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hey all its raining today in mnl philippines and i recently got out my condo to buy food and shakes, paid 20 to the tric driver whom told me he always noticed me walking by the streets, commenting i walk quite too far from where i was going and im like shutting up since he is a stranger old man and im minding my own business

kidding aside i literally save money by walking so even though plenty times jeepneys motorbikes esp cars beep honk and yap at me, like “DO YOU WANNA DIE”

I still cross the streets and walk.

Tbh abroad you can easily navigate the streets due to pedestrians and walkways,

how i wish in the future there will be a plan to build more walkways in the streets so people wont jaywalk anymore

*sigh

anyhow

i miss working

later on i might try to go out again and go to circuit and pretend i have a social life

i was invited to a free entrance to power mac spotlight and it might be my first time to watch there if ever i do come

hehe

wish me luck

my mom wants me home since i know marami yan papautos sakin

im like no mom im staying here

hahaha

anyway

thanks y’all

been nice and warm

stay alive

oh so cool

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hey all

ive revamped my blog

someone unfollowed

me

but its okay

i became my 111st follower.

some days are so boring

but i always try to be cooler than cool.

to live in the moment

style your illusions

live practically

treasure the little things

find stuff make you happy

here is gone.

hey y’all !! whadup 😊

currently unemployed and my back hurts from losing so much sleep and all the stress that comes with unemployment.

but hey i am coping so far, my room is messy but clean.

i do feel i might fail the exam on friday

but am glad timezone is opening at ayala circuit so yey

not giving a f*ck much to people who dont give a f*ck

wishing i can shop by dover street in nyc

i hope i can always count my blessing no matter how much pain sorrow weight stress anxiety problems i do carry

i got mah back

xx sherr

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don’t give any fox

meganon na patapos na yung taon tapos mapapa…wtf ka sa mga desisyon na ginawa mo. kunwari nalang, paglipat mo sa ibang developer. isa pa doon, yung nalipat ka nga without applying pero sa masamang division ka naman tapos yung A game boss na sobrang kupal at mayabang at may kotse grabe kadeadma sayo mas maganda pa porma mo sakanya noong sales rally, pero nung triny mo lumipat nang grupo grabe ka sermon inabot mo sakanya parang nasalanta nang ompong tas binaha at linipad nang hangin ang tingin doon kasi grabe mag insulto tapos nangingi nabang sa weakness mo na sensitive ka

sinabihan ka pang prinsesa ka ba

oc ka ba

nyak

haha

sabi pa may problema daw ako

kahit saang developer daw ako mapunta

wala raw magbabago

ulol

wala akong na meet sa buhay ko na ang lakas nang loob manlait sakin in person , wish ko sana marecord yun ulet para marinig at makita nang iba for proof

pero for some personal safety state ko nalang nang mas maayos na reason, basic reason bakit ako muna aalis

kasi alam mo

tao ako

di ako checke pang loi

kaya kung may galit ka sa intsik

wag mo ko idamay don

grabe kung maka snob

tapos kakausapin ka lang pasimple na dapat may checke na sa verdant this october

wala na tatalab sa ugali

di mo narin mababalik o mababawi mga sinalita mo

as for this person who chatted me and i added back

i just don’t like what you do to me

i only ride on my own

and if you can’t keep a straight face in public

not much i can say

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you know what i did all i could

this year was the worst but truly worth the risk

jack ma says at your 20s keep making mistakes

you will find your people too

and never let anyone

take your power, abuse you, use you, talk shit to you

especially men

as for ladies who throw shade

and both genders who disrespect and cannot appreciate you

stop being kind to them

cry if you have to.

I cried last night in a resto eating paella as I left the most boring edm party ever

it felt like the gin I drank was PG 13 fresh from college back at eighteen sipping bar drinks

lol

am glad jack ma said to make mistakes

i am only 26

been through a lot

sales has been a killer

i will fight for and come back

to win

ps : thanks lord sa mga taong inisip ko nang bigyan nang regalo sa pasko

konti lang sila

salamat sa mga maginoong mga tunay na lalake

di mga beki na ewan ba

haha

byes!

Currents

dear darling

you are strong

you are great

you have reached 102

followers

though i cant vlog

know netflix

have a credit card

listen to audible

be in parties

be someone

im quite cool

chill

its okay

let the universe

roll

people judge

things that aren’t true

find rest and a home

in the Lord

always be faithful

☺ love

dreamers .

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dearest papa god

okay naman

buhay pa ko

nakakaiyak na 102 follows

na ako sa

wordpress

kahit di ko gaano

trip

buhay ko

buhay pa ko

nagaalala ako parati

sa nakaraan

sa kasalukuyan

sa mga taong sumakit ng loob ko at di na ko

kinausap

iniwan ganun

masaya naman ako

kahit walang pamilya

sanay na

maging magisa

the loner life chose me

diba

said some rough words

on my current boss

di kasi professional ang ugali

mali talaga trato sakin

dapat kasi pag may nakita kang ginto

 

aalagaan mo

 

tapos

sinabi niya pa

may nagsabi daw sakanya

na nag da-drive,

sa commons,

na sabihan ang tauhan mo

na tumingin bago tumawid haha

thats my trademark since berlin days

I literally jaywalk

I don’t care.

It’s not like this is cruel intentions and ryan is just gonna get in there and save reese witherspoon right haha

Di eto titanic

Kaya amp

Pakealam niyo

Do you know months days weeks

na ko di umuuwi sa amin

bakit kasi

di nalang ginawang probinsiya ang Malabon

anu na kaya nangyari sa banyo at kuwarto ko

may maid kami pero di linilinis yung part ko sa bahay

amp yung pinakaluma na ngayung kuwarto ko eh

hahaha chos

i miss my friends but they dont miss me!

after all

magkaiba kami ng buhay

sila, di kailangan mag street life lel

super duper

safe

hahahaha

as in like nasa bahay lang

di kailangan magtrabaho sa

labas

yaman yaman

hahaha

wala na ko masabe

malungkot lang na

di ako magiging writer sa Pilipinas

kahit anak nalang bigay niyo Lord

pero alam ko

tagal pa nun

haha

I kept eating lately

kasi parang nangayayat ako nung nakaraang last two weeks ng agosto

tambay bahay

naka team bahay lang

nasa condo lang hahaha

pa circuit circuit nung nakalabas

ahaha

oy by the way

as in kahapon lang ako kumain ng masarap 😦

dati tambayan ko army navy sa circuit

ngayon

di ko na trip

huhu

kaya natuwa nalang ako sa chicken pie ng bannaple sigh

culinary philippines

nag isaw nalang dapat oy

haha

tas kanina lang ako nakakain ng grabe sarap

as in coco ibanya estancia kakaibabe talaga

service is excellente par excellance

tapos kahit mahal busog diba

eh di wow din I chugged down a whole box of pizza

8 slices nom nom

masaya naman kanina

parang pede talaga ko mag give up sa company

pero nag start na ko sa sales

kaya tuloy mo lang

isipin mo

kahit di ko gusto yung posisiyon ko ngayon

balang araw kahit san man ako

aangat din

salamat sa lahat ng taong nag care sakin tapos talagang nagsabi na bilib sila

na malakas potential ko

na salamat sa oras

diba?

props to those people I respect na sinabihan talaga ko lupet daw lodi

di lang ako basta basta tumatanggap ng kritisismo

lalo na kung ikaw mas bata pa sakin

tapos di kita trip

tapos kung anu ano sinasabi na magaling ako ganon

idgaf motherfucker

di ka boss sa Ayala

K

haha

kadiri talaga teammates ko

pangarap ko eto

1 be very busy as of the moment

2 plan your life for 2019

3 okay lang second runner up …actually secondplacer dapat ang tawag ulol , sa guest awarding for august pft wtv sabi kasi ako daw top manloloko sinungaling wtv losers

4 umahon ka ‘day

5 kahit di ko mashow sa world talents ko, aware ako na malayo mararating ng mga ginagawa ko

6 at talagang aesthetically inclined ako sa mga sinig at iba pa

7 ok lang di ako dancer

8 sensiya na

9 balak ko tumbahin ang mundo balang araw

10 at sumabak

sa bawat laban haharapin.

Amen haha sarreh don’t rly pray um uh

🦍🦄

THANK YOU ALL FOR READING

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hey all

thanks for 96 follows

i think i found my trademark

 

black polish

 

ahahah

 

hay

 

i feel so alone but

ya know

we have to keep going

 

nobody is really gonna carry us home

just glad

even tho

my fam situation sux

i got tons of blessings

and people i love.

xoxo

Woke up like

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These days I have no idea what is going on. All we know is nothing is permanent. And we can lose it at anytime. Growing up has me binded to my parents rigour. The point, I grew up at 21. At eighteen I yearned to be like the ideal United States chick – away from my parental and living by myself with some cash earned. If only I knew college ed won’t suffice to say, get you to where you wanted to be, then must I not keep the education and worked outside instead.

The gist is, my mother has been killing me. She sent me to a “famous” psychologist named Agnes Bueno.

This person told me, suicide is legal.

I was like, wtf.

She said, “So far, nobody has died on me.”

I was like, deep in my head, am I gonna be the first???

I was shookt how she said I have no problem. And asked me why I was there. I was like, well my mother told me to come here.

Really, parents are a children’s source of wealth in this world.

No matter how successful you are, if you aren’t the least bit accepted, honored, respected, cherished more so, acknowledged and appreciated.

That success is just an illusion.

I found this website early this afternoon.

https://www.myhorridparent.com/classes/

At a young age, these have truly made an impact on me since I grew up shy and very timid.

I always played the piano and studied in school.

Looking further than that, I guess recently I was glad that a client I got from Greenhills agreed to go to our club event in Churchill.

Something about an Investors Night

I was hoping I can make it up for not being able to go to the sales rally/ mid-year awards tomorrow since I got really sick.

Not only am I sad about my mom, I just know I simply cannot change other people.

The saying goes, you want to change the world, but you can’t even change yourself.

Lately I have been dismissive and assertive.

Why?

I realized I don’t have any friends.

All my life Mom controlled it.

To the section I had in class down to my course in college.

Down to deciding whether to stay with my current employer in Taiwan.

Anyway, regarding people

Just recently my boss got mad at me for not being “productive” aka he disliked me waking up at 4am and told me that I wasn’t working enough.

It’s kinda sad I already hate my teammates.

After a month of putting up with their shallow shady jokes that are awful, and their backstabbing persona.

So yeah, people can be a pain.

What is even worse is when you saw the good in them,

But never will they really see the value in you.

I got 104 Facebook friends and I am not ashamed.

17 Instagram followers for god-knows-what.

And thankfully, 87 Followers in wordpress.

I was really sad I had to unfriend some people.

But what made me sadder is that they dont care.

At the very least, you can always have a new life elsewhere if you aren’t happy.

You know, it really is different here in Ortigas and Company.

I miss Alveo.

Esp the bosses.

Sana makalimutan ko rin kayo

Btw Timots I thought you were nice

Sometimes ayoko na mag reveal ng story or info sa mga tao

Kahit kailan di nila nakikita effort mo

Magpakatibay ka nalang kasi walang lalaban para sayo

Here is to being wealthy, sick-free and financially capable 💎

!S

Hello

Welcome to BS Crush It.

This is the crash course to when you learn to DGAF when a) unexpected incidents happen b) the world is probably ending now c) your mom incessantly mocks and derrogates you again like when you were a teenager d) you are just simply killin it

With kindness, surely. Most def.

Well well, at the course of my life. I simply am me.

I have no words for the pain I suffered since I read something that pain is actually weakness leaving the body.

Aint that true ?

!!!

I mean hellya I totes forgot my high school “friends” and in college I was a bookish loner but ya know.

We must never forget the memories that struck us deep within of who we really are.

Now I am stuck in the real world. And by real world I don’t mean high school.

To begin with I was surprised at elementary and high school, years I dare not touch,

I was never bullied in school

Probably my second life gave me that secret power to yield those throat ass*s but um

Never really had a lingering memory or like a foreshadowing of the past

That somebody nearly killed me or what

Maybe just in china when I was 13 well just turned 13 and there was a brother to brother bullying like they were two brothers shooking the navel off me.

Geez

Anyway I have nothing to say to my blog.

Ya know

Like I tried to be a good girl for most of my life.

My parents even sent me to rehab like they aren’t supposed to be there right now.

 

All I can say is that when people fight you and get mad at you in an overrated sense (hello mudra)

Just simply. Ignore.

You can never demand respect anyway but you can respect yourself enough to walk away from the situation.

Amirite?

 

When I was around 19 navigating my angst tough aging teenage years I was pretty much at the stage where I really was struggling with my art and music and all those dreamy things I wish I could relive.

I often asked why my own mother was always so tough on me.

She never could appreciate or acknowledge anything nice out of me.

Quite the tiger mom really.

And having three brothers next to me feels like I am supposed. And yes insistently, live this life like some pretty exclusive lotus flower.

 

I simply wish I will meet more wonderful people along the way to guide me and help me become who I am.

I will always be grateful for Dior Mommy, Robert Daddy, Gable, Aunty Curdy, Grace the Teaching Assistant, Sylvia my Camp Counselor Teammate, and of course my greatest boss Gad. Hello Boss. Haha. I think you’re not reading this. Psh.

Anyway I am hella Happy I can Be Hella from Thor.

Indestructible.

So far I blocked all Alveo peeps.

They really fuel my heart with so much tears. The irony.

I really wish I can just start over and not remember all the time I spent.

But I guess they don’t really remember me or like say care about my own feelings.

In Alveo though I will never ever forget Sir Gerry B. Haha

And Boss Norman Lim

Ian Casem our Area Sales Director.

And my forever beloved Boss Gad.

 

These days I just came to happy lemon, even spelled out my name S-H-E-R-R-Y. And then they printed out “cherry ” yet again.

Oh my did I react and squabbled.

Haha

Why is this name haunting me?????

To the brink 7$ I am getting my comm late September.

So thats like debts to the living for now.

Yikey.

Ohwells I will manage.

What a crazy world.

I still feel like a teenager though.

Wheres my hoodie. My starbucks. My rollercoaster. My zombie folks. My favourite dream. My castle.

– is the world really ending?

Little star

So lately I panic and sleep for 100 hours and wake up to the reality of this thing called helloworld.

I catch myself most days feeling so hype up in anxiety aka anxiettack that I feel like nobody in my family cares that sick girl is actually here in their house thats not a house. Hello?

All I manage is drink the messy pills doctor says I drink, as I reminisce the times I had back then in Taipei I had to drink and buy those Chinese-Japanese Seirogan pills

And actually bomb on someones house after eating politely and having easy conversations with them

as I excuse myself

It hasn’t always been this way,

Barely do I have allergic reactions, viruses or whatever food inclined problems

But why is this happening now?

After I spent awhile Viber blasting people to invite to our event on Sunday

As I pity my boss that I am such a sick girl who always seem to have problems

Like,

When will my life get better

When will I have friends

Actually, real people to talk to

Those people who actually, will listen

How long does it take for me to wait?

 

Wake up,

 

Wheres home and yuh, gbye past.

#ToPeopleWhoUsedMe

#ToPeopleWhoJudgedMe

#ToPeopleWhoNeverCared

Lastly, adopting Haley Phams words.

If you dont like the people in your class, talk to the teacher.

Yups, baby girl

 

Thats what I do.

Now where is my 100B

Biotch

 

To the guy (are you a guy) who never will fully understand how much he/she hurt me

Auf wiedersehen you yes YOU