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Barely felt summer 2018

Highlights

I threw a party and 4 people came

I drank Sangria

I got sick

Entirely april was full of sick

Music is my first love

I am being

Humble

I love my family

My boss

My teammates

The people who truly encouraged

Me

To be

Simply

Strong

Kind

Reliable

Responsible

Thats it.

Though some days

I get the usual

Anxiety

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Summer

Hello world

Sherry here

I always wished I can be as pretty as Nam from that Thai movie

Beauty is on the inside

Our life will not be short if we fill it with meaningful moments

And live it

I also read a book

Humility is seeing less of ourselves and more about

Others,

It is recognizing that we as human beings

Begin to understand others

And put them on our shoe

That even though

they ignore us on our b-day,

Berate us on somebody they like

Fight us like we did something wrong,

We still stand up

Anybody out there left behind,

I will hold your hand

Loves and light

Sherry mae chan 💘👊💞💜

Let it happen

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Lates im currently worried

 

about my status at work

 

Like awks

 

Tatagal ba ko sa trabaho

 

Or bye bye na sa march??

 

I so wanna earn money

and live and learn :

Bisaya

German

Travel and surf

 

Maybe download Tinder jwk

So maybe life aint what we planned out ya know

But there will be people out there to plant seeds

 

Of hope

 

And inspire us to become who we are meant to be,

 

So always learn.

Despite the pain

Choose your people.

Never give up on life

 

Past is past

 

Everything and the rest

 

just goes round.

God is a miracle.

Here are the things that currently run across my mind

Baguio God Sales Limit.

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Its getting late and its been hours since I have tried to upload my baguio street photography stash but the internet doesnt seem to cooperate

 

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Ive since realised you can always make your life better

 

Ie. if you dont fit in with your job or the people there uninspire you go search a new one !!

eight hours ago you were a different person

NOW you can always always change your life for the better.

 

Seriously like im sitting right now in a coffee shop with fleas buzzing around me and it annoys the fuck out of me but for the sake of wifi

 

Im staying

See the bigger picture

Why do we work

 

Because we need to earn money to fuel our dreams.

 

There always is a cause and effect

 

Everything that happens to us have consequences that stems from the root of our action

 

If you believe in mind over matter,

then

All the bad luck coming or whatever shitty days you might have are nothing but water

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So relating to water,

I’ve recently watched Shape of Water and it was incredible.

 

Im so sorry if the tone of this narrative is irritable (said previously im staying at a crappy coffee shop writing this piece profusely )

~

 

Lates ive been frantic about the meaning of life,

Like searching for your Truest self.

Examples might be going back to writing, getting runs from the gym or say, losing yourself over something ot someone in order to find yourself paradoxically in a way

 

I mean, ive been on this sales job since March of 2017 and it has been killing my insides so deeply that I have never imagined doing this sort of job and talking to these many people or hearing retorts that may be rhetorical or heavily idiotic to put it

Im so sorry im blogging my private thoughts on the internet

 

But lately ive been so sad im afraid depression might rain on me again like it did last 2013 when my tooth got chipped over a zombie run

 

Um or that horrid times abroad where I came and went for five months vying over a job title that meets the meager salary of a “yaya” in the Philippines aka Teaching assistant at a preschool or TA.

See, if I wrote over these experiences like going door to door in Mandarin cram schools looking for a job at 22, to finding one and getting paid your first summer camp salary at 23 and getting admitted to a real world job at 22 not from your current country

After getting denied from previous publishing industries locally postgrad I had to find my first ever real world job abroad

Many things happened to me alone in another country,

Like eating strange cuisine or talking to so many random strangers or looking onto coffee shops like snowglobes and wondering where my friends and family at

Or crying because my list of dreams in college got ruined because I dont have the support or financial capacity to fund it all like shit

So you see, the real world is tough and the vapidity of it all is self absorbing engrossment of capitalism and lack of education amongst peers around you who never fully knew the importance or grace of academic society, aka getting schooled.

When I entered sales I was frenetic and lost to the point of breaking my limits like crying since January or losing it whenever those “paasa” clients seem to hit it like crazy

But never actually buying into the idea of investment.

I never thought I would enter a wild world of drinking, cold calls and smoke everywhere like cray

Not that I hate it, I mean Ive always had ideals

But now they’ve been quite broken

From the roots of money and pain, the causes of unemployment and the search of another and the self in the ruthless world of changing economies and titles and global warming and months to the future and panic,

Ive had loads of doubts and fears to the point 2017 both terrified me and made me a stronger woman amidst the fall of literal and metaphysical worlds.

I have got many stories to tell and my grammar has been rusty since im not literally around academics,

But I promise you readers and 60 meager followers I will read to the best of success that I can.

And I will write with passion and wit and humour and pain and happiness to the limits of my existence.

Heres my prayer to each and everyone to be invincible, to follow your dream and to not let anyone have power over you, choose to love others, always be kind because love is kind.

Love is and always will be kind.

Saying thanks

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I rarely find the time to work out lately so im catching it up with some shopping haha. I still cant feel the moment when 2017 is ending. I had a lot of ups and downs this year that made me teary eyed but grateful. Also I met some people with beautiful souls and got some friends whom I think will never leave me. Theres nothing quite left to say either when you have 411 likes and 43 follows just in a years time. I miss LA and travelling in general. Hope to go on a trip soon by myself. Tomorrow I go to the woods with my friend Anna. I hope our trip would be fun. I miss writing letters in Japanese too to my pen pal. Haha. So many things you missed out doing because you were working the iron cage. So anyway catch ya later. Thanks for reading. You are wonderful and amazing.

Xoxo,

Sherry