Achilles heel.


I will never forget this day I got hold up by the world and felt compromised in a way that I mirrored myself through reflections and thoughts and analyzed them and finally figured out how people easily see through me and I reframed my mind and weakness to the point it was becoming a struggle to become myself since I don’t know if I should change and play the games of this wild world or stay true to who I am where the lotus in me broke and that inner child died and was replaced by a bloody version eager to prey on others as to which my journey continues on how do I handle problems like a monkey, an adult, or a lion.


Will I keep on this game and continue it like an adult and be influenced by the deadly world, or do I retreat in my sanctuary and still be myself, listen to the still, small voice and wait.

For change to come

Where is my million

Why do I have to endure bloodshot eyes and bloodshed and recognize the lack of validity love structure support spine in my family…the root cause of evil, the main reason I got shookt and taken by societal norms and dunno whether to conform and fight for myself or face moral obligation as a mere mortal and surrender everything to God.


Only He knows my true worth and struggle


Please pray for me.


Am I done in sales or is life truly just a matter of playing hide and seek

Of deceit and figures

Disillusionment and illusion

Will I throw away my sanity and literature world to this futile collaborative, destructive world of mortal combat

Or take everything literally and lose my world of literature, adventure, sense, being, time, philosophy, moral values, my distinction of right and wrong.

When does this life end?…when will my suffering end

I figured I should just put a stop to sales. I have harbored enough hatred and disfigured negativity and am tired of playing poker cards chess horsemanship when they cannot even back me up

So much for you,

Ayala Land Premier

What brand

Ortigas & Company

Love the brand, hate the people culture and bigotry and hurt they piled up inside my heart and made me a human monster

-how not to be influenced by others, become a noncomformist

When you were born a fucked up leader and born to stand out in a world of lies continuing to hurt and manipulate you?!


Forever my friend and constant enemy

Sobrang hirap mamuhay pag nagiba values mo.

Kahit manalo ka, tibay parin ang lakas na alam mo nasa lugar ka

And hindi ka ever vinulgar nang mundo, ibang tao, impuwensiya at iba pa


So much for society

I have killed myself and reborn myself a million years for sales

Trumped persistence and trumped everything over and over again

Kneeled and bowed down to my own biological parents, who shookted me into the world, constantly apologized for people who will never understand me and see my worth.


Thanks to the people who truly supported me

Ms Dior and Boss Gad

I always struck by Alveo because of the bosses

They were my three kings

I was the constant

That was my world in the past

Now I think exiting sales after a day of training in Ayala Land Premier should be worth it

Never regret a day in your life

Bad days always give you experience and a fresh take on your self

Never compromise the flesh and the world and be eaten by it

This is not Venom, this is the real world


I will never compromise my character over people who treat me like a puppeteer when I used to be a puppet to society


Yours truly,

The everlasting iconoclast


Do I believe in hardship and suffering!??


Never since I was a born strong woman and have felt the gravity in this world.


I am constantly growing, learning, achieving


I might be stuck now but there always is tomorrow




yung feeling na

tataba ka sa lifestyle mo


currently unemployed

after a year of working

mga lagpas six months din

mediyo wasak


kulang sa tulog kain

kaya tumataba

dati payat talaga ko po

138 lbs like 65 kg

normal for five feet almost six heights

anyways um

it truly is dawn

i cennet sleep i am super excited for work

finally blocked na nanay ko for life

sana mabilanggo siya


tatay ko naman talaga never naging tatay eh

kuripot pareho


sana kahit mabigo ako di ako mag papaapekto

tuloy lang

btw went to santa mesa

bought someshit again

truly feels the xmas vibes

never been to a halloween party

since birth



im not scared anymore of horror movies

or zombies

wag lang ako tulakin ulit sa outbreak manila

grabe kaampon yun

nabangga nang tods

nachip ngipin ko huehue

kaya tumaba nang bongga

like 60kg motherfucka

i lost ten pounds na or twenty

parang twenty

kaso i need to lose 65 pounds to go back to 65 kg lala noh

grabe yung mga nag paiyak sakin

alam mo talaga ang mundo

alam natin sino yung totoong mabait

alam nang diyos

kahit wala akong magulang

aayusin niya lahat

thank you lord

sana kagaya ni chinkee tan marunong na ko mag tipid wehe

wag na po ako tawaging ate

ugh hahahaha

ha ha ho ho

let em haters go

gotta be kind

to be rise to the top


what matters most in your life?

to me its sleep self care which im not good at





friends and lovers




forever mine

xx xx