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Hey loves!

thank you all

so much

105 follows,

wow im flanked.

I try pretending each day

to just focus on myself

my space

my loves

but you know

its really, really hard

Life is a drama

A dog eat dog world

The survival of the fittest

Very darwinian right

Haha oh my,

I got two interviews

tomorrow

and on Thurs

Been invisible at work

Di na ko pumapasok since

Nag hawaii so called boss ko

 

Haaaaaay I dont want to rant pero sobrang confusing

 

 

Napakagrateful ko though.

Thanks to Alveo.

I got too many job offers at 26

Tryna be an adult

It resurfaces

but that sad kid in me

is still there.

I cut connections off my mom

Likewise my family.

It was all too much.

I cant remember the last time I was really happy

The only people kept me going were the bosses in Ayala

It felt all too much like a dream

I wish I never left

But nobody was there to take me in for a double job or extra cash

Wala rin mangutangan

Ayoko naman mangutang.

the Glory

is all up from God.

Lahat ng ginawa ko

tingnan mo lang

kahit malugkot ako sa officemates ko

I got hired out of hard work

Like

two days after my bday this year

alls been a blur.

I am truly confused,

I doubled my sleeping pills.

More confusing is my dad actually wanting me to pursue my “dreams”na raw like hoho srsly

I worked my damned ass of since college ended.

I dunno how to decide

whether to go with the flow ba or,

Lumaban para sa sarili ko.

Kasi di ko na alam anung gagawin.

Wala na kong pasensya

Tagal ng comm ko

Kadiri ang grupo ko

As in ako yung ginagawang crab para lahat sila umangat.

I lost also the guest list last August by a point.

Was never acknowledged really.

Am glad to the people who kept rescuing me out of that division.

So many really

All my heart

Love.

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Aqua Is Lyfer.

Hello world,

I am sorry for showing y’all photos of my face every time I post here. Hahaha. It’s just that these days I need that oomph or strength to get on with what is happening like it’s starting to get cold or something like my world is living dead on rooted plants when the seeds I’ve sown were nothing but carved ends

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So anyway I am turning a year older in exactly a month! Happy birthday to me! Felt like all this sales job has given me confidence, wit and staying classy. I realised there are people we think we like but don’t really like us.

Also realised Facebook is complete bullshit.

And how living in the real world preached me to be brave, to have a stance and to stand amongst kindred souls instead of harmful gossipy self-preachy anarchists

So anyway cheers to my last seven days at work

I am so glad I met such beautiful souls like the managers

Haha

I am glad despite all the pain I carried with this one guy, I realised he is not someone I should interfere with

After all this is my one and only life

It’s more of your loss

Leaving me after I said sorry FIRST

Regarding the universe I hope they protect me everyday

There were many, many, many close chances I could have been able to close a sale

But Lord God in heaven

If this job is not for me

I will respectfully quit with dignity

Oh and regarding Facebook

I unblocked all the people I blocked before

Safer to set them free

Go Sherry win the fight

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