / cheers

-to my inactive facebook

my little angels and saviour

Choose your battles

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So today i woke up very early, 730 am and I saw my tiara when I came to circuit mall again to buy some food and other essentials

I started by bazinga going to shopwise vito cruz since the tricycle fare was only 30 bucks yo going there and like I literally wanted and wished I would have a clothes rack and viola! A kuya found me and he even suggested there was a gray alternative to the black colour and happily assembled it for me! Yay!

Starting 2019 I choose to be positive no matter what and accept all my disasters and negative situations.

I always consider the miles away I had gone thru and looking back is definitely not the answer

I would love to make resolutions so here we go!

1 buy a third phone …yes yes yes

2 spend only on what i need…

3 beautify my room way too much that it declutters itself and can be a symbol of hope strength courage and peace

4 be an inspiration to other people

5 basically be empathic and choose joy, always be kind and respectful most especially grateful

6 leave past behind

7 earn earn hustle hustle

8 be a quick decision maker

9 stop crossing oceans for people who would only cross a puddle for you

10 make you a priority

Thanks 128 followers

11 have 200 followers by Dec 2019

12 back to 138 pounds

13 travel once by myself this year

14 forget ive never been in a relationship before

15 minus the shopping, ukay is lyfer

16 prettify is there is the time

17 away from narcissistic people and idiots, fools

18 be wise and have courage

19 always pray

20 don’t panic chill lang

21 sana mahanap ko na tropa ko, if not ok lang

22 lose the baggage

23 clean room is next to godliness

24 impress yourself not others

25 compete with yourself not others

Forgive people, darling

26 parin ako

So yey

F*ck the people and plans who wouldn’t choose me

…forever 21 nbsb pero love hard

Balang araw

😙mememememememe

Jwk

Sanctify.

Hey loves. Though nobody really reads my blog anymore. It’s efffin fine. I will still create quality content. 🔮

Super happy today ever since 2019 started

I feel like I have so much to let go

Let God

My feelings do not define me

And I know how it is

Thats kinda enough

Hard to be livin

But good to be scared the hella outa ya

Sa monday

Um bukas

Malalaman ko

Kung pasok ba ko

ALP

RIP

Im soryy if u dont accept me

 

Patawad

Sales

Di ko pala nga talaga kaya

Ang tanga ko kase

Haha

Tanyeta

 

Amp

…Woman like me ! 🔮🔫🎐🤘🏻df2d836d66d0a11582934511db034bbd

Spin.

To the people who hurt me, did me wrong, said shit behind my back, poured me plenty alcohol, backstabbed me

I have this anti bullshit pill for you.

 

Kindly delete all the contents of this blog from 2017 to 2018

My years were 2010 2011 2012

Sexiest at 2013

Baddest bitch at 2014

Kakagrad ko lang

Tinapon na ko abroad

2015 camp counselor pain

Outcast

Cannot communicate

Tryna fit in

Wew

2016

Ward

Uh

First ?

2017

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Cold.

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dear loveds thanks for always being there for me even though im a perfectly flawed and imperfect being that keeps on changing and spinning around like crazy wherein i have zero friends and fucks to give this fuckin new year since sometimes when i do become alone which is all the time i feel so lonely but i catch myself and always count my blessing

I think at 26 i have grown enough adulthood swag that the swag lowd have mercy on me and my hatred on : lloyd cervantes, hazel dee and jeoff racelis. They hurt me too much like hell

I miss alveo and their culture to the point i wasn’t culture shocked at all

I fear change the most but that is all we always need to move forward

I have come freed from the motherfuckin world

I miss being 22

I miss being thrown to the depths of Taiwan

Not knowing a thing about the universe or the world itself

Just leaving the world of the academe without much merit or recognition

Was truly, deeply hellish

but then again we are the choices that we make.

Last year was a sitch

i can’t believe i got hired like cray 2 days after my birthday

when nobody came and i spent a dime tryna think i could have fun

I will always miss my boss in alveo

The only boss

Next to dior

i know my blog is hoarish but pls bear with me

i have hurt myself Too deeply last year

am quite afraid

But the new will always be new

And we

Shall

Always

Have

Time

To

Breathe

…no yosi pls sherry

Tama na sa mga taong nakaraan.

Btw facebook stopped me from liking posts again…

more like blocked me.

 

…God knows everything.

Tranquility

Hayu

Dear sales

May I always forgive people and accept rejection. May I always accept the past and the mistakes I have been making. Thank you for trusting me the magic of new beginnings,thanks sa mga taong naniniwala pa sakin and salamat sa lahat nang nagawa nang Lord kapit lang at mararating din.

Thanks for making me wake up consistently na nang 8am kasi di ko akalain na maaga na ko nagigising.

Pasasalamat sa mga taong tunay na may pakialam sakin.

Yung mga they took their way to greet me pa sa New Year.

Salamat at may gift din ako galing sa Ninang ko nung End nang 2018.

It means a lot really.

The magic of waking up to a peaceful place.

My condo. My year.

Anything I want to be.

Help me.

Thanks, 125 followers.

If it weren’t for you,

I might have given up

Hope.

Supreme.

Hey

Dear 122 followers

You never know how much you make my holidays happy

I didn’ t celebrate Christmas and the New Years thru all the hurt I have received

I tried wrapping excellent gifts for others but got none so much in return

I always always wished I had a foster fam but now that I am an adult, I just have to continue on my 18 year old dream to become independent.

I don’ t ever want to brag but at 26 I feel like I have soared enough skies to heal my broken wings and rise again

I can’t wait for the movie “Dark Phoenix”as I myself have struggled over many opportunities in the past that didn’t push thru due to parental or home reasons

Am glad to have my Makati condo since June 2017 and my real world existence to be in peace

Even though this year I got run over by a tric

I am extremely hugely grateful for all my blessings

I may not have gotten gifts

But my self love is quite enough to pull myself through

End cynicism.

Hey y’all. I dunno whats up anymore lately. I feel like something strange weird is going on but no more feels and fucks to give since people keep taking and taking. And im too tired anymore to give. To show them my true self and feelings. Because once you do they pounce on you like a cheetah. Super cray. Keeping to yourself is power. Also stop the negativity and the trauma. You know you are a good person. So much angst since teenage years but oh hey age doesn’t matter. Try to think positive despite all your downfall

Most especially, love and light ✖⚜⛾ create

Daze

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If there is one thing I regret nowadays it’s being too kind and overreaching to people who never will, ever.

Deserve my kindness and strength

See oftentimes we think it would be better to leave people alone. But no, we must in fact keep loving this cruel world inspite of the fact that the people we love actually harbor hatred towards us

And that my dear is the time you your self should set yourself on fire and set love free

Dont keep others warm

Stay close who truly slay kindness

And know the worth of glory honour respect and most especially,

Forgiveness.

Thanks be to God.

My 2018 was silly af

Thanks for making me rich in intuition and selfless ignorance

That though people hurt me, etc

I still go on

Merry Christmas loves

Thanks be to all the kindest souls I have met

And will yet to meet !!!! 📿

Clothing stores .

Sabi nila pag nag sipag ka makukuha mo rin

Yung ninanais mo na ginhawa

Sabi nila mag sikap ka upang makita

Ang mga upalap sa mundo

Ginto ng katotohanan

Mga minamahal at minahal

Sa buhay, sabi nila

Pag respetuhin mo yung iba giginhawa ka rin

Ako pagod na pagod na

Kase

Mahirap

Maging tao

Sa mga kabuluhan dito sa mundo

RIP earth

Di na kaya ni Sherry

Sobrang pagod na ko

As in tutal parang halos

Eternity

Has Pass

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I Miss Manning.

lately

sometimes, 

I dunno anymore since im way too tired to fight anything, fear anything, worry about tomorrow, solving my adult problem, finding a boyfriend, a bestfriend, adventure

And also never giving up, always the light, dignity

Speaking up, owning your voice, cherishing the moment, representing your past, moving towards the present

Murder

Its always darkest

Before Dawn, YOLO 🎀🤗bfea6a73dcc3ae971f0b88c2cbf16d2b.0

Lord

Thank u Lord for all my blessing

Though I can’t make my Apple Macbook Air work like I want to

I deeply wish you will give me someone who can teach me tech stuff

Like Netflix

And make me interested in graphic design and video editing again

Often I Reminisce the Times

I used to stay up all night and day trying to edit videos in college

Up to this day in my old Macbook White it still

Exists

Thank you

I wish I can be a pro again @ video editing

Making vlogs

Will surely cheer me up

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Super Super

I know I’m Super Fly, ☆ ey 119 followers

I am entirely grateful u all been there with me, truly universe has been so kind, im broke and jobless, kinda, i got an insurance job, was very very very lucky 😚

I passed the exams last October 26.

I resigned from Ortigas October 13.

Since then Hallelujah

I met a bad bitch boss at Ortigas who promised me entry again next twenty o nine but she left me gaping… I thought she said six mos. exit then come back around but hell no, she f*cking left me in the air, like hanging there with so much pain tbh since I was hoping to get back at the bad bosses downing me out and backlashing me out.

But then I realize as I swam this real world loves me so much.

No need to have comparison over others, as God has loved me thru thick and thin. He gave me a 2nd life when I was eight and dying. Though my mum and dad are cruel people, He always gave me the back hand and the upper edge to succeed in no matter any situation

Let me meet people who were and always will be, amazing

Btw I went home today shopping for Christmas, most of them were pink, classy and unicorn style,

I miss Ateneo, I miss Ms Dior from Taipei, I miss Alveo and Boss Gad,

I miss our dog Ollie Back Home…the home I will never run back

To no matter how hopeless I am, no matter how injured, hurt, even though just recently I got hit AF by a tric but he was nice as he took me in for a free ride since I was stunned shookt there, like basically motionless, kneeling

In my wounds…pero in fair

Di siya malala

Kaya super thanks 💋

Can’t wait for 2019, am sad Karina is sad and Aljon got evicted sa PBB

I thought of vlogging my life pero parang di na ganun ka natural pag ivlog mo haha,

Dame kong nakakausap sa labas,

I even got lost in Poblacion only to have my lost TIN ID notarized quite expensively for 250 bucks, sinabi nung guy na nag sell nang burgers na Car name yung names nang burgers na mahal daw dapat 100 to 150 lang yung price.

Pinakaasar ako is that I waited mga 10 ish to 15 min, parang eternity yon kasi the guy there was like making landi to his old classmate instead of working, like inuna pa niya mag add sa FB kaysa gawin yung Notary ko, dafudge diba

Tapos nainis na ko kasi hello nag aantay ako amp tas mahal pa sinigil saken huwaw such work ethic… sometimes ya know

I secretly wish I was missed by my co-workers in Ortigas

Kasi pati ba naman sa Circuit

Nakita ako lel

Like she shouted, “Sherry!”

While I was crossing the lil pedestrian at the back

And um na huwaw ako na Sherry finally tinawag niya sakin

Kasi names are important ya know!

Sobrang saya ko na nawalan ako nang takot sa Angkas

It made me feel like a rockstar

Steady lang

Sana buhay ko ganon

Fyi sobrang gandara nang calling card

Pinagawa ko sa Chill Hub

Grabe galing nila

Sarap talaga mag promote hehe

Like maybe doing a vlog might be so nice

But the mystery and the sponteneity of you, living your raggedy, jackass of a life

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Fyi

Di perfect buhay

Wala akong ya know

Bf

Pero um

Kinakaya ko naman

Kasi di mo naman kailangan muna

Haha

And

Dame ko pang pangarap na magagawa

Like it was my first time this December to clean my meager apartment

And clean it like hell

Tryna find my TIN card!

Then awhile ago sa morning I was so happy I got to Atrium Makati to finally

Hopefully get my TIN ID tom

Btw Affidavit of loss pala yung tinaga saken

Mediyo first time ko rin kasi asikasuhin yang

Mga yan oh btw I stole a knife um jk fork today mahahaa

Um

Kase naman

Bad service

Sorna

Um natapon ko din ata yung Sterling spoon and fork ko sa apartment kaya yun squad poor life talaga

Tapos di na ko nagpapaapekto sa mga humihingi nang money sa sampaguita

Kasi last year andame ko na binili sa mga yan

Basta

Pati rose nga eh

🌷

To be continued

Be Kind

So the ganap is I went to Makati City Hall last Dec 6 to get my NSO and got my SSS verified at PRC and submitted my requirements for Grepa Life Insurance, so I can get my code and start selling.

I am tryna focusing on myself these days and am really hurt, wasak and lonely but it doesn’t affect me at all. All I do is try hardest to be productive and jam many things in the day to make it work like in Dec 6 all I did was 1) verify my SSS which was already existing

2) get my NSO well nauna ito kaya yun, mabilis lang ang process

3) I paid mah rent asap so Insured na ko sa January kasi di ako nakikipag communicate sa mom ko kaya di niya binayara rent, este caretaker had to contact her and she didn’t pick up the phone daw so text nalang, nakakahiya diba

4) paid grepa insurance fee at RCBC well easy peasy

5) go to my dentist who was a bitch at real world circumstances like um why do we even small talk lel …i still wear retainers hot dang. Ugm

6) go to Brahma Kumaris

The same day… Makati, I rode behind the tric drivers back omg cringe but well ganyan talaga kapag mahirap na este tag hirap na lalo na pasko season traffic kaoras uy

7) Made it to Brahma Makati paying only 40 bucks kasi nga nakisakay lang ako galing kalye after crossing the long damn train in Filmore like guh

8) thought of taking a cab to La Fuerza to eat dinner at Lido but plan failed

9) I got into some weird crazy maniac …again cab driver whom I asap lipad na kasi ew, di niya lam san yung La Fuerza At Chino Roces uhuh

10) So I dropped the cab sa Amorsolo kasi yun lang kaya ko ituro fron GMaps ayay

11) Naligaw nanaman sa Makati, before that nag lakad lakad pala ako bago nag cab…

12) Um

13) I bailed the German party thing at La Fuerza since ang late na tapos may “interview” ako sa bitchy boss nato na gurl na sinabi na on the fri of next week daw nyak napakaspecific day, di man lang sinabi yung date ang gulo noh,

14) so Like after fixing my adult problems the entire day, made lil tambay to Cash n Carry, rode the dang tric to Bagtikan cor Zobel St. in San Antonio

15) In a nutshell naligaw sa Amorsolo, nagtambay sa isang weird lil resto na nag sell nang nike shoes, yosi at anu pang kakaibang merch

16) I therefore went home na kasi wawa naman diba may interview

17) crazy part is of course duh the next day mamimis ko yung interview ko sad

18) which is worse kasi inadvice ko yung bossy bitch na malalate ako kasi 10 yung interview sa CV tapos ulul gagu 2am as always gising pa yours truly diba

19) tapos alam naman niya na nag linis ako nang bahay because did I mention, To her na linigpit ko lahat nang bahay ko maghanap lang nang TIN ID ko for requirements sa GREPA

20) Which, to my disadvantage, my so called biological mutter confiscated my passport weeks months ago and I decided to cut my ties with them like yeah, you deserve it ,all of YOU.

21) I wanna cry but tears can’t stream down my tear ducts anymore lel

22) So there I finished going to the dentist Today, for my Retainers

And then the sitch is, I keep eating sticky foods like craving them and shit like pichi pichi and not working out oh noes

And um I was so very happy I was able to buy lots of kutchinta huhu awhile ago huhu super huhu food is soul like lifer ahuhu

23) mediyo naaawa na ko sa sarili ko at this point

24) pero keri lang hehe

Dame kong haters btw

Like sa real life, di lang family ko…

Dami nag hurt saken dis year,

SPEECHLESS AKO

Pati yung boss bitch na tatrabahuan ko nayayabangan ako sakanya like oh my

Di nag rereply,

Im the girl na kahit ilang buwan ako tulog este tameme namahiga sa kama,

Never ako yung type na di gagawa nang paraan para umusad

Para kong gago kakamessenger nang maayos grabe sobrang nega nya

Like RIP Sales na siguro for me,

Sobra akong winasak wild talaga ang drama drama dameng peke jan na tao kala mo mabait wala namang halaga ang puso mo sakanila

Like whoah

I cannot compose myself out of speechlessness and the hatred

You just cennet help it

Fyi si ateng boss pa grabe kabulul sa English

Yubung yubung gawd

Like omg can you take my life already

Im about to explode

For reals

Di ko kaya

Alam ko TMI eto pero swear, ang hirap mag panggap na okay lang lahat at okay lang sinasaktan ka, di ka binibigyan nang kaluluwa

Kahit kaluluwa nalang eh

Dami rin gago jan

Lalo na mga lalake

Beks pa

Waw

Hanep talaga si Ateng, sinabi niya “I want you to be part of my team”… im like

No mam go KEKE yourself… magsama kayo ni LEC jan sa Ortigas

Grabe kayo

Masipag ako

Grabe insulto

Grabe ugali

Grabe mukha

So kapal uh58d34b0762b1b71bce90545958aa75b9

New

Whatever happened to chivalry, to people who are actually, decent and kind

To people who actually, look good and make u feel good,

To people who actually, respect that you are straight af

That you dont apparently like lgbt peers but respect them.

To people who dont have a fam

But get over life like its their last laugh

Ya know

Where are those people

Huh

IDFC.

Hey loves.

I know most of you have lives, lives meaning you got friends, a family more or less, a good home, a stable income, or a committed partner.

Times have been changing and lately, I just laugh off my depression and anxiety since the world is too cruel to be true.

But other times, I gain inspiration from other people I observe from he streets, people who are homeless, clothes and all, no food to eat.

Those who just lay in the streets, while watching expensive luxurious black friday hauls on Youtube and being hella scared off my future.

Me ready to die anytime soon, 26 and partyless friendless alone and living broke as hell.

Me.

Yup.

I just wanna have decent friends who share my emotional fields, battles, common ground.

Those who are willing to fight for me as I am for them.

Those who prioritize the time we spent.

People who are, authentic.

Well, to normalize, extraordinary but normal, people.

I may not know how to be one, as my heart turned cold last June 2018 when my work with Ayala Land disappeared.

I decided to blew things off by deciding for myself and by myself, with a blessing from my entrepreneur uncle, none so from my so called biological rents.

As I write this worrying about everything, I pray I can have the heart to start all over again.

To the people reading this, bless you more and have a great last days of November.

Love you all.

Xx sherr

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Ey guys and girls

Thank you

For not leaving me

I appreciate

All the likes

Follows

Comments

For 116 🔥

Love ya all

*

In five months

I will be turning 27

I lost everything

My friends

I left em

My family

They are so arbitrary

No comment

Very money minded

Me

I am super psyched for 2019

Am bit worried about finances

But I always have full of hope

Thanks to you guys

Aww

Facebook is boo yah

Messenger too

But um

WordPress is the best

Thanks,

Yours truly since 2015

Ps hope to make my own youtube channel

Este

That vietnamese korean looking, chinese looking Asian stroller

Haha peace 🏜

@thehelenachan

Idol ko 🏖

 

Paasa.

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So currently

Walang ganap sa buhay ko,

Bumili lang ako tagal na nang mirror na buy one take one sa shopwise.

It costs around 853 ish

Pero like nobody like would help me place it at the wall,

Our caretaker at the condo sucks

But ey its okay

I remember the time nakadampot ako nang 60 php …note tig bebente na tatlo

Sa labas nang condo namin

Truly,

The world goes round.

Tutuo ang karma.

Wag mag hinay hinay or mahinaan nang loob.

As they say,

Laban at umahon

Here is me to my new job at Grepa

Hope to earn commision work

Hope to get back to ortigas

Hope to forget meine enemies

Hope to live a fun life

Cheers xx Sher

joy

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why it pays to be kind humble and smart 

nowadays ive been on the hunt for genuine happiness. facebook has been such a joy giver all the pages or blogs per se i follow post some ridiculous on point (pardon the jargon) shit that totally meshes well or like, um relates well in my life, speaking of, I keep ordering mcdonalds delivery food, note the double iced coffee for my caffeine boost and extra virgin vanilla jk lawl ive been dealing heavy stuff lately. I mean my blog means the world to me as it is my baby. It really makes me happy someone, you probably don’t know, but a simple like can make my day bloom.

It has been 35 days since I resigned. I have gone through emotional whirlwinds I cannot myself comprehend. Done shit as an agent I couldn’t fuckin compromise as it goes against my logic and identity… Things such as

1 begging clients in chinese, translating chinese, helping my teammates …former,speak in chinese hilariously

2 chasing richies

3 giving my card and having small talk la la

4 enjoying the fuck out of my job

… i feel like my life died a bit when i left sales

Good thing, Ms J …lets just call her that, came to my rescue last September 4 like omg I was getting bully vibes from my teammates but nonetheless, Karma is there to teach us humility and patience,

So I met this lady who gave me her card.

I got deep, deep salute to her as she is the Girl Boss I always always will follow and admire …hello Dior, my first official girl boss.

Also Ms Mary Chinjen, shout out to you,

I hope you both will make my journey worthwhile and teach me lessons worth more than a golden minefield.

To my Taiwan experience, goodbye. Also, Alveo. Good bye.

Love you all.

xx Sher 2018

pls dont be scared

keep the faith

the rest will follow

empress

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so i totally like today

whilst it still

is 11:54,i miss LA and the good vibes around there .

yeah nobody cares

im unemployed

i often try

but when do i stop

my patience eventually runs

out

neither does my career shift

it has been hard

i pretend it is all happy

post nice shit on fb

live my legacy as an eagle

but wounds hurt

and my heart dies day by day

emo much but ey

so much people hurt me

should i still

expect

or run away

…cheers from my enemies

sniper

large

recently i made my first trip to divisoria alone at manila,

for foreigners, divisoria is a thrift flea market that sells all kind of crazy affordably ridiculous things

that is

if you know how to haggle

since last 2013

i came there

went back last Nov 12

prices have indeed changed

volumized

like pricey AF

but am glad super

like

i was able to go by myself

despite fearing getting lost

many kind souls were there to guide my way

and even make chit chat to me

like there really are sellers dedicated

to their job

and some really kind

people

wishin

me

gonna

go back

next year

see you, sales

thank u, next xx sher

speechless ft go sing a song

shoot for the moon, so that when you fall you will land amongst the stars

 

i can’t thank the lord enough how much it took me to resign and bring back the faith i got

restoration

you may,call it

i have been working my ass off double shift since january

i was completely terrified

getting kicked out of real estate

getting tormented and laughed at by wicked bosses

dignity

yun lang ang masasabi

mga pangarap,anu pinapaglaban mo

kalimutan na

ang mga nananakit

isipin

may bagong araw,oras,panahon sa isang araw

okay lang di niyo ko tawagan, pamilya ko

tuloy lang ako sa mundo.

wala man love life

ayos

okay na okay gud

tapos natutuwa ako

naka divi magisa guy

hahaha

music is my everything

my soulmate, best friend, comforter

my reliever

so am not too religious

but universe

thanks a mil

sum daze

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i truly regret ,2018 has been such a wasted year

i left my job at alveo

ended

in the dumpster

worked for sh*t ass bosses

who cannot get THE work done

and even handle you with this nasty, self entitlement you got served dish.

so dont work for them

period.

im very worried

insurance

not my thing.

i cried before

resigning.

see the huge or like life time

decision

i made !

wtf holy sh*t, like

i woke up

and my jobs gone.

i still have two months …

two months for what !

contract ends december 20

who cares ?

evil is evil

and choose your battle

love and light

#angas

future

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i never quite like them romantic stories where people say sappy shit and make googly eyes with one another.

i lost five …and still counting, motherfucking years in,my life

all started 2014.

this will be my first christmas,alone

no family yeps yeps

no more shit tours…

finally

gonna change.

thanks you

past.

im f*cking

fine.

i love y’all

frou frou

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over the course of my life i have gained enough courage to let go of the past but sometimes dreams come in the form of water to shake us out of our reality, the doors we dared opened and the consequences we face everyday, the decisions we make and fight .

i deeply cannot forgive my mom and all her antics, drama and mess

but i know as an adult i am responsible for what i say and do, and saying less means being blessed more by grace everyday and my faith stands stronger and moves mountains,

as i write this, i wish my life were just a paper towns movie.

where

everything is on paper

and you just watch the roles play.

and you could disappear and no one will notice

… note the jenna hamilton reference

my life feels like it went dead for five years

i just woke up and opened my eyes to a new light… that of being an adult but missing the lingering feeling of being a teenaged rebel who always possessed spunk, attitude and rock and roll vibes

to the talented college admu me who sang avril songs precomposed by me, edited and shit

and people just congratulated you

for the insane lyrics and humour of it all

to sleeping in class and lousy prefactorial teachers like theologians cray waking the hell outta you and asking you silly questions like phone sex and shit

like whut in the world

and you blabber some nonsense sense-ical answer in return

yawn~

why is life like a moving train

you see it in pictures,

you pretend its a movie

but movies end

in,tightropes and figures

speeches and remarks

winners and trophys

what about- the battle of troy, significance and splendor

the glory of death

of fight club

-people who actually cared

clean freak.

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hello loves. it felt good to be 26. turning 27 in april next year but the hype continues on proving myself to the world . its quite disappointing im no performer in the realm of arts, a designer by profession, a business owner or something that i dream of.. all i did was graduate admu by 21 and work

you know that feeling when you get older you get some bee jees or like hair raising feel that you are actually alive

and nobody can bring you down

because you only get one life

so might as well be the best version of your self

forgive

grow

learn from your mistakes,

truly appreciate people

most esp God

the Maker of all good things

Someone you can come to

Someone whom gave you enough battles to prove to the world you are not a weakling

So if you get depressed some days

Or if you are living alone like me

Get out and talk to people

I may be out of sales

But my heart for humanity

is not ever cold

thank you everyone

xx sher

halloween.

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sherry

i hope u become successful

woke up in the morning today

i have been having insomnia for the past two weeks

im glad i woke up at 7 today when i slept at three

thats the grandest

i also unfollowed my first 💋

enough

im glad i was friends with T and he didn’t block me when I said goodbye to him

Im quite sad nobody likes my blog posts anymore

But its alright.

I originally planned to go shopping today

Ukay in Philippines or Thriftshop

But Im too lazy

Way too tired cleaning everyday

Haha

Wish I have kids already

Aw

Anyhow boo hoo

Happy halloween loves

Thanks for 103 friends in FB, 40 followers in IG and 112 here at WordPress

xx Hugs

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distance &faith

im quite happy beyond odds

ive liked my own post four times

not expecting anyone to like this anymore

but will keep fighting

my back

*

i cannot believe

i was able

to make it

to

circuit makati

tonight

like

i got invited for a free event

then

all of a sudden

i went there

was thirty min late

and the lady outside the booth promoting stuff ushered me like cray

i mean

there were no ushers

i was so blessed nakarating ako

tapos

first time ko manuod

sobrang ganda

like when i entered it felt like a bar slash boxing ring feel

pitched black,

then i just listend to ate telling me which direction to go

that was the highlight i guess

people guiding you when you feel lost as fuck

like

dying inside

rebirth

renewal

letting go

putting walls down

efforts that remain unanswered

sobrang deep

may pa ballet dance pa

waw

and talk about death

such a meaning full pre halloween for me

i wished my mom wer there to watch with me

😚

so many tears flood this 2018

keep going, strong woman

 

dopeness

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hey all its raining today in mnl philippines and i recently got out my condo to buy food and shakes, paid 20 to the tric driver whom told me he always noticed me walking by the streets, commenting i walk quite too far from where i was going and im like shutting up since he is a stranger old man and im minding my own business

kidding aside i literally save money by walking so even though plenty times jeepneys motorbikes esp cars beep honk and yap at me, like “DO YOU WANNA DIE”

I still cross the streets and walk.

Tbh abroad you can easily navigate the streets due to pedestrians and walkways,

how i wish in the future there will be a plan to build more walkways in the streets so people wont jaywalk anymore

*sigh

anyhow

i miss working

later on i might try to go out again and go to circuit and pretend i have a social life

i was invited to a free entrance to power mac spotlight and it might be my first time to watch there if ever i do come

hehe

wish me luck

my mom wants me home since i know marami yan papautos sakin

im like no mom im staying here

hahaha

anyway

thanks y’all

been nice and warm

stay alive

appreciation

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most days i listen to music and sleep during the day like a vampire awake at night and full of the moon and thoughts that both disturb and intrigue me …1000 to 5000 thoughts they say

all i have right now is panic at the disco and this is gospel, my music and own beat. my disposition and my  choice continues to use logic and calmness to my solution as the world spins around and what goes around comes back around

my mom has been such a stella in the abs cbn drama as she always goes so dramatic and full of blame

i changed since i dont react anymore to her hurled comments

basically keep quiet or minimal but strong reply to her messages

i dont wanna go home until 2019 dawns on me

i always appreciate people supporting me

ive been fighting a war since 2013 october when i fell literally five times hundred

i am coping

i know one day my day will come

here is to all people who dream

a life of significance

_brevityandkindness

_believeinyourself

_whenpeopleleaveyou,

you become better

macbeth

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just around the corner

so like yestuhday i took my insurance exam like a pro __ um

i really didn’t study much so i quite predicted to say sorry i failed the test since it has 50 items and the mock exams were quite difficult to understand……

then

a miracle happened, all my sleepless nights worrying turned out real mighty fine as i took the exam around 15 min since computerized and time limit and all and you gotta have a username

mine was st.chan@acevariable

um

i had a great time last oct 24 -25 since

i went to the gym then was able to buy at kevins toy store 100 php real cool collectible toys probably from clash of clans

they also sell ninja turtle

pero mejo hype

kaya i went with the unique quirky cool ones

check my ig they’re there.

then

the next morning as always unable to have a sleep cycle i basically ordered yet another mcdonalds delivery but this time it was the best as it arrived no sooner than ten minutes and the two piece chix was so delish like uhhhm

then i grab then arrived at un ave…

didn’t know

what to expect

i hate exams since sales made me dumber people watching…

but ey

i passed oh waw

didn’t breathe

for like fifteen minutes

trauma na ko sa exam

kasi like the last exam sa ortigas training  (they literally have a lot of training) … my seatmate checked my answer wrong when it was right.

tapos ako pag mag check nung sakanya kahit mali spelling check nalang like i just gauged it on his deviance more than the regular academic precision

but he naman on the other hand corrected my super duper minor mistakes like maybe my handwriting was not legible for his understanding.

the worse

was making my right answer wrong to the point i had to ask a random girl seatmate on the left if tama ba yung sagot

hay

i woulda gotten three or like two dumb mistakes lang but i got like around 4.5 or 5 mistakes thanks to him

actually 2 mistakes lang

pero the trainor gio praised me naman

tapos ako lang nakapasok from our so called team sa training room

since my then boss threatened me of salary deduction if i didn’t come

lol

may sakit pa ko non

grabe noh

anyway

enough about it

im quite ecstatic napasa ko yung license exam

i was ready to fail pero waw

and btw glorietta 3 and 4 are the best

hehe

never ko na appreciate since always manning ako since 2017 sa ayala malls greenbelt and glorietta

di ko alam ano na mangyari sakin

sira yung circadian rhythm ko huhuhuhu

ilang weeks na kong zombie

100 years na

since 2009

nag move out ako dorm na sa college di nakakatulog

hay

sleep is life pa naman

sana naman maging maayos na

tipidera pa kasi sobrang takot ako walang allowance

tapos may client na nag offer nanaman nang job

tama na pls

sobrang dami na kong nakilala this year tbh na gusto ako ihire

eh

dream ko lang naman magkastore na street vibes hay hay buhay

walang pondo

my fashion designer dreams died

but i still doodle.

dunno about ma though

mediyo mahal

hirap na magaral pag nagtatrabaho ka na

unless kaya mo ibalance

ok thanks bye

sorry for the rant

im so tired the whole motherfucking year

met tons of people

spoke

i hope i get my voice heard

this time

up to the next years

create.

Standard times , call for big things

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life is perfect

especially to those who know how to wait and run at the same time.

today was amazing! i just revamped my blog again for some grunge vibes since im really emo in persona

and its halloween yay folks!

today i fit a beige whitish chunky heels that cost 450 php and like the lady was telling in the air how it looked pretty on me but like i cant really wear it so it just looked purdy

i realize since 2017 or 2016 when i knew about my savings leftover in the bank, basically debut money as charity from my always ever money loving rents…

i kept buying stuff i dont need.

talagang hoarder ako ng abubut at mga kyuti na bagay

tapos di naman nagagamit

hay

i am still learning

esp how broke i am slash broken inside

thanks to the people who like my content

hearing me out yo

haha

its been a wild ride

i miss you, sales

sana ok lang ako maging magisa sa pasko

ello grinchella

hahah im changing na sobra

tenks

good luck to me bukas

muehehe

oks lang walang may pake alam nang ig ko

problema ko

istorya ko

mga reasons ko kung bakit nagresign ako

ok lang

sapat na tong blog

kalimutan mo na yan

hahaha