Rich in God.

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2019 – so lately i have been feeling so much noise, but have keep my inner spirit clean from the noiselessness of the world i have, cut my ties from people who barely caredΒ 

I rarely feel ice nowadays but am clinging onto my icebreak sale

Lately there has been so much grievance over my sales life that my content mainly gravitated

Towards the bullshit of it all , if you know what I mean: so maybe I lost sum readers but

Will keep the fight to make this blog bloom πŸ’–

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In all fairness and honesty

I get easily distracted by happenings like steel feelings moaning over me

Like um

Curbing me to chill ya know

If I got the life , meaning the money I’d go for a bad boy who only wants me and is good at tech and shit and knows his goals really well,

Has philosophy and is unafraid to fight for his dream and loved ones

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Recently I have philosophized how working in a nutshell is hard and will and can make you go nuts

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Speak of the devil my workmates in Ortigas were all very lovely with their circus piggery attitude and their high regard for illuminati and their lovely boss who calls his team mate “stupid”

Never have I ever cried so hard in this crappy dinosaur restaurant eating paella like shit and ordering a Bicol express Filipino food worth a diamond care of remembering my former boss

I grow so fond

Of

Then

I realised he doesn’t give a damn about me anymore

Since all he thinks

Is im this damsel pabebe alienated family heavy emo girl na nagyayabang mag Atenista #char

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So what kung wala akong pamilya jowa kaibigan best pren or like normal na buhay

 

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Natuklasan ko na maigi nang tumira muna magisa para makilala lalo ang sarili

Like u know im super duper proud

I navigated Taiwan, the suburbs and the city itself all on my own at my early 20s

At 22 I was a variety of obesed culture shock edition where my main shelter was Eslite bookstore

24 hours ito and tambayan ko lagi

Tapos I always buy them german beers and roam around like a lost girl

Super saya maging malaya

Minsan wish ko nagkajowa ako pero ok lang kasi inggitera ako super haha

I have confessed feelings for two guys sa alveo not worthy of me este di sila guwapo and all pero mabait

Kaso lang marealise ko na di ko dapat yun ginawa kasi wala naman ako nun sa sarili kakalungkot na ginawa ko yun pero diba we always grow naman to become better versions of ourselves

Basta this 2019 pagpapasensiyahan ko na may attachments pa ko sa nakaraan, na di ako makapag aral nang fashion or writing or german

Na kahit na lola na tingin sakin never ako mag padala lagi sa mga tanders na yan

Cool kid parin tapos swag queen , sasaya parin ako sa pain ko

At naniniwala ako sa mga taong di ako nalimutan at parati akong tinutulungan

I have no time frame actually

Sunod lang ako sa galaw nang mundo

Kahit emotionally abused kid ako and adolescent noon gusto ko kind magara sikat jk magaling and graceful lady naman ako ngayon sa adulthood ko.

Ayoko ma mmk story ko

Pero someday bay may balak ako sana to write an autobiography: a memoir

Sakin lang sapat na na nakita ko yung dalawang may crush sakin sa college nun nung 2017 and 2018

Lam ko may jowa naman sila kaya oks lang

Never assuming

Be graceful and grateful

Sawa na rin ako mag muni muni

Tuloy lang ang segunda mano

Yung orasan palage lang yan nandiyan

Basta one step closer sa pangarap

Kahit anung hirap may ginhawa din

Proud of u Sherry

My greatest ambition

Is to be happy

πŸ˜‡πŸ’™πŸ‘†many thanks readers from all over the world: rome was not built in a day or two , it was built with wings grit and determination

Never give up

Dami mo pa challenges she

Wish ko sana magka anak sa near future, have my clothing store and protection palagi kay Lord

At patawarin niya ko sa lahat nang hurt ko, kasi mahirap walang nakikitang constant eh .

Nalearn ko na di ako maghahanap nang any relationship sa coworkers ko-at never be manipulated by anything.

Saludo ako sa mga mamamayang naniniwala pa at naaalala pa ko

With love always and fearlessness

Stay kind, be golden face the present

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IDFC.

Hey loves.

I know most of you have lives, lives meaning you got friends, a family more or less, a good home, a stable income, or a committed partner.

Times have been changing and lately, I just laugh off my depression and anxiety since the world is too cruel to be true.

But other times, I gain inspiration from other people I observe from he streets, people who are homeless, clothes and all, no food to eat.

Those who just lay in the streets, while watching expensive luxurious black friday hauls on Youtube and being hella scared off my future.

Me ready to die anytime soon, 26 and partyless friendless alone and living broke as hell.

Me.

Yup.

I just wanna have decent friends who share my emotional fields, battles, common ground.

Those who are willing to fight for me as I am for them.

Those who prioritize the time we spent.

People who are, authentic.

Well, to normalize, extraordinary but normal, people.

I may not know how to be one, as my heart turned cold last June 2018 when my work with Ayala Land disappeared.

I decided to blew things off by deciding for myself and by myself, with a blessing from my entrepreneur uncle, none so from my so called biological rents.

As I write this worrying about everything, I pray I can have the heart to start all over again.

To the people reading this, bless you more and have a great last days of November.

Love you all.

Xx sherr

nyeta

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yung feeling na

tataba ka sa lifestyle mo

haha

currently unemployed

after a year of working

mga lagpas six months din

mediyo wasak

pagod

kulang sa tulog kain

kaya tumataba

dati payat talaga ko po

138 lbs like 65 kg

normal for five feet almost six heights

anyways um

it truly is dawn

i cennet sleep i am super excited for work

finally blocked na nanay ko for life

sana mabilanggo siya

haha

tatay ko naman talaga never naging tatay eh

kuripot pareho

lolz

sana kahit mabigo ako di ako mag papaapekto

tuloy lang

btw went to santa mesa

bought someshit again

truly feels the xmas vibes

never been to a halloween party

since birth

shhh

haha

im not scared anymore of horror movies

or zombies

wag lang ako tulakin ulit sa outbreak manila

grabe kaampon yun

nabangga nang tods

nachip ngipin ko huehue

kaya tumaba nang bongga

like 60kg motherfucka

i lost ten pounds na or twenty

parang twenty

kaso i need to lose 65 pounds to go back to 65 kg lala noh

grabe yung mga nag paiyak sakin

alam mo talaga ang mundo

alam natin sino yung totoong mabait

alam nang diyos

kahit wala akong magulang

aayusin niya lahat

thank you lord

sana kagaya ni chinkee tan marunong na ko mag tipid wehe

wag na po ako tawaging ate

ugh hahahaha

ha ha ho ho

let em haters go

gotta be kind

to be rise to the top

πŸŒŸπŸ–€πŸ‘’

what matters most in your life?

to me its sleep self care which im not good at

art

love

lifestyle

photos

friends and lovers

memories

faded

but

forever mine

xx xx

sherr

look alive

 

dear loves,

i havent gone home in a really long time

thanks to the likers whom inspire me

you probably dont know

but i always thank heavens

for people like you

its hard to trust strangers in the outside world

sometimes

you just have to take the leap

im glad i always find rest

in this blog

amazing likers

im a flawed human

but at least i fight and get it done

you know

its been really cold

but i always tell myself its gonna get better

left all my so called friends

ive been tied up in sales since april 2017

dunno why

am i here.

 

all ive been doing is keeping my head above water.

 

that was the tune i sang last team building when i was still in my,former employer.

most high class managers there told me

dapat

nagstay

daw ako

well

mahirap

ng

wala

ng allowance

no parental guidance since 17

dormed na in college

echos echos aside

ive been in my condo for a year and 3 months

ive loved every bit of it

and i was the very first

to live here in this building

 

thank you so much.

 

tomorrow i might lose my job

 

but ya know

 

it will be worth it.

 

thank you guys so much.

love y’all πŸ˜πŸ…

cheerios

grind

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so far i love ortigas

nevermind the manager

or the teammates

or the redundancy of manning

…

i was self made

for sales

it comes a matter of time

before

i wont ever be paasa na

sa mga akala mo maclose na

petiks lang pala

parang ayala lang

hello tears

nasan ka na

parang nawalan ka na nang

puso

🌷

its gonna get better

yay 101 follows

sana makatravel na ko

ang tagal na

antayin pa yata to ng pasko

yay ig and fb

kudos

hope this blog flourish

sana lang

may mag like pa

patunay at patibay na

kaya ko,pa manulat

kasi hindi naman parin ako writer

sa dami ng inapplayan ko

para di ako dito sa pinas

sana mag kaanak nalang ako

mawala ganon

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Nevertheless

Sixpence None The Richer

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Hey guys

I admit I have been posting

A lot in social media lately

And watching Youtube

And I got this (dis) phone

Dissed

Like left behind

Since I got a new cell thats like

Samsung C8

And I smartunlocked it here

Since it came from China,

Um dad’s donation

So basically

I have been ditching work

But at the same time

Intriguingly

Reminisced the power of 2017

How it gave me the entire

Year

To map out

Rough out my mess

And plant a seed in me

Something untouchable

Nevermind the pains

It provided me a gift

Given that I can strongly agree

I don’t cry anymore

I have a newfound self awareness

That its clearly okay to be alone

That we can never win our battles

But we can choose how to

React or like,

Deal slash cope towards it

In my case its my mom and family

Also my dad

Like I said in this blog

It has been a history

Of hurt

Thats why im proud im moving on

I really liked today for some reason

Its totally rad

Nobody cares about my social media posts

And im sure there are some creepers out there I have yet to unfriend

You all know how the world goes

Always remember the only one that can hurt you

Is

Yourself

Xoxo,

Forever single but proud independent

Happy 96

 

 

Too many things

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So heres Whiz Khalifa in Saint Laurent.

Tomorrow I dunno what to expect

I just learned to drown the noise in

From things that get too much on my head

That literally

I just wanna scream

Where is my sale

 

I dont even pine for a boyfriend

But I always remember the books that got me by high school;

the books in class academically

Assigned to us

 

The A’s I never pretended I could get whatever I aimed for

 

The movie, “The First Time”.

the guy in college I thought,

I actually like.

 

 

The many, many haunted things and specified images that haunt my head

the decisions I am making,

 

the laundry lady who was witty and pretty

who told me I am young to be 26

— tomorrow.

 

It suddenly rained tonight.

Maybe

 

the universe is weeping for my age

@ 25 got not much– money friends family feelings,

 

 

How do you drown those noises unwanted

those people who are assholes

 

Those people who actually are so selfish and don’t care enough that

you invited them

asking who is on the guest list

asking if they can leave early.

 

 

So why bother going ???