Bullying

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All my life I have been a silent child, up to responsible sensible young adult who can drive at seventeen to a sweet rebel teenager who can stand up and fight for herself

I can handle people throwing shade at me as I know how to fight back and scream in silence but what I cannot most tolerate are the treatment my parents have shown since birth

All they do is complain they spent a million on my studies, a million on my operation, which by the way was so critical looking back I wished God whomever He is took me already

To cut it short, someday I know I can tell with bright fiery eyes and gleam how I was raised in an abusive household. Up to now that I am a working twenty something, I left all my so called friends who have decent parents and travel and have a social life.

My heart burns with hatred but nobody should judge that. Everytime I go home my mom manages to say something unkind, or just last night my dad told me, if my attitude stays the same, then nobody will come near me.

It was hurtful how he delivered it. I was simply listening at my earphones music blasting that I had nonchalantly closed the door. It was barely loud but I guess the crickets were banging that it was apparently audible.

In my heart I have humbled a sense not to cry anymore over nonsense things. But it shookt me that he really is a patriarch old man who cannot modernize his ways, who always treat others better, who cannot accept girls in the family.

I am the first born and only girl

Many times some dear people told me not to be self pity to myself, but other times you simply cannot help it

Being emo, being so hard on yourself to the point your current boss tells you be happy and not be emo

So anyway point is Im growing up

I wish to finally break the curse of the rebellious teenage angst me and live a life of my own alone. Financially capable and knows how the world works.

Thank you for reading.

If ever you do.

Happy October.

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Let it happen

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Lates im currently worried

 

about my status at work

 

Like awks

 

Tatagal ba ko sa trabaho

 

Or bye bye na sa march??

 

I so wanna earn money

and live and learn :

Bisaya

German

Travel and surf

 

Maybe download Tinder jwk

So maybe life aint what we planned out ya know

But there will be people out there to plant seeds

 

Of hope

 

And inspire us to become who we are meant to be,

 

So always learn.

Despite the pain

Choose your people.

Never give up on life

 

Past is past

 

Everything and the rest

 

just goes round.

Saying thanks

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I rarely find the time to work out lately so im catching it up with some shopping haha. I still cant feel the moment when 2017 is ending. I had a lot of ups and downs this year that made me teary eyed but grateful. Also I met some people with beautiful souls and got some friends whom I think will never leave me. Theres nothing quite left to say either when you have 411 likes and 43 follows just in a years time. I miss LA and travelling in general. Hope to go on a trip soon by myself. Tomorrow I go to the woods with my friend Anna. I hope our trip would be fun. I miss writing letters in Japanese too to my pen pal. Haha. So many things you missed out doing because you were working the iron cage. So anyway catch ya later. Thanks for reading. You are wonderful and amazing.

Xoxo,

Sherry

So rare

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So lately I just woke up and its November already.

I missed writing and college, frivolous things like crushes and daydreams and outfits like which mood represents what you wear

Lately I feel strongly attracted to someone,

Which may or may not pull me off the edge ‘ ya know

So far God has been good to me, I have ridden two Grab cars with great ambiance music rules and shebangs

You already know it

Peace out xx