halloween.

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sherry

i hope u become successful

woke up in the morning today

i have been having insomnia for the past two weeks

im glad i woke up at 7 today when i slept at three

thats the grandest

i also unfollowed my first 💋

enough

im glad i was friends with T and he didn’t block me when I said goodbye to him

Im quite sad nobody likes my blog posts anymore

But its alright.

I originally planned to go shopping today

Ukay in Philippines or Thriftshop

But Im too lazy

Way too tired cleaning everyday

Haha

Wish I have kids already

Aw

Anyhow boo hoo

Happy halloween loves

Thanks for 103 friends in FB, 40 followers in IG and 112 here at WordPress

xx Hugs

power mac spotlight

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distance &faith

im quite happy beyond odds

ive liked my own post four times

not expecting anyone to like this anymore

but will keep fighting

my back

*

i cannot believe

i was able

to make it

to

circuit makati

tonight

like

i got invited for a free event

then

all of a sudden

i went there

was thirty min late

and the lady outside the booth promoting stuff ushered me like cray

i mean

there were no ushers

i was so blessed nakarating ako

tapos

first time ko manuod

sobrang ganda

like when i entered it felt like a bar slash boxing ring feel

pitched black,

then i just listend to ate telling me which direction to go

that was the highlight i guess

people guiding you when you feel lost as fuck

like

dying inside

rebirth

renewal

letting go

putting walls down

efforts that remain unanswered

sobrang deep

may pa ballet dance pa

waw

and talk about death

such a meaning full pre halloween for me

i wished my mom wer there to watch with me

😚

so many tears flood this 2018

keep going, strong woman

 

dopeness

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hey all its raining today in mnl philippines and i recently got out my condo to buy food and shakes, paid 20 to the tric driver whom told me he always noticed me walking by the streets, commenting i walk quite too far from where i was going and im like shutting up since he is a stranger old man and im minding my own business

kidding aside i literally save money by walking so even though plenty times jeepneys motorbikes esp cars beep honk and yap at me, like “DO YOU WANNA DIE”

I still cross the streets and walk.

Tbh abroad you can easily navigate the streets due to pedestrians and walkways,

how i wish in the future there will be a plan to build more walkways in the streets so people wont jaywalk anymore

*sigh

anyhow

i miss working

later on i might try to go out again and go to circuit and pretend i have a social life

i was invited to a free entrance to power mac spotlight and it might be my first time to watch there if ever i do come

hehe

wish me luck

my mom wants me home since i know marami yan papautos sakin

im like no mom im staying here

hahaha

anyway

thanks y’all

been nice and warm

stay alive

appreciation

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most days i listen to music and sleep during the day like a vampire awake at night and full of the moon and thoughts that both disturb and intrigue me …1000 to 5000 thoughts they say

all i have right now is panic at the disco and this is gospel, my music and own beat. my disposition and my  choice continues to use logic and calmness to my solution as the world spins around and what goes around comes back around

my mom has been such a stella in the abs cbn drama as she always goes so dramatic and full of blame

i changed since i dont react anymore to her hurled comments

basically keep quiet or minimal but strong reply to her messages

i dont wanna go home until 2019 dawns on me

i always appreciate people supporting me

ive been fighting a war since 2013 october when i fell literally five times hundred

i am coping

i know one day my day will come

here is to all people who dream

a life of significance

_brevityandkindness

_believeinyourself

_whenpeopleleaveyou,

you become better

words

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baby it’s cold outside

today i woke up 4pm and got a call from my mum and we were civil and i was hype up with anxiety since i don’t get any subsidy or allowance esp starting a new job gives me the jitters

but the best part of my day was that i bought the most heavenly mango shake in the whole universe

i swear by it as i wore my giant gap brand hoodie cozied up in the cold,

i seen the profile photo of my used to be crush and still in love with him now

but um

he doesn’t

really care

through thick and thin

the stillness

we hope

we yearn.

i hope for peace

silence, sanctuary

being enough

because to other people

we are never enough

macbeth

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just around the corner

so like yestuhday i took my insurance exam like a pro __ um

i really didn’t study much so i quite predicted to say sorry i failed the test since it has 50 items and the mock exams were quite difficult to understand……

then

a miracle happened, all my sleepless nights worrying turned out real mighty fine as i took the exam around 15 min since computerized and time limit and all and you gotta have a username

mine was st.chan@acevariable

um

i had a great time last oct 24 -25 since

i went to the gym then was able to buy at kevins toy store 100 php real cool collectible toys probably from clash of clans

they also sell ninja turtle

pero mejo hype

kaya i went with the unique quirky cool ones

check my ig they’re there.

then

the next morning as always unable to have a sleep cycle i basically ordered yet another mcdonalds delivery but this time it was the best as it arrived no sooner than ten minutes and the two piece chix was so delish like uhhhm

then i grab then arrived at un ave…

didn’t know

what to expect

i hate exams since sales made me dumber people watching…

but ey

i passed oh waw

didn’t breathe

for like fifteen minutes

trauma na ko sa exam

kasi like the last exam sa ortigas training  (they literally have a lot of training) … my seatmate checked my answer wrong when it was right.

tapos ako pag mag check nung sakanya kahit mali spelling check nalang like i just gauged it on his deviance more than the regular academic precision

but he naman on the other hand corrected my super duper minor mistakes like maybe my handwriting was not legible for his understanding.

the worse

was making my right answer wrong to the point i had to ask a random girl seatmate on the left if tama ba yung sagot

hay

i woulda gotten three or like two dumb mistakes lang but i got like around 4.5 or 5 mistakes thanks to him

actually 2 mistakes lang

pero the trainor gio praised me naman

tapos ako lang nakapasok from our so called team sa training room

since my then boss threatened me of salary deduction if i didn’t come

lol

may sakit pa ko non

grabe noh

anyway

enough about it

im quite ecstatic napasa ko yung license exam

i was ready to fail pero waw

and btw glorietta 3 and 4 are the best

hehe

never ko na appreciate since always manning ako since 2017 sa ayala malls greenbelt and glorietta

di ko alam ano na mangyari sakin

sira yung circadian rhythm ko huhuhuhu

ilang weeks na kong zombie

100 years na

since 2009

nag move out ako dorm na sa college di nakakatulog

hay

sleep is life pa naman

sana naman maging maayos na

tipidera pa kasi sobrang takot ako walang allowance

tapos may client na nag offer nanaman nang job

tama na pls

sobrang dami na kong nakilala this year tbh na gusto ako ihire

eh

dream ko lang naman magkastore na street vibes hay hay buhay

walang pondo

my fashion designer dreams died

but i still doodle.

dunno about ma though

mediyo mahal

hirap na magaral pag nagtatrabaho ka na

unless kaya mo ibalance

ok thanks bye

sorry for the rant

im so tired the whole motherfucking year

met tons of people

spoke

i hope i get my voice heard

this time

up to the next years

create.

Standard times , call for big things

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life is perfect

especially to those who know how to wait and run at the same time.

today was amazing! i just revamped my blog again for some grunge vibes since im really emo in persona

and its halloween yay folks!

today i fit a beige whitish chunky heels that cost 450 php and like the lady was telling in the air how it looked pretty on me but like i cant really wear it so it just looked purdy

i realize since 2017 or 2016 when i knew about my savings leftover in the bank, basically debut money as charity from my always ever money loving rents…

i kept buying stuff i dont need.

talagang hoarder ako ng abubut at mga kyuti na bagay

tapos di naman nagagamit

hay

i am still learning

esp how broke i am slash broken inside

thanks to the people who like my content

hearing me out yo

haha

its been a wild ride

i miss you, sales

sana ok lang ako maging magisa sa pasko

ello grinchella

hahah im changing na sobra

tenks

good luck to me bukas

muehehe

oks lang walang may pake alam nang ig ko

problema ko

istorya ko

mga reasons ko kung bakit nagresign ako

ok lang

sapat na tong blog

kalimutan mo na yan

hahaha