Rich in God.

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2019 – so lately i have been feeling so much noise, but have keep my inner spirit clean from the noiselessness of the world i have, cut my ties from people who barely cared 

I rarely feel ice nowadays but am clinging onto my icebreak sale

Lately there has been so much grievance over my sales life that my content mainly gravitated

Towards the bullshit of it all , if you know what I mean: so maybe I lost sum readers but

Will keep the fight to make this blog bloom 💖

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In all fairness and honesty

I get easily distracted by happenings like steel feelings moaning over me

Like um

Curbing me to chill ya know

If I got the life , meaning the money I’d go for a bad boy who only wants me and is good at tech and shit and knows his goals really well,

Has philosophy and is unafraid to fight for his dream and loved ones

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Recently I have philosophized how working in a nutshell is hard and will and can make you go nuts

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Speak of the devil my workmates in Ortigas were all very lovely with their circus piggery attitude and their high regard for illuminati and their lovely boss who calls his team mate “stupid”

Never have I ever cried so hard in this crappy dinosaur restaurant eating paella like shit and ordering a Bicol express Filipino food worth a diamond care of remembering my former boss

I grow so fond

Of

Then

I realised he doesn’t give a damn about me anymore

Since all he thinks

Is im this damsel pabebe alienated family heavy emo girl na nagyayabang mag Atenista #char

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So what kung wala akong pamilya jowa kaibigan best pren or like normal na buhay

 

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Natuklasan ko na maigi nang tumira muna magisa para makilala lalo ang sarili

Like u know im super duper proud

I navigated Taiwan, the suburbs and the city itself all on my own at my early 20s

At 22 I was a variety of obesed culture shock edition where my main shelter was Eslite bookstore

24 hours ito and tambayan ko lagi

Tapos I always buy them german beers and roam around like a lost girl

Super saya maging malaya

Minsan wish ko nagkajowa ako pero ok lang kasi inggitera ako super haha

I have confessed feelings for two guys sa alveo not worthy of me este di sila guwapo and all pero mabait

Kaso lang marealise ko na di ko dapat yun ginawa kasi wala naman ako nun sa sarili kakalungkot na ginawa ko yun pero diba we always grow naman to become better versions of ourselves

Basta this 2019 pagpapasensiyahan ko na may attachments pa ko sa nakaraan, na di ako makapag aral nang fashion or writing or german

Na kahit na lola na tingin sakin never ako mag padala lagi sa mga tanders na yan

Cool kid parin tapos swag queen , sasaya parin ako sa pain ko

At naniniwala ako sa mga taong di ako nalimutan at parati akong tinutulungan

I have no time frame actually

Sunod lang ako sa galaw nang mundo

Kahit emotionally abused kid ako and adolescent noon gusto ko kind magara sikat jk magaling and graceful lady naman ako ngayon sa adulthood ko.

Ayoko ma mmk story ko

Pero someday bay may balak ako sana to write an autobiography: a memoir

Sakin lang sapat na na nakita ko yung dalawang may crush sakin sa college nun nung 2017 and 2018

Lam ko may jowa naman sila kaya oks lang

Never assuming

Be graceful and grateful

Sawa na rin ako mag muni muni

Tuloy lang ang segunda mano

Yung orasan palage lang yan nandiyan

Basta one step closer sa pangarap

Kahit anung hirap may ginhawa din

Proud of u Sherry

My greatest ambition

Is to be happy

😇💙👆many thanks readers from all over the world: rome was not built in a day or two , it was built with wings grit and determination

Never give up

Dami mo pa challenges she

Wish ko sana magka anak sa near future, have my clothing store and protection palagi kay Lord

At patawarin niya ko sa lahat nang hurt ko, kasi mahirap walang nakikitang constant eh .

Nalearn ko na di ako maghahanap nang any relationship sa coworkers ko-at never be manipulated by anything.

Saludo ako sa mga mamamayang naniniwala pa at naaalala pa ko

With love always and fearlessness

Stay kind, be golden face the present

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Whatever happened to chivalry, to people who are actually, decent and kind

To people who actually, look good and make u feel good,

To people who actually, respect that you are straight af

That you dont apparently like lgbt peers but respect them.

To people who dont have a fam

But get over life like its their last laugh

Ya know

Where are those people

Huh

IDFC.

Hey loves.

I know most of you have lives, lives meaning you got friends, a family more or less, a good home, a stable income, or a committed partner.

Times have been changing and lately, I just laugh off my depression and anxiety since the world is too cruel to be true.

But other times, I gain inspiration from other people I observe from he streets, people who are homeless, clothes and all, no food to eat.

Those who just lay in the streets, while watching expensive luxurious black friday hauls on Youtube and being hella scared off my future.

Me ready to die anytime soon, 26 and partyless friendless alone and living broke as hell.

Me.

Yup.

I just wanna have decent friends who share my emotional fields, battles, common ground.

Those who are willing to fight for me as I am for them.

Those who prioritize the time we spent.

People who are, authentic.

Well, to normalize, extraordinary but normal, people.

I may not know how to be one, as my heart turned cold last June 2018 when my work with Ayala Land disappeared.

I decided to blew things off by deciding for myself and by myself, with a blessing from my entrepreneur uncle, none so from my so called biological rents.

As I write this worrying about everything, I pray I can have the heart to start all over again.

To the people reading this, bless you more and have a great last days of November.

Love you all.

Xx sherr

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why it pays to be kind humble and smart 

nowadays ive been on the hunt for genuine happiness. facebook has been such a joy giver all the pages or blogs per se i follow post some ridiculous on point (pardon the jargon) shit that totally meshes well or like, um relates well in my life, speaking of, I keep ordering mcdonalds delivery food, note the double iced coffee for my caffeine boost and extra virgin vanilla jk lawl ive been dealing heavy stuff lately. I mean my blog means the world to me as it is my baby. It really makes me happy someone, you probably don’t know, but a simple like can make my day bloom.

It has been 35 days since I resigned. I have gone through emotional whirlwinds I cannot myself comprehend. Done shit as an agent I couldn’t fuckin compromise as it goes against my logic and identity… Things such as

1 begging clients in chinese, translating chinese, helping my teammates …former,speak in chinese hilariously

2 chasing richies

3 giving my card and having small talk la la

4 enjoying the fuck out of my job

… i feel like my life died a bit when i left sales

Good thing, Ms J …lets just call her that, came to my rescue last September 4 like omg I was getting bully vibes from my teammates but nonetheless, Karma is there to teach us humility and patience,

So I met this lady who gave me her card.

I got deep, deep salute to her as she is the Girl Boss I always always will follow and admire …hello Dior, my first official girl boss.

Also Ms Mary Chinjen, shout out to you,

I hope you both will make my journey worthwhile and teach me lessons worth more than a golden minefield.

To my Taiwan experience, goodbye. Also, Alveo. Good bye.

Love you all.

xx Sher 2018

pls dont be scared

keep the faith

the rest will follow

eastside

 

dear everyone

ive been trying real hard to stay adrift. most days i feel somewhat blank and unspoken. i talk to strangers i forget. but i never remember not to be kind. thank you for the kind souls ive met in the year. the days may be most unpleasant but the comeback overrides the setbacks

i know one day will come

that i rise

thank you for letting me speak to my one and only college crush

and also for all the beauty and art i always see and appreciate

day by day

may all the glory be to god

he is the only healer giver protector and sole refuge

he is our strength

thank you

much love.

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being the first born in the family of four and the eldest of three brothers, i found it quite difficult to navigate society and make sense of the political era before me. family was a question of trust and obedience. i remember in college i often go to our resident psychologist to speak my mind off. shut between worlds i only found my safe identity inside the school. dorming was a blessing and joy to someone so young and fragile, lost and meaningless. it was during third year, junior year that i made sense about academics when core subjects kicked in. i will never ever forget the times i had to edit videos for class during freshman and sophomore year, the time they had a paintball stand inside the school facility and i chickened out joining. the time i joined cads twice and got rejected. the time i got accepted to blue symphony. i passed their test or whatever. i will never forget the times i had to wait long by the waiting shed, as the clouds turn grey and my 9pm classes of crime fic was doubtful and dreary

or that time i gave my all in everything but only get a D in Math 19 or a D in Accounting10, or failing Accounting 30 or whatever that subject is next to the first Accounting subject.

i miss college so much i went there last may to get a breather.

i was badly wounded somebody blocked me just for saying good bye

i went then to our school to find refuge

best thing ever

i miss you bad ateneo

please come home for me

xoxo

sherr

Serendipity

It All Becomes Well

Like a beautiful tear drop, everything falls and disappears. Leaves, as something ephemeral and melancholy, change their colors by its season. Age makes one gracious and fair, more intelligent, full of wise counsel. Nothing earthly is assured, for all things have their timing.

I once read from this quote:

True happiness comes from a deep sense of confidence that your life is your own and that you can be happy without the need to comply with other people’s standards.

In so far, society has a pocketful of ideals and comparisons to lure the everyday person– from expectations of beauty, status, career, wealth, events and other worldly occupations. Many are left bewildered which product to choose, media to follow, advise to adhere on.

The inner self is often overlooked. The mass populace always gives illusions on whatever goes on outside in society. Few recognize their self-worth, looking to others for approval and distinction. Most attach themselves to people, thinking it will gain them more confidence.

What does it mean when you are lost? It means, you can only find values within yourself. It means, you are searching towards something. It means, you stand by your side and walk this path to your own living. In correspondence to your well-being, spirituality, emotional health and perhaps, financial independence.

Looking inwards is a difficult task. At one point in life one can find himself on a crossroad, where he has to make either the worst or the biggest decision of his life to carry on. Yes, he is alone. And yes, there will be many more trials in navigating what is to come. But as one looks on, travels the road and finds success while maintaining one’s values, one’s journey, then won’t it become an interesting, truly beautiful path?

In this world of pain and sorrow, it is difficult to uphold a certain form of discipline in one’s character, thoughts and actions. Many fight with the intention to uphold one’s pride. A number looks on, hoping to become respected.

As circumstances good or bad, come and go, leaves us in pieces or rather, change us, what matters in the end is how we react on our nature. Time has passed and left us with scars, more maturity, wisdom and integrity.

For all the bad, please look into the good. You are not your circumstances. Mostly, you are not where you are from, or where you are born. It doesn’t matter. As long as you have values, you will go far. Abandon the doubts and self-pity, walk this life with all strength and might. See how your character and the good you uphold each day will make you far. Do not lean on the past. Smile, live in the present and have faith in all good things yet to come.