Little star

So lately I panic and sleep for 100 hours and wake up to the reality of this thing called helloworld.

I catch myself most days feeling so hype up in anxiety aka anxiettack that I feel like nobody in my family cares that sick girl is actually here in their house thats not a house. Hello?

All I manage is drink the messy pills doctor says I drink, as I reminisce the times I had back then in Taipei I had to drink and buy those Chinese-Japanese Seirogan pills

And actually bomb on someones house after eating politely and having easy conversations with them

as I excuse myself

It hasn’t always been this way,

Barely do I have allergic reactions, viruses or whatever food inclined problems

But why is this happening now?

After I spent awhile Viber blasting people to invite to our event on Sunday

As I pity my boss that I am such a sick girl who always seem to have problems

Like,

When will my life get better

When will I have friends

Actually, real people to talk to

Those people who actually, will listen

How long does it take for me to wait?

 

Wake up,

 

Wheres home and yuh, gbye past.

#ToPeopleWhoUsedMe

#ToPeopleWhoJudgedMe

#ToPeopleWhoNeverCared

Lastly, adopting Haley Phams words.

If you dont like the people in your class, talk to the teacher.

Yups, baby girl

 

Thats what I do.

Now where is my 100B

Biotch

 

To the guy (are you a guy) who never will fully understand how much he/she hurt me

Auf wiedersehen you yes YOU

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Aqua Is Lyfer.

Hello world,

I am sorry for showing y’all photos of my face every time I post here. Hahaha. It’s just that these days I need that oomph or strength to get on with what is happening like it’s starting to get cold or something like my world is living dead on rooted plants when the seeds I’ve sown were nothing but carved ends

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So anyway I am turning a year older in exactly a month! Happy birthday to me! Felt like all this sales job has given me confidence, wit and staying classy. I realised there are people we think we like but don’t really like us.

Also realised Facebook is complete bullshit.

And how living in the real world preached me to be brave, to have a stance and to stand amongst kindred souls instead of harmful gossipy self-preachy anarchists

So anyway cheers to my last seven days at work

I am so glad I met such beautiful souls like the managers

Haha

I am glad despite all the pain I carried with this one guy, I realised he is not someone I should interfere with

After all this is my one and only life

It’s more of your loss

Leaving me after I said sorry FIRST

Regarding the universe I hope they protect me everyday

There were many, many, many close chances I could have been able to close a sale

But Lord God in heaven

If this job is not for me

I will respectfully quit with dignity

Oh and regarding Facebook

I unblocked all the people I blocked before

Safer to set them free

Go Sherry win the fight

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Ballerina

Oasis is the new art .

Pass the time i used to chill and stare at artworks and image or porcelain figurines such as Disney prinesses in exotic forms and costume or lady killers like harley quinn or dance sculptures that twirl and make u go ‘oomph .

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So lately there has been this beguiling notion on my part like will i still find my best friend, or why does our beagle seem to be too inattentive in his dog years

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Happy lace

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February is love 

I’ve suddenly decided its time to make changes and keep things going by letting go of past mistakes and agendas like

Regretting something you did

On how and why:              today is a gift, keep it as a blessing and be grateful for the good that happens because you never know when may be your last days here on earth . .

Entertaining anxious thoughts

On how and why:          Disorders like anxiety or insomnia vastly apprehends our inner consciousness / keep in mind that some things like bad days or hourly nightmares dont last very long ;

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A New Beginning Awaits You !

(magic magic, love lots) ++

– The Fire Must Keep Going ,

Love .

Soul❤

Dance Dance.

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That moment when all is lost : this may leave us hanging or down for unanswerable questions on our heads. Trouble is, while we fish for answers

Some rather think out of necessity for the situation than truly give the truth of the matter at hand- when this happens More likely

Our expectations exceed our greatest chance on fate, as the stars dance

May the continents of the universe continue to gather for the good of many. Love, hope and peace – may the light and beauty of this Earth be always upon you no matter the situation is.