Long beach,CA

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Bye, Ortigas & Company

Over the course of my life, I always strived for excellence and the pursuit for taste, justice, freedom of expression, value for money w/o compensating the quality. Ive been in real estate for exactly around 2 years. I got hired March 28, 2017 

My life has prettty much changed, since then. Life has its own echoes of survival we all follow, mine I think has reached its fullest capacitty. I mean, nobodys perfect, but I was having a hard time early Jan and Feb. Chased 8 bosses and got blindsided by the mafia.

I always had whims inside of me that my biological parents will get jailed. I almost had to go to the Emergency room or have some heart defribilator or something pump out my angst.

I have taken out my anger through dance.

Am quite the dancer not chosen for wild performances, Lord knows that is my number 1 passion

Earlier my slippers broke in public.

I calmy crossed the street to and from with just my left feet dangling around my headspace

So to be honest, i cannot always record my thoughts.

I know what I have produced and it has been such difficulty trying and carving my way being a proper lady, without fear of being catcalled。

My room has so much spacious mess that outer space cannot bend back time for me to go back to my previous employer.

I always had the best intentions in my mind helping out my former team.

The resignation was bad but Ortigas is my passion and lifeblood.

I was losing oxygen but still fancied giving out my business card to rich people.

I always dreamed of living in the suburbs

Quite the peaceful life—

My idea of a routine is absurd since I have worked irregular shifts since my graduation

2014, nobody acknowledged it as it was quite uneventful.

I will always treasure the gift of life though, despite my many fears

Living in the Philippines has taught me more than enough skills to become assertive, independent, fearless, faithful, humble, integrity driven, style, class, frugal, patient with myself

Tolerance is my best weapon, the economy may falter but my heart won’t

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Dear 122 followers

You never know how much you make my holidays happy

I didn’ t celebrate Christmas and the New Years thru all the hurt I have received

I tried wrapping excellent gifts for others but got none so much in return

I always always wished I had a foster fam but now that I am an adult, I just have to continue on my 18 year old dream to become independent.

I don’ t ever want to brag but at 26 I feel like I have soared enough skies to heal my broken wings and rise again

I can’t wait for the movie “Dark Phoenix”as I myself have struggled over many opportunities in the past that didn’t push thru due to parental or home reasons

Am glad to have my Makati condo since June 2017 and my real world existence to be in peace

Even though this year I got run over by a tric

I am extremely hugely grateful for all my blessings

I may not have gotten gifts

But my self love is quite enough to pull myself through

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I know I’m Super Fly, ☆ ey 119 followers

I am entirely grateful u all been there with me, truly universe has been so kind, im broke and jobless, kinda, i got an insurance job, was very very very lucky 😚

I passed the exams last October 26.

I resigned from Ortigas October 13.

Since then Hallelujah

I met a bad bitch boss at Ortigas who promised me entry again next twenty o nine but she left me gaping… I thought she said six mos. exit then come back around but hell no, she f*cking left me in the air, like hanging there with so much pain tbh since I was hoping to get back at the bad bosses downing me out and backlashing me out.

But then I realize as I swam this real world loves me so much.

No need to have comparison over others, as God has loved me thru thick and thin. He gave me a 2nd life when I was eight and dying. Though my mum and dad are cruel people, He always gave me the back hand and the upper edge to succeed in no matter any situation

Let me meet people who were and always will be, amazing

Btw I went home today shopping for Christmas, most of them were pink, classy and unicorn style,

I miss Ateneo, I miss Ms Dior from Taipei, I miss Alveo and Boss Gad,

I miss our dog Ollie Back Home…the home I will never run back

To no matter how hopeless I am, no matter how injured, hurt, even though just recently I got hit AF by a tric but he was nice as he took me in for a free ride since I was stunned shookt there, like basically motionless, kneeling

In my wounds…pero in fair

Di siya malala

Kaya super thanks 💋

Can’t wait for 2019, am sad Karina is sad and Aljon got evicted sa PBB

I thought of vlogging my life pero parang di na ganun ka natural pag ivlog mo haha,

Dame kong nakakausap sa labas,

I even got lost in Poblacion only to have my lost TIN ID notarized quite expensively for 250 bucks, sinabi nung guy na nag sell nang burgers na Car name yung names nang burgers na mahal daw dapat 100 to 150 lang yung price.

Pinakaasar ako is that I waited mga 10 ish to 15 min, parang eternity yon kasi the guy there was like making landi to his old classmate instead of working, like inuna pa niya mag add sa FB kaysa gawin yung Notary ko, dafudge diba

Tapos nainis na ko kasi hello nag aantay ako amp tas mahal pa sinigil saken huwaw such work ethic… sometimes ya know

I secretly wish I was missed by my co-workers in Ortigas

Kasi pati ba naman sa Circuit

Nakita ako lel

Like she shouted, “Sherry!”

While I was crossing the lil pedestrian at the back

And um na huwaw ako na Sherry finally tinawag niya sakin

Kasi names are important ya know!

Sobrang saya ko na nawalan ako nang takot sa Angkas

It made me feel like a rockstar

Steady lang

Sana buhay ko ganon

Fyi sobrang gandara nang calling card

Pinagawa ko sa Chill Hub

Grabe galing nila

Sarap talaga mag promote hehe

Like maybe doing a vlog might be so nice

But the mystery and the sponteneity of you, living your raggedy, jackass of a life

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Fyi

Di perfect buhay

Wala akong ya know

Bf

Pero um

Kinakaya ko naman

Kasi di mo naman kailangan muna

Haha

And

Dame ko pang pangarap na magagawa

Like it was my first time this December to clean my meager apartment

And clean it like hell

Tryna find my TIN card!

Then awhile ago sa morning I was so happy I got to Atrium Makati to finally

Hopefully get my TIN ID tom

Btw Affidavit of loss pala yung tinaga saken

Mediyo first time ko rin kasi asikasuhin yang

Mga yan oh btw I stole a knife um jk fork today mahahaa

Um

Kase naman

Bad service

Sorna

Um natapon ko din ata yung Sterling spoon and fork ko sa apartment kaya yun squad poor life talaga

Tapos di na ko nagpapaapekto sa mga humihingi nang money sa sampaguita

Kasi last year andame ko na binili sa mga yan

Basta

Pati rose nga eh

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To be continued

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Hey followers

Thank you for 105

I owe it a lot to all of you

I wish I can monitor my expenses

Also make everyday a productive life

Today was great since it just was

I also won a bonus cash from the Mooncake dice game

I have a strong shot at games

Starting the weekend we’re gonna go back to the usual sales getup

Black blazer and heels

I wish I make a sale by November

As of now I temporarily Dgaf my Facebook and IG

I hate how I always accept people to follow me but they like unfollow me

Holy

Haha

Make it worth your time

Dahling

Much much loves.

God is a miracle.

Here are the things that currently run across my mind

Baguio God Sales Limit.

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Its getting late and its been hours since I have tried to upload my baguio street photography stash but the internet doesnt seem to cooperate

 

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Ive since realised you can always make your life better

 

Ie. if you dont fit in with your job or the people there uninspire you go search a new one !!

eight hours ago you were a different person

NOW you can always always change your life for the better.

 

Seriously like im sitting right now in a coffee shop with fleas buzzing around me and it annoys the fuck out of me but for the sake of wifi

 

Im staying

See the bigger picture

Why do we work

 

Because we need to earn money to fuel our dreams.

 

There always is a cause and effect

 

Everything that happens to us have consequences that stems from the root of our action

 

If you believe in mind over matter,

then

All the bad luck coming or whatever shitty days you might have are nothing but water

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So relating to water,

I’ve recently watched Shape of Water and it was incredible.

 

Im so sorry if the tone of this narrative is irritable (said previously im staying at a crappy coffee shop writing this piece profusely )

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Lates ive been frantic about the meaning of life,

Like searching for your Truest self.

Examples might be going back to writing, getting runs from the gym or say, losing yourself over something ot someone in order to find yourself paradoxically in a way

 

I mean, ive been on this sales job since March of 2017 and it has been killing my insides so deeply that I have never imagined doing this sort of job and talking to these many people or hearing retorts that may be rhetorical or heavily idiotic to put it

Im so sorry im blogging my private thoughts on the internet

 

But lately ive been so sad im afraid depression might rain on me again like it did last 2013 when my tooth got chipped over a zombie run

 

Um or that horrid times abroad where I came and went for five months vying over a job title that meets the meager salary of a “yaya” in the Philippines aka Teaching assistant at a preschool or TA.

See, if I wrote over these experiences like going door to door in Mandarin cram schools looking for a job at 22, to finding one and getting paid your first summer camp salary at 23 and getting admitted to a real world job at 22 not from your current country

After getting denied from previous publishing industries locally postgrad I had to find my first ever real world job abroad

Many things happened to me alone in another country,

Like eating strange cuisine or talking to so many random strangers or looking onto coffee shops like snowglobes and wondering where my friends and family at

Or crying because my list of dreams in college got ruined because I dont have the support or financial capacity to fund it all like shit

So you see, the real world is tough and the vapidity of it all is self absorbing engrossment of capitalism and lack of education amongst peers around you who never fully knew the importance or grace of academic society, aka getting schooled.

When I entered sales I was frenetic and lost to the point of breaking my limits like crying since January or losing it whenever those “paasa” clients seem to hit it like crazy

But never actually buying into the idea of investment.

I never thought I would enter a wild world of drinking, cold calls and smoke everywhere like cray

Not that I hate it, I mean Ive always had ideals

But now they’ve been quite broken

From the roots of money and pain, the causes of unemployment and the search of another and the self in the ruthless world of changing economies and titles and global warming and months to the future and panic,

Ive had loads of doubts and fears to the point 2017 both terrified me and made me a stronger woman amidst the fall of literal and metaphysical worlds.

I have got many stories to tell and my grammar has been rusty since im not literally around academics,

But I promise you readers and 60 meager followers I will read to the best of success that I can.

And I will write with passion and wit and humour and pain and happiness to the limits of my existence.

Heres my prayer to each and everyone to be invincible, to follow your dream and to not let anyone have power over you, choose to love others, always be kind because love is kind.

Love is and always will be kind.