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The personal is the political

My voice is lost.

By doing so many routines, like paying bills, tryna overlook the future, moving on to further heights, armageddon hurt

Losing your power is like losing your self, your boss, your ally.

What we mirror becomes our reality.

Sometimes we go too far in life, we forget the fact that we too have weaknesses which people use against us.

It is too rare nowadays for people to just …be themselves.

The farther you go, the realization sinks in.

There were some people who really believed in you, whether they have destroyed you or made you more mature.

Their words hurt.

But you know,

It is up to you to become so affected to the noise.

Up to you.

To listen.

To be patient.

Practice patience.

We get all what we deserve.

Only God knows what we are up to.

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Cold.

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dear loveds thanks for always being there for me even though im a perfectly flawed and imperfect being that keeps on changing and spinning around like crazy wherein i have zero friends and fucks to give this fuckin new year since sometimes when i do become alone which is all the time i feel so lonely but i catch myself and always count my blessing

I think at 26 i have grown enough adulthood swag that the swag lowd have mercy on me and my hatred on : lloyd cervantes, hazel dee and jeoff racelis. They hurt me too much like hell

I miss alveo and their culture to the point i wasn’t culture shocked at all

I fear change the most but that is all we always need to move forward

I have come freed from the motherfuckin world

I miss being 22

I miss being thrown to the depths of Taiwan

Not knowing a thing about the universe or the world itself

Just leaving the world of the academe without much merit or recognition

Was truly, deeply hellish

but then again we are the choices that we make.

Last year was a sitch

i can’t believe i got hired like cray 2 days after my birthday

when nobody came and i spent a dime tryna think i could have fun

I will always miss my boss in alveo

The only boss

Next to dior

i know my blog is hoarish but pls bear with me

i have hurt myself Too deeply last year

am quite afraid

But the new will always be new

And we

Shall

Always

Have

Time

To

Breathe

…no yosi pls sherry

Tama na sa mga taong nakaraan.

Btw facebook stopped me from liking posts again…

more like blocked me.

 

…God knows everything.

End cynicism.

Hey y’all. I dunno whats up anymore lately. I feel like something strange weird is going on but no more feels and fucks to give since people keep taking and taking. And im too tired anymore to give. To show them my true self and feelings. Because once you do they pounce on you like a cheetah. Super cray. Keeping to yourself is power. Also stop the negativity and the trauma. You know you are a good person. So much angst since teenage years but oh hey age doesn’t matter. Try to think positive despite all your downfall

Most especially, love and light ✖⚜⛾ create

New

Whatever happened to chivalry, to people who are actually, decent and kind

To people who actually, look good and make u feel good,

To people who actually, respect that you are straight af

That you dont apparently like lgbt peers but respect them.

To people who dont have a fam

But get over life like its their last laugh

Ya know

Where are those people

Huh

look alive

 

dear loves,

i havent gone home in a really long time

thanks to the likers whom inspire me

you probably dont know

but i always thank heavens

for people like you

its hard to trust strangers in the outside world

sometimes

you just have to take the leap

im glad i always find rest

in this blog

amazing likers

im a flawed human

but at least i fight and get it done

you know

its been really cold

but i always tell myself its gonna get better

left all my so called friends

ive been tied up in sales since april 2017

dunno why

am i here.

 

all ive been doing is keeping my head above water.

 

that was the tune i sang last team building when i was still in my,former employer.

most high class managers there told me

dapat

nagstay

daw ako

well

mahirap

ng

wala

ng allowance

no parental guidance since 17

dormed na in college

echos echos aside

ive been in my condo for a year and 3 months

ive loved every bit of it

and i was the very first

to live here in this building

 

thank you so much.

 

tomorrow i might lose my job

 

but ya know

 

it will be worth it.

 

thank you guys so much.

love y’all 😝🏅

cheerios

!S

Hello

Welcome to BS Crush It.

This is the crash course to when you learn to DGAF when a) unexpected incidents happen b) the world is probably ending now c) your mom incessantly mocks and derrogates you again like when you were a teenager d) you are just simply killin it

With kindness, surely. Most def.

Well well, at the course of my life. I simply am me.

I have no words for the pain I suffered since I read something that pain is actually weakness leaving the body.

Aint that true ?

!!!

I mean hellya I totes forgot my high school “friends” and in college I was a bookish loner but ya know.

We must never forget the memories that struck us deep within of who we really are.

Now I am stuck in the real world. And by real world I don’t mean high school.

To begin with I was surprised at elementary and high school, years I dare not touch,

I was never bullied in school

Probably my second life gave me that secret power to yield those throat ass*s but um

Never really had a lingering memory or like a foreshadowing of the past

That somebody nearly killed me or what

Maybe just in china when I was 13 well just turned 13 and there was a brother to brother bullying like they were two brothers shooking the navel off me.

Geez

Anyway I have nothing to say to my blog.

Ya know

Like I tried to be a good girl for most of my life.

My parents even sent me to rehab like they aren’t supposed to be there right now.

 

All I can say is that when people fight you and get mad at you in an overrated sense (hello mudra)

Just simply. Ignore.

You can never demand respect anyway but you can respect yourself enough to walk away from the situation.

Amirite?

 

When I was around 19 navigating my angst tough aging teenage years I was pretty much at the stage where I really was struggling with my art and music and all those dreamy things I wish I could relive.

I often asked why my own mother was always so tough on me.

She never could appreciate or acknowledge anything nice out of me.

Quite the tiger mom really.

And having three brothers next to me feels like I am supposed. And yes insistently, live this life like some pretty exclusive lotus flower.

 

I simply wish I will meet more wonderful people along the way to guide me and help me become who I am.

I will always be grateful for Dior Mommy, Robert Daddy, Gable, Aunty Curdy, Grace the Teaching Assistant, Sylvia my Camp Counselor Teammate, and of course my greatest boss Gad. Hello Boss. Haha. I think you’re not reading this. Psh.

Anyway I am hella Happy I can Be Hella from Thor.

Indestructible.

So far I blocked all Alveo peeps.

They really fuel my heart with so much tears. The irony.

I really wish I can just start over and not remember all the time I spent.

But I guess they don’t really remember me or like say care about my own feelings.

In Alveo though I will never ever forget Sir Gerry B. Haha

And Boss Norman Lim

Ian Casem our Area Sales Director.

And my forever beloved Boss Gad.

 

These days I just came to happy lemon, even spelled out my name S-H-E-R-R-Y. And then they printed out “cherry ” yet again.

Oh my did I react and squabbled.

Haha

Why is this name haunting me?????

To the brink 7$ I am getting my comm late September.

So thats like debts to the living for now.

Yikey.

Ohwells I will manage.

What a crazy world.

I still feel like a teenager though.

Wheres my hoodie. My starbucks. My rollercoaster. My zombie folks. My favourite dream. My castle.

– is the world really ending?