Rich in God.

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2019 – so lately i have been feeling so much noise, but have keep my inner spirit clean from the noiselessness of the world i have, cut my ties from people who barely cared 

I rarely feel ice nowadays but am clinging onto my icebreak sale

Lately there has been so much grievance over my sales life that my content mainly gravitated

Towards the bullshit of it all , if you know what I mean: so maybe I lost sum readers but

Will keep the fight to make this blog bloom 💖

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In all fairness and honesty

I get easily distracted by happenings like steel feelings moaning over me

Like um

Curbing me to chill ya know

If I got the life , meaning the money I’d go for a bad boy who only wants me and is good at tech and shit and knows his goals really well,

Has philosophy and is unafraid to fight for his dream and loved ones

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Recently I have philosophized how working in a nutshell is hard and will and can make you go nuts

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Speak of the devil my workmates in Ortigas were all very lovely with their circus piggery attitude and their high regard for illuminati and their lovely boss who calls his team mate “stupid”

Never have I ever cried so hard in this crappy dinosaur restaurant eating paella like shit and ordering a Bicol express Filipino food worth a diamond care of remembering my former boss

I grow so fond

Of

Then

I realised he doesn’t give a damn about me anymore

Since all he thinks

Is im this damsel pabebe alienated family heavy emo girl na nagyayabang mag Atenista #char

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So what kung wala akong pamilya jowa kaibigan best pren or like normal na buhay

 

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Natuklasan ko na maigi nang tumira muna magisa para makilala lalo ang sarili

Like u know im super duper proud

I navigated Taiwan, the suburbs and the city itself all on my own at my early 20s

At 22 I was a variety of obesed culture shock edition where my main shelter was Eslite bookstore

24 hours ito and tambayan ko lagi

Tapos I always buy them german beers and roam around like a lost girl

Super saya maging malaya

Minsan wish ko nagkajowa ako pero ok lang kasi inggitera ako super haha

I have confessed feelings for two guys sa alveo not worthy of me este di sila guwapo and all pero mabait

Kaso lang marealise ko na di ko dapat yun ginawa kasi wala naman ako nun sa sarili kakalungkot na ginawa ko yun pero diba we always grow naman to become better versions of ourselves

Basta this 2019 pagpapasensiyahan ko na may attachments pa ko sa nakaraan, na di ako makapag aral nang fashion or writing or german

Na kahit na lola na tingin sakin never ako mag padala lagi sa mga tanders na yan

Cool kid parin tapos swag queen , sasaya parin ako sa pain ko

At naniniwala ako sa mga taong di ako nalimutan at parati akong tinutulungan

I have no time frame actually

Sunod lang ako sa galaw nang mundo

Kahit emotionally abused kid ako and adolescent noon gusto ko kind magara sikat jk magaling and graceful lady naman ako ngayon sa adulthood ko.

Ayoko ma mmk story ko

Pero someday bay may balak ako sana to write an autobiography: a memoir

Sakin lang sapat na na nakita ko yung dalawang may crush sakin sa college nun nung 2017 and 2018

Lam ko may jowa naman sila kaya oks lang

Never assuming

Be graceful and grateful

Sawa na rin ako mag muni muni

Tuloy lang ang segunda mano

Yung orasan palage lang yan nandiyan

Basta one step closer sa pangarap

Kahit anung hirap may ginhawa din

Proud of u Sherry

My greatest ambition

Is to be happy

😇💙👆many thanks readers from all over the world: rome was not built in a day or two , it was built with wings grit and determination

Never give up

Dami mo pa challenges she

Wish ko sana magka anak sa near future, have my clothing store and protection palagi kay Lord

At patawarin niya ko sa lahat nang hurt ko, kasi mahirap walang nakikitang constant eh .

Nalearn ko na di ako maghahanap nang any relationship sa coworkers ko-at never be manipulated by anything.

Saludo ako sa mga mamamayang naniniwala pa at naaalala pa ko

With love always and fearlessness

Stay kind, be golden face the present

Cold.

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dear loveds thanks for always being there for me even though im a perfectly flawed and imperfect being that keeps on changing and spinning around like crazy wherein i have zero friends and fucks to give this fuckin new year since sometimes when i do become alone which is all the time i feel so lonely but i catch myself and always count my blessing

I think at 26 i have grown enough adulthood swag that the swag lowd have mercy on me and my hatred on : lloyd cervantes, hazel dee and jeoff racelis. They hurt me too much like hell

I miss alveo and their culture to the point i wasn’t culture shocked at all

I fear change the most but that is all we always need to move forward

I have come freed from the motherfuckin world

I miss being 22

I miss being thrown to the depths of Taiwan

Not knowing a thing about the universe or the world itself

Just leaving the world of the academe without much merit or recognition

Was truly, deeply hellish

but then again we are the choices that we make.

Last year was a sitch

i can’t believe i got hired like cray 2 days after my birthday

when nobody came and i spent a dime tryna think i could have fun

I will always miss my boss in alveo

The only boss

Next to dior

i know my blog is hoarish but pls bear with me

i have hurt myself Too deeply last year

am quite afraid

But the new will always be new

And we

Shall

Always

Have

Time

To

Breathe

…no yosi pls sherry

Tama na sa mga taong nakaraan.

Btw facebook stopped me from liking posts again…

more like blocked me.

 

…God knows everything.

joy

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why it pays to be kind humble and smart 

nowadays ive been on the hunt for genuine happiness. facebook has been such a joy giver all the pages or blogs per se i follow post some ridiculous on point (pardon the jargon) shit that totally meshes well or like, um relates well in my life, speaking of, I keep ordering mcdonalds delivery food, note the double iced coffee for my caffeine boost and extra virgin vanilla jk lawl ive been dealing heavy stuff lately. I mean my blog means the world to me as it is my baby. It really makes me happy someone, you probably don’t know, but a simple like can make my day bloom.

It has been 35 days since I resigned. I have gone through emotional whirlwinds I cannot myself comprehend. Done shit as an agent I couldn’t fuckin compromise as it goes against my logic and identity… Things such as

1 begging clients in chinese, translating chinese, helping my teammates …former,speak in chinese hilariously

2 chasing richies

3 giving my card and having small talk la la

4 enjoying the fuck out of my job

… i feel like my life died a bit when i left sales

Good thing, Ms J …lets just call her that, came to my rescue last September 4 like omg I was getting bully vibes from my teammates but nonetheless, Karma is there to teach us humility and patience,

So I met this lady who gave me her card.

I got deep, deep salute to her as she is the Girl Boss I always always will follow and admire …hello Dior, my first official girl boss.

Also Ms Mary Chinjen, shout out to you,

I hope you both will make my journey worthwhile and teach me lessons worth more than a golden minefield.

To my Taiwan experience, goodbye. Also, Alveo. Good bye.

Love you all.

xx Sher 2018

pls dont be scared

keep the faith

the rest will follow

empress

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so i totally like today

whilst it still

is 11:54,i miss LA and the good vibes around there .

yeah nobody cares

im unemployed

i often try

but when do i stop

my patience eventually runs

out

neither does my career shift

it has been hard

i pretend it is all happy

post nice shit on fb

live my legacy as an eagle

but wounds hurt

and my heart dies day by day

emo much but ey

so much people hurt me

should i still

expect

or run away

…cheers from my enemies

nonchalance

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so i have secretly accepted that there are many many things places people situations pain suffering etc in the world i cannot change

i cannot change where i come from

i cannot change the past

i cannot

undo forget all the reality that is happening

and the people around me

but what i can change is myself

my regrowth

my beginning

my disposition in life

apparently

my metamorphosis

tut mer leid

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dearest people of wordpress

i have decided to stop updating my ig stories

nobody follows me on ig anyway *wink

and um i can probably spend more time reading the political plight of our world today

fyi in high school i was awarded best reader

i read a lot in elementary and high school but college came

and i never knew i would have to be a lazy reader

muaha

now as an adult im really terrifyingly lazy to pick up a book and finish it

sorry for bookworms

im just really such a skimmer

tss

haha

anyway

awhile ago

i signed a new contract

lol akala mo record label ang dating amp

ahaha

new contract like um towards a new …

job ?

am actually not afraid to get kicked out of ortigas

would probably be sad to leave royalton imperium and maven

but um

got to git extra cash ya know

im like 26 and life has not been very good since 22

when I was 21 I was hot sexy and chix

like got A’s from Laurel Fantauzzo (is this the correct spelling)

class

and then fully realized

I was a born writer.

the story, THIS

journey

will never end

until I get a gist of the write path

haha

btw i hate being racisized

or being called quiet

i was surprised my current boss always shhs the hell outta me

yesterday was the day that felt 100 years

i had like 15 guests headcount

sa ayala sobra dami na yun noh

sa ortigas di nila kinacount per head

so accredited lang is

8 guests

lol

pero ya know

first time ako sinabihan nang manager ko na “good job for today !”

in this professional text

i was like, nyaha

finally

pinuri din

lol

i miss my no. 1 boss in the world

you know him

hahahaha

hay anyways away from the awkwardness

i feel like im getting fatter

i miss my german

ya know

like um

libangan ko sa buhay is timezone

and magaling talaga ko, mag hoard

mag shopping ganun

like talaga choosy ako chos

hahaha

magaling

namiss ko na nga mag ukay sa baguio

hayst

bumili ako relo kanina longines

tama ba spelling ahaha

so anyway im starting to drift by

sana matupad lahat ng pangarap ko

and first time ko nakita si lloyd cervantes

nakasmile

kahapon

WAW

usually binabara ako nun huhu

pero oks lang

IBA parin ian casem vertex

pero tapos na un

diba???

move on na sherry

hahaha

imba

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by the way

nabasa ko pala

 

dapat no. 1 self promoter mo is you daw

dgaf daw sa iba

pake mu tingin nila sayu

lalo na mga tsismis na yan

 

ayy di naman totoo

 

ahahah

tapos

 

sabi sa youtube (sorry being an agent makes me dumber than usual haha)

dapat inaaccept rejections daw

 

lalo na sa sales

o diba ms alveo won that sa answer niya

ahaha

amp

lel

Woke up like

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These days I have no idea what is going on. All we know is nothing is permanent. And we can lose it at anytime. Growing up has me binded to my parents rigour. The point, I grew up at 21. At eighteen I yearned to be like the ideal United States chick – away from my parental and living by myself with some cash earned. If only I knew college ed won’t suffice to say, get you to where you wanted to be, then must I not keep the education and worked outside instead.

The gist is, my mother has been killing me. She sent me to a “famous” psychologist named Agnes Bueno.

This person told me, suicide is legal.

I was like, wtf.

She said, “So far, nobody has died on me.”

I was like, deep in my head, am I gonna be the first???

I was shookt how she said I have no problem. And asked me why I was there. I was like, well my mother told me to come here.

Really, parents are a children’s source of wealth in this world.

No matter how successful you are, if you aren’t the least bit accepted, honored, respected, cherished more so, acknowledged and appreciated.

That success is just an illusion.

I found this website early this afternoon.

https://www.myhorridparent.com/classes/

At a young age, these have truly made an impact on me since I grew up shy and very timid.

I always played the piano and studied in school.

Looking further than that, I guess recently I was glad that a client I got from Greenhills agreed to go to our club event in Churchill.

Something about an Investors Night

I was hoping I can make it up for not being able to go to the sales rally/ mid-year awards tomorrow since I got really sick.

Not only am I sad about my mom, I just know I simply cannot change other people.

The saying goes, you want to change the world, but you can’t even change yourself.

Lately I have been dismissive and assertive.

Why?

I realized I don’t have any friends.

All my life Mom controlled it.

To the section I had in class down to my course in college.

Down to deciding whether to stay with my current employer in Taiwan.

Anyway, regarding people

Just recently my boss got mad at me for not being “productive” aka he disliked me waking up at 4am and told me that I wasn’t working enough.

It’s kinda sad I already hate my teammates.

After a month of putting up with their shallow shady jokes that are awful, and their backstabbing persona.

So yeah, people can be a pain.

What is even worse is when you saw the good in them,

But never will they really see the value in you.

I got 104 Facebook friends and I am not ashamed.

17 Instagram followers for god-knows-what.

And thankfully, 87 Followers in wordpress.

I was really sad I had to unfriend some people.

But what made me sadder is that they dont care.

At the very least, you can always have a new life elsewhere if you aren’t happy.

You know, it really is different here in Ortigas and Company.

I miss Alveo.

Esp the bosses.

Sana makalimutan ko rin kayo

Btw Timots I thought you were nice

Sometimes ayoko na mag reveal ng story or info sa mga tao

Kahit kailan di nila nakikita effort mo

Magpakatibay ka nalang kasi walang lalaban para sayo

Here is to being wealthy, sick-free and financially capable 💎

!S

Hello

Welcome to BS Crush It.

This is the crash course to when you learn to DGAF when a) unexpected incidents happen b) the world is probably ending now c) your mom incessantly mocks and derrogates you again like when you were a teenager d) you are just simply killin it

With kindness, surely. Most def.

Well well, at the course of my life. I simply am me.

I have no words for the pain I suffered since I read something that pain is actually weakness leaving the body.

Aint that true ?

!!!

I mean hellya I totes forgot my high school “friends” and in college I was a bookish loner but ya know.

We must never forget the memories that struck us deep within of who we really are.

Now I am stuck in the real world. And by real world I don’t mean high school.

To begin with I was surprised at elementary and high school, years I dare not touch,

I was never bullied in school

Probably my second life gave me that secret power to yield those throat ass*s but um

Never really had a lingering memory or like a foreshadowing of the past

That somebody nearly killed me or what

Maybe just in china when I was 13 well just turned 13 and there was a brother to brother bullying like they were two brothers shooking the navel off me.

Geez

Anyway I have nothing to say to my blog.

Ya know

Like I tried to be a good girl for most of my life.

My parents even sent me to rehab like they aren’t supposed to be there right now.

 

All I can say is that when people fight you and get mad at you in an overrated sense (hello mudra)

Just simply. Ignore.

You can never demand respect anyway but you can respect yourself enough to walk away from the situation.

Amirite?

 

When I was around 19 navigating my angst tough aging teenage years I was pretty much at the stage where I really was struggling with my art and music and all those dreamy things I wish I could relive.

I often asked why my own mother was always so tough on me.

She never could appreciate or acknowledge anything nice out of me.

Quite the tiger mom really.

And having three brothers next to me feels like I am supposed. And yes insistently, live this life like some pretty exclusive lotus flower.

 

I simply wish I will meet more wonderful people along the way to guide me and help me become who I am.

I will always be grateful for Dior Mommy, Robert Daddy, Gable, Aunty Curdy, Grace the Teaching Assistant, Sylvia my Camp Counselor Teammate, and of course my greatest boss Gad. Hello Boss. Haha. I think you’re not reading this. Psh.

Anyway I am hella Happy I can Be Hella from Thor.

Indestructible.

So far I blocked all Alveo peeps.

They really fuel my heart with so much tears. The irony.

I really wish I can just start over and not remember all the time I spent.

But I guess they don’t really remember me or like say care about my own feelings.

In Alveo though I will never ever forget Sir Gerry B. Haha

And Boss Norman Lim

Ian Casem our Area Sales Director.

And my forever beloved Boss Gad.

 

These days I just came to happy lemon, even spelled out my name S-H-E-R-R-Y. And then they printed out “cherry ” yet again.

Oh my did I react and squabbled.

Haha

Why is this name haunting me?????

To the brink 7$ I am getting my comm late September.

So thats like debts to the living for now.

Yikey.

Ohwells I will manage.

What a crazy world.

I still feel like a teenager though.

Wheres my hoodie. My starbucks. My rollercoaster. My zombie folks. My favourite dream. My castle.

– is the world really ending?