Spin.

To the people who hurt me, did me wrong, said shit behind my back, poured me plenty alcohol, backstabbed me

I have this anti bullshit pill for you.

 

Kindly delete all the contents of this blog from 2017 to 2018

My years were 2010 2011 2012

Sexiest at 2013

Baddest bitch at 2014

Kakagrad ko lang

Tinapon na ko abroad

2015 camp counselor pain

Outcast

Cannot communicate

Tryna fit in

Wew

2016

Ward

Uh

First ?

2017

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Be Kind

So the ganap is I went to Makati City Hall last Dec 6 to get my NSO and got my SSS verified at PRC and submitted my requirements for Grepa Life Insurance, so I can get my code and start selling.

I am tryna focusing on myself these days and am really hurt, wasak and lonely but it doesn’t affect me at all. All I do is try hardest to be productive and jam many things in the day to make it work like in Dec 6 all I did was 1) verify my SSS which was already existing

2) get my NSO well nauna ito kaya yun, mabilis lang ang process

3) I paid mah rent asap so Insured na ko sa January kasi di ako nakikipag communicate sa mom ko kaya di niya binayara rent, este caretaker had to contact her and she didn’t pick up the phone daw so text nalang, nakakahiya diba

4) paid grepa insurance fee at RCBC well easy peasy

5) go to my dentist who was a bitch at real world circumstances like um why do we even small talk lel …i still wear retainers hot dang. Ugm

6) go to Brahma Kumaris

The same day… Makati, I rode behind the tric drivers back omg cringe but well ganyan talaga kapag mahirap na este tag hirap na lalo na pasko season traffic kaoras uy

7) Made it to Brahma Makati paying only 40 bucks kasi nga nakisakay lang ako galing kalye after crossing the long damn train in Filmore like guh

8) thought of taking a cab to La Fuerza to eat dinner at Lido but plan failed

9) I got into some weird crazy maniac …again cab driver whom I asap lipad na kasi ew, di niya lam san yung La Fuerza At Chino Roces uhuh

10) So I dropped the cab sa Amorsolo kasi yun lang kaya ko ituro fron GMaps ayay

11) Naligaw nanaman sa Makati, before that nag lakad lakad pala ako bago nag cab…

12) Um

13) I bailed the German party thing at La Fuerza since ang late na tapos may “interview” ako sa bitchy boss nato na gurl na sinabi na on the fri of next week daw nyak napakaspecific day, di man lang sinabi yung date ang gulo noh,

14) so Like after fixing my adult problems the entire day, made lil tambay to Cash n Carry, rode the dang tric to Bagtikan cor Zobel St. in San Antonio

15) In a nutshell naligaw sa Amorsolo, nagtambay sa isang weird lil resto na nag sell nang nike shoes, yosi at anu pang kakaibang merch

16) I therefore went home na kasi wawa naman diba may interview

17) crazy part is of course duh the next day mamimis ko yung interview ko sad

18) which is worse kasi inadvice ko yung bossy bitch na malalate ako kasi 10 yung interview sa CV tapos ulul gagu 2am as always gising pa yours truly diba

19) tapos alam naman niya na nag linis ako nang bahay because did I mention, To her na linigpit ko lahat nang bahay ko maghanap lang nang TIN ID ko for requirements sa GREPA

20) Which, to my disadvantage, my so called biological mutter confiscated my passport weeks months ago and I decided to cut my ties with them like yeah, you deserve it ,all of YOU.

21) I wanna cry but tears can’t stream down my tear ducts anymore lel

22) So there I finished going to the dentist Today, for my Retainers

And then the sitch is, I keep eating sticky foods like craving them and shit like pichi pichi and not working out oh noes

And um I was so very happy I was able to buy lots of kutchinta huhu awhile ago huhu super huhu food is soul like lifer ahuhu

23) mediyo naaawa na ko sa sarili ko at this point

24) pero keri lang hehe

Dame kong haters btw

Like sa real life, di lang family ko…

Dami nag hurt saken dis year,

SPEECHLESS AKO

Pati yung boss bitch na tatrabahuan ko nayayabangan ako sakanya like oh my

Di nag rereply,

Im the girl na kahit ilang buwan ako tulog este tameme namahiga sa kama,

Never ako yung type na di gagawa nang paraan para umusad

Para kong gago kakamessenger nang maayos grabe sobrang nega nya

Like RIP Sales na siguro for me,

Sobra akong winasak wild talaga ang drama drama dameng peke jan na tao kala mo mabait wala namang halaga ang puso mo sakanila

Like whoah

I cannot compose myself out of speechlessness and the hatred

You just cennet help it

Fyi si ateng boss pa grabe kabulul sa English

Yubung yubung gawd

Like omg can you take my life already

Im about to explode

For reals

Di ko kaya

Alam ko TMI eto pero swear, ang hirap mag panggap na okay lang lahat at okay lang sinasaktan ka, di ka binibigyan nang kaluluwa

Kahit kaluluwa nalang eh

Dami rin gago jan

Lalo na mga lalake

Beks pa

Waw

Hanep talaga si Ateng, sinabi niya “I want you to be part of my team”… im like

No mam go KEKE yourself… magsama kayo ni LEC jan sa Ortigas

Grabe kayo

Masipag ako

Grabe insulto

Grabe ugali

Grabe mukha

So kapal uh58d34b0762b1b71bce90545958aa75b9

joy

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why it pays to be kind humble and smart 

nowadays ive been on the hunt for genuine happiness. facebook has been such a joy giver all the pages or blogs per se i follow post some ridiculous on point (pardon the jargon) shit that totally meshes well or like, um relates well in my life, speaking of, I keep ordering mcdonalds delivery food, note the double iced coffee for my caffeine boost and extra virgin vanilla jk lawl ive been dealing heavy stuff lately. I mean my blog means the world to me as it is my baby. It really makes me happy someone, you probably don’t know, but a simple like can make my day bloom.

It has been 35 days since I resigned. I have gone through emotional whirlwinds I cannot myself comprehend. Done shit as an agent I couldn’t fuckin compromise as it goes against my logic and identity… Things such as

1 begging clients in chinese, translating chinese, helping my teammates …former,speak in chinese hilariously

2 chasing richies

3 giving my card and having small talk la la

4 enjoying the fuck out of my job

… i feel like my life died a bit when i left sales

Good thing, Ms J …lets just call her that, came to my rescue last September 4 like omg I was getting bully vibes from my teammates but nonetheless, Karma is there to teach us humility and patience,

So I met this lady who gave me her card.

I got deep, deep salute to her as she is the Girl Boss I always always will follow and admire …hello Dior, my first official girl boss.

Also Ms Mary Chinjen, shout out to you,

I hope you both will make my journey worthwhile and teach me lessons worth more than a golden minefield.

To my Taiwan experience, goodbye. Also, Alveo. Good bye.

Love you all.

xx Sher 2018

pls dont be scared

keep the faith

the rest will follow

intelligence is sexy

keep

so what ive worked 1 year six mos in sales

talked to alotta people

merged time around idiots

spent time chatting away with prudy wannabes

people whom never understood the pain i had inside

the pain i always carried

but nevermind

sales, i will miss you

i cannot believe the times i saturated alone

all the other agents from other developers ive basically encountered

that moments ive suicided inside a public smoking lounge and gave out flyers while chinese people smoked out

that time nobody knew me or

i felt like a dead zombie

waiting to be saved

by no one

im proud of my 1 year 6 months

i have resigned

october 13 2018 sure na sure na

sana lord kaw na bahala

ok naman ako

masakit lang yung marami kang sakit sa loob

tapos mediyo grabe ka mag mahal

kaya parati nasasaktan

pero wala naman

nagmamahal sayo

kaya ayaw na drama

sikap at tiyaga