Happy Valentines!

When you did all you could but the only way out is through.

 

I love my sales job. Really. It’s been hectic and tough but I am struggling to do everything I can.

 

But if this is not for me I am unafraid to let it go.

 

Hallelujah

 

Happy valentines loves!!!

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Lately

I have been pretty depressed again

But working real hard !!!

😐

I realized I have been thinking too much of what I had gotten into

That I stopped to sleep well and cried over so many things that are painful but petty illogical unlikely causals

I never should have gotten myself into

Anyway

It’s just that life pretty much determines where we go from where we got up from

See,

I was never really a part of my family

That’s why lately my heart has this aching hole to find like, a home or a family, something like that.

Where do you find Spiderman or say, God?

How do you stay alive when you don’t eventually know where you put all your hard work for is going to go?

See what I mean,

I think too much. I fuck up a lot but Seriously, I have been working so hard been quite paranoid and lately, lonely

 

Where am I going

 

Are my dreams still made and ebbed in time?

 

Away

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Or a restless leaf, a footprint.

Is fault on a blameless day,

scrawled on a washed-out sky.

 

My friend’s music orbits his home,

worms through the cracks

in the bluest lines, ever new

 

and permanent, staining even his hope

long after the lights stutter away.

And the rain’s attenuated sorrows?

 

They’re coming, he says. Like goats

through a fence. Like lava. Like tomorrow.

 

Copyright 2017 Robert Okaji

Easy Love.

I may always make mistakes and consume all those iced lattes from Starbucks and some of those capitalist bullshit, but dare I say despite not having any : family, friends, a someone to lean onto, there will be many misadventures yet to happen in my life, to wishing amnesia from all moments of despair and stress and catapulting loneliness or dementia or shit like crappy days to batshit memories or crazy yellings from mother to regretting I had this thing called a second Life.

Im wishing you grow up into the woman you are destined to be. Never forget those who cheered for you! Someday, you shall and will have a decent family and some company too. Real ones. XOXO, cheerios. 💄

 

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