I will never forget this day I got hold up by the world and felt compromised in a way that I mirrored myself through reflections and thoughts and analyzed them and finally figured out how people easily see through me and I reframed my mind and weakness to the point it was becoming a struggle to become myself since I don’t know if I should change and play the games of this wild world or stay true to who I am where the lotus in me broke and that inner child died and was replaced by a bloody version eager to prey on others as to which my journey continues on how do I handle problems like a monkey, an adult, or a lion.
Will I keep on this game and continue it like an adult and be influenced by the deadly world, or do I retreat in my sanctuary and still be myself, listen to the still, small voice and wait.
For change to come
Where is my million
Why do I have to endure bloodshot eyes and bloodshed and recognize the lack of validity love structure support spine in my family…the root cause of evil, the main reason I got shookt and taken by societal norms and dunno whether to conform and fight for myself or face moral obligation as a mere mortal and surrender everything to God.
Only He knows my true worth and struggle
Please pray for me.
Am I done in sales or is life truly just a matter of playing hide and seek
Of deceit and figures
Disillusionment and illusion
Will I throw away my sanity and literature world to this futile collaborative, destructive world of mortal combat
Or take everything literally and lose my world of literature, adventure, sense, being, time, philosophy, moral values, my distinction of right and wrong.
When does this life end?…when will my suffering end
I figured I should just put a stop to sales. I have harbored enough hatred and disfigured negativity and am tired of playing poker cards chess horsemanship when they cannot even back me up
So much for you,
Ayala Land Premier
Ortigas & Company
Love the brand, hate the people culture and bigotry and hurt they piled up inside my heart and made me a human monster
-how not to be influenced by others, become a noncomformist
When you were born a fucked up leader and born to stand out in a world of lies continuing to hurt and manipulate you?!
Forever my friend and constant enemy
Sobrang hirap mamuhay pag nagiba values mo.
Kahit manalo ka, tibay parin ang lakas na alam mo nasa lugar ka
And hindi ka ever vinulgar nang mundo, ibang tao, impuwensiya at iba pa
So much for society
I have killed myself and reborn myself a million years for sales
Trumped persistence and trumped everything over and over again
Kneeled and bowed down to my own biological parents, who shookted me into the world, constantly apologized for people who will never understand me and see my worth.
Thanks to the people who truly supported me
Ms Dior and Boss Gad
I always struck by Alveo because of the bosses
They were my three kings
I was the constant
That was my world in the past
Now I think exiting sales after a day of training in Ayala Land Premier should be worth it
Never regret a day in your life
Bad days always give you experience and a fresh take on your self
Never compromise the flesh and the world and be eaten by it
This is not Venom, this is the real world
I will never compromise my character over people who treat me like a puppeteer when I used to be a puppet to society
The everlasting iconoclast
Do I believe in hardship and suffering!??
Never since I was a born strong woman and have felt the gravity in this world.
I am constantly growing, learning, achieving
I might be stuck now but there always is tomorrow