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i truly regret ,2018 has been such a wasted year

i left my job at alveo

ended

in the dumpster

worked for sh*t ass bosses

who cannot get THE work done

and even handle you with this nasty, self entitlement you got served dish.

so dont work for them

period.

im very worried

insurance

not my thing.

i cried before

resigning.

see the huge or like life time

decision

i made !

wtf holy sh*t, like

i woke up

and my jobs gone.

i still have two months …

two months for what !

contract ends december 20

who cares ?

evil is evil

and choose your battle

love and light

#angas

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so like yestuhday i took my insurance exam like a pro __ um

i really didn’t study much so i quite predicted to say sorry i failed the test since it has 50 items and the mock exams were quite difficult to understand……

then

a miracle happened, all my sleepless nights worrying turned out real mighty fine as i took the exam around 15 min since computerized and time limit and all and you gotta have a username

mine was st.chan@acevariable

um

i had a great time last oct 24 -25 since

i went to the gym then was able to buy at kevins toy store 100 php real cool collectible toys probably from clash of clans

they also sell ninja turtle

pero mejo hype

kaya i went with the unique quirky cool ones

check my ig they’re there.

then

the next morning as always unable to have a sleep cycle i basically ordered yet another mcdonalds delivery but this time it was the best as it arrived no sooner than ten minutes and the two piece chix was so delish like uhhhm

then i grab then arrived at un ave…

didn’t know

what to expect

i hate exams since sales made me dumber people watching…

but ey

i passed oh waw

didn’t breathe

for like fifteen minutes

trauma na ko sa exam

kasi like the last exam sa ortigas training  (they literally have a lot of training) … my seatmate checked my answer wrong when it was right.

tapos ako pag mag check nung sakanya kahit mali spelling check nalang like i just gauged it on his deviance more than the regular academic precision

but he naman on the other hand corrected my super duper minor mistakes like maybe my handwriting was not legible for his understanding.

the worse

was making my right answer wrong to the point i had to ask a random girl seatmate on the left if tama ba yung sagot

hay

i woulda gotten three or like two dumb mistakes lang but i got like around 4.5 or 5 mistakes thanks to him

actually 2 mistakes lang

pero the trainor gio praised me naman

tapos ako lang nakapasok from our so called team sa training room

since my then boss threatened me of salary deduction if i didn’t come

lol

may sakit pa ko non

grabe noh

anyway

enough about it

im quite ecstatic napasa ko yung license exam

i was ready to fail pero waw

and btw glorietta 3 and 4 are the best

hehe

never ko na appreciate since always manning ako since 2017 sa ayala malls greenbelt and glorietta

di ko alam ano na mangyari sakin

sira yung circadian rhythm ko huhuhuhu

ilang weeks na kong zombie

100 years na

since 2009

nag move out ako dorm na sa college di nakakatulog

hay

sleep is life pa naman

sana naman maging maayos na

tipidera pa kasi sobrang takot ako walang allowance

tapos may client na nag offer nanaman nang job

tama na pls

sobrang dami na kong nakilala this year tbh na gusto ako ihire

eh

dream ko lang naman magkastore na street vibes hay hay buhay

walang pondo

my fashion designer dreams died

but i still doodle.

dunno about ma though

mediyo mahal

hirap na magaral pag nagtatrabaho ka na

unless kaya mo ibalance

ok thanks bye

sorry for the rant

im so tired the whole motherfucking year

met tons of people

spoke

i hope i get my voice heard

this time

up to the next years

Jammed.

Often I feel destined to play an exciting gig or instrument

Only to fulfill the novel idea of me as a gangster rockista full of wit and clamor

I used to read stories about a girl finding her own way with the world

Playing drums , pulsing to the beat of her heart .

Then again, fiction and reality collide to remind us how life is worth keeping

One only needs to see the truth in the right eyes , long live the past for the present and future are both here.

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Happy lace

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February is love 

I’ve suddenly decided its time to make changes and keep things going by letting go of past mistakes and agendas like

Regretting something you did

On how and why:              today is a gift, keep it as a blessing and be grateful for the good that happens because you never know when may be your last days here on earth . .

Entertaining anxious thoughts

On how and why:          Disorders like anxiety or insomnia vastly apprehends our inner consciousness / keep in mind that some things like bad days or hourly nightmares dont last very long ;

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A New Beginning Awaits You !

(magic magic, love lots) ++

– The Fire Must Keep Going ,

Love .

Soul❤

SOS

 

Why letting go is easier said than going through some reprised stages

  1. People cannot feel the capacity of your pain.
  2. Time on your part has been disarranged and mostly, running on a straight continuum.
  3. One can only manage to let go by forgetting.
  4. Memories can be replaced like water.
  5. Talent is often underrated. Skill has to match the present circumstances.
  6. Years are like a grain of sand. In the end, it is not the years in your life that count, but the life in your years.
  7. The stars realign your path. The two most important days in your life are the day you were born and the day you find out why.
  8. Be the best you can be each passing day.

It is never too late to be yourself over and over again, you are never too old or too young to chase your dreams or map your goals

http://tinybuddha.com/blog/40-ways-to-let-go-and-feel-less-pain/

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