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Becoming a conscientious woman of society is no biggie, being a street hype is~ born in Manila, This being has no clue of where she would fit in.

As clustered enclaves of doom and perish beholded her peril. She found this nonchalance a great

Miracle.

She tried to write one time at a time, but her heart begged

A million times, sad coronations

Occur.

When school brought you to life.

When parents failed.

 

Story

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Crime and Punishment.

I don’t need no bullshit, fake friendz, people talking, judging me. I have broken enough mirrors of me in the past. Dark times have risen. And plaguing me are the people from the past. Life is an artistic process. To be able to rise, we gotta get a move on. …the way we finish always defines us , no matter where we belong

Self made.

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Over the course

Of my life, I have tried my best trying to please my parent/s, bosses, society in general, living in the Philippines, accepting my name is an “S” and most people do not give it much relevance. I have tried to live abundantly in the premise of knowing no boundaries when it came to working, shopping, doing stuff for others, drinking, holding up a party, trying to get through other rich people, holding my status to a high regard. Most problems of mine arise from the family. And several times the universe has proven I had been trying hard enough to cope, make a living, be quiet in my own space, stop worrying about money- coming from such a reclusive background and being schooled at an elite school makes the mind a hard feat. Trying to be a winner also gets me very deluded and beat down at times. Being overly analytical makes me nauseous and I find it hard to breathe every time and then. It takes great composure to set yourself out there.

Go forth.

In deadly times like these, where you question you and where you stand, and crises arise, your identity is changing, tides have turned and the people you vowed sacred are now disappearing mutants x and holy faded jobless hoars cannot leave me alone.

Dear precious soul, being almighty one. Do not be eaten up by the evils of the world, the voices dared mock our own sacred holy lives. The bridges we have crossed over, the battles we have dared won and succumbed. The only light that flares.

Time is life

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What I have realised today is how the world will always change, and since we adjust to change every moment of our lives, we face challenges that may have been easy for us then but it gets harder nowadays. I struggled too much fighting and overthinking many problems in my face that I forgot the person responsible for my own happiness was me. I always chose to make other people happy. I forgot that there are several customizations, worldview and motivations in everyday life that I need to cultivate. I have learned to respond slow to people who irate me. I have learned how people just want to hear the good things that you tell them. Especially, if you need them. Life pretty much gets complicated the higher you go, your values might have been challenge but the need to survive and depend on others, will still be there. I believe the fact that you don’t have to be right, only to be there for you.

 

Bones.

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Sometimes the universe fucks us up that what we have been pining for is for us but then our own true gut and intuition know how many kilometers we have oft traveled to endure and achieve what we wanted to in life that we let other people control and manipulate us from our dream to fuel them and their fucked up desires.

Most people like me dont even have enough money, to enjoy, travel, do whatever we want.

We budget everyday and sacrifice our taste and substance just to comfort the needs of our adult life.

When in reality, the people at the top barely care about the small matters, the little things that already lits our soul, because they think life is one big dream.

It sure feels alright to think of life as one big bang theory but ya know you be fucked if your imagination, talent, comfortable state of mind, being analytical, having values, style, brevity, wit, laid back coolness, oh where is your back in this world of stabbers, more likely, create .

Learn from your enemies, live

Rich in God.

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2019 – so lately i have been feeling so much noise, but have keep my inner spirit clean from the noiselessness of the world i have, cut my ties from people who barely cared 

I rarely feel ice nowadays but am clinging onto my icebreak sale

Lately there has been so much grievance over my sales life that my content mainly gravitated

Towards the bullshit of it all , if you know what I mean: so maybe I lost sum readers but

Will keep the fight to make this blog bloom 💖

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In all fairness and honesty

I get easily distracted by happenings like steel feelings moaning over me

Like um

Curbing me to chill ya know

If I got the life , meaning the money I’d go for a bad boy who only wants me and is good at tech and shit and knows his goals really well,

Has philosophy and is unafraid to fight for his dream and loved ones

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Recently I have philosophized how working in a nutshell is hard and will and can make you go nuts

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Speak of the devil my workmates in Ortigas were all very lovely with their circus piggery attitude and their high regard for illuminati and their lovely boss who calls his team mate “stupid”

Never have I ever cried so hard in this crappy dinosaur restaurant eating paella like shit and ordering a Bicol express Filipino food worth a diamond care of remembering my former boss

I grow so fond

Of

Then

I realised he doesn’t give a damn about me anymore

Since all he thinks

Is im this damsel pabebe alienated family heavy emo girl na nagyayabang mag Atenista #char

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So what kung wala akong pamilya jowa kaibigan best pren or like normal na buhay

 

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Natuklasan ko na maigi nang tumira muna magisa para makilala lalo ang sarili

Like u know im super duper proud

I navigated Taiwan, the suburbs and the city itself all on my own at my early 20s

At 22 I was a variety of obesed culture shock edition where my main shelter was Eslite bookstore

24 hours ito and tambayan ko lagi

Tapos I always buy them german beers and roam around like a lost girl

Super saya maging malaya

Minsan wish ko nagkajowa ako pero ok lang kasi inggitera ako super haha

I have confessed feelings for two guys sa alveo not worthy of me este di sila guwapo and all pero mabait

Kaso lang marealise ko na di ko dapat yun ginawa kasi wala naman ako nun sa sarili kakalungkot na ginawa ko yun pero diba we always grow naman to become better versions of ourselves

Basta this 2019 pagpapasensiyahan ko na may attachments pa ko sa nakaraan, na di ako makapag aral nang fashion or writing or german

Na kahit na lola na tingin sakin never ako mag padala lagi sa mga tanders na yan

Cool kid parin tapos swag queen , sasaya parin ako sa pain ko

At naniniwala ako sa mga taong di ako nalimutan at parati akong tinutulungan

I have no time frame actually

Sunod lang ako sa galaw nang mundo

Kahit emotionally abused kid ako and adolescent noon gusto ko kind magara sikat jk magaling and graceful lady naman ako ngayon sa adulthood ko.

Ayoko ma mmk story ko

Pero someday bay may balak ako sana to write an autobiography: a memoir

Sakin lang sapat na na nakita ko yung dalawang may crush sakin sa college nun nung 2017 and 2018

Lam ko may jowa naman sila kaya oks lang

Never assuming

Be graceful and grateful

Sawa na rin ako mag muni muni

Tuloy lang ang segunda mano

Yung orasan palage lang yan nandiyan

Basta one step closer sa pangarap

Kahit anung hirap may ginhawa din

Proud of u Sherry

My greatest ambition

Is to be happy

😇💙👆many thanks readers from all over the world: rome was not built in a day or two , it was built with wings grit and determination

Never give up

Dami mo pa challenges she

Wish ko sana magka anak sa near future, have my clothing store and protection palagi kay Lord

At patawarin niya ko sa lahat nang hurt ko, kasi mahirap walang nakikitang constant eh .

Nalearn ko na di ako maghahanap nang any relationship sa coworkers ko-at never be manipulated by anything.

Saludo ako sa mga mamamayang naniniwala pa at naaalala pa ko

With love always and fearlessness

Stay kind, be golden face the present