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Hello

Welcome to BS Crush It.

This is the crash course to when you learn to DGAF when a) unexpected incidents happen b) the world is probably ending now c) your mom incessantly mocks and derrogates you again like when you were a teenager d) you are just simply killin it

With kindness, surely. Most def.

Well well, at the course of my life. I simply am me.

I have no words for the pain I suffered since I read something that pain is actually weakness leaving the body.

Aint that true ?

!!!

I mean hellya I totes forgot my high school “friends” and in college I was a bookish loner but ya know.

We must never forget the memories that struck us deep within of who we really are.

Now I am stuck in the real world. And by real world I don’t mean high school.

To begin with I was surprised at elementary and high school, years I dare not touch,

I was never bullied in school

Probably my second life gave me that secret power to yield those throat ass*s but um

Never really had a lingering memory or like a foreshadowing of the past

That somebody nearly killed me or what

Maybe just in china when I was 13 well just turned 13 and there was a brother to brother bullying like they were two brothers shooking the navel off me.

Geez

Anyway I have nothing to say to my blog.

Ya know

Like I tried to be a good girl for most of my life.

My parents even sent me to rehab like they aren’t supposed to be there right now.

 

All I can say is that when people fight you and get mad at you in an overrated sense (hello mudra)

Just simply. Ignore.

You can never demand respect anyway but you can respect yourself enough to walk away from the situation.

Amirite?

 

When I was around 19 navigating my angst tough aging teenage years I was pretty much at the stage where I really was struggling with my art and music and all those dreamy things I wish I could relive.

I often asked why my own mother was always so tough on me.

She never could appreciate or acknowledge anything nice out of me.

Quite the tiger mom really.

And having three brothers next to me feels like I am supposed. And yes insistently, live this life like some pretty exclusive lotus flower.

 

I simply wish I will meet more wonderful people along the way to guide me and help me become who I am.

I will always be grateful for Dior Mommy, Robert Daddy, Gable, Aunty Curdy, Grace the Teaching Assistant, Sylvia my Camp Counselor Teammate, and of course my greatest boss Gad. Hello Boss. Haha. I think you’re not reading this. Psh.

Anyway I am hella Happy I can Be Hella from Thor.

Indestructible.

So far I blocked all Alveo peeps.

They really fuel my heart with so much tears. The irony.

I really wish I can just start over and not remember all the time I spent.

But I guess they don’t really remember me or like say care about my own feelings.

In Alveo though I will never ever forget Sir Gerry B. Haha

And Boss Norman Lim

Ian Casem our Area Sales Director.

And my forever beloved Boss Gad.

 

These days I just came to happy lemon, even spelled out my name S-H-E-R-R-Y. And then they printed out “cherry ” yet again.

Oh my did I react and squabbled.

Haha

Why is this name haunting me?????

To the brink 7$ I am getting my comm late September.

So thats like debts to the living for now.

Yikey.

Ohwells I will manage.

What a crazy world.

I still feel like a teenager though.

Wheres my hoodie. My starbucks. My rollercoaster. My zombie folks. My favourite dream. My castle.

– is the world really ending?

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So lately I panic and sleep for 100 hours and wake up to the reality of this thing called helloworld.

I catch myself most days feeling so hype up in anxiety aka anxiettack that I feel like nobody in my family cares that sick girl is actually here in their house thats not a house. Hello?

All I manage is drink the messy pills doctor says I drink, as I reminisce the times I had back then in Taipei I had to drink and buy those Chinese-Japanese Seirogan pills

And actually bomb on someones house after eating politely and having easy conversations with them

as I excuse myself

It hasn’t always been this way,

Barely do I have allergic reactions, viruses or whatever food inclined problems

But why is this happening now?

After I spent awhile Viber blasting people to invite to our event on Sunday

As I pity my boss that I am such a sick girl who always seem to have problems

Like,

When will my life get better

When will I have friends

Actually, real people to talk to

Those people who actually, will listen

How long does it take for me to wait?

 

Wake up,

 

Wheres home and yuh, gbye past.

#ToPeopleWhoUsedMe

#ToPeopleWhoJudgedMe

#ToPeopleWhoNeverCared

Lastly, adopting Haley Phams words.

If you dont like the people in your class, talk to the teacher.

Yups, baby girl

 

Thats what I do.

Now where is my 100B

Biotch

 

To the guy (are you a guy) who never will fully understand how much he/she hurt me

Auf wiedersehen you yes YOU

I Thank God Everyday :)

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Hello dear followers!

Thanks so much for going through some random stuff on my blog, I can’t believe you guys are 52 already and I mostly don’t even blog about random personal stuff

To be honest much has been going on lately, I missed the afterparty then also been overworking lately in my current work. It’s been almost a year, come about april, I want to reap a sale or two, God please.

I feel like maybe smoking a couple of weed could do it, rough jobs in sales are such a pity for introverts like me who pretty much overanalyze and foresight everything onto the equation

So anyway

I haven’t found my friends yet. Those change makers who come into your life like angels and wish your dream pull you up and never let go

Like,

Those people who really value you to see you make it real hard in this world and protect you from the harsh reality you already endured.

I wanna be around people who don’t take and undermine you and boss you around like you’re such a low status ranking peasant

and they’re like the queen biatches or kween bees of the world

nasty

enough to undercut your priceless existence

Ya know

Stay real

Haters gon’ hate

Stay gold.

Ps: please avoid people who always have their way /s with you, like asking for shit, toying with your feelings, treating ya differently in public vis-a-vis private, uncultured nondiscreet

company

Oh, you know uhm people who disclose gossip and low level conversations juxtapose that with bejeweled intellectual talk talk.

I am seriously depressed with the people who surround me.

It seems more likely to say that people you hold a pedestal to, having known them for them but actually having no idea on who they really, really are. Anyways I am heavily apologetic for this rant sesh.

Just been crazy lonely lately figuring out who I am like it’s high school again and wondering where my path lies this year

Learning that every challenge comes an opportunity

And treat people nicely despite the heartache

Of them treating you like a piece of shit (aka you dont exist in this space right here *  * )

I’ve gone through some terrible shit but not this social suicide

where you put your entire soul on a person and they just light a smoke and set a fire to burn your heart.

I rarely write about boys but really though, find someone who loves you

The real, unwitheld, facade-less genuine

you.

#HappyAlveoLife

#RaiseTheGame2018

#ConquerYourFears

#TakeChances / #TakeAim

Get up

gotta get going even though life fucks us up . Get baked. Smoke crack. Build foundations that hold you, carry you

Follow and look up to leaders who possess empathy and Truth

This is your life

you, millenial.

Gotta get get going

 

being grateful,

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ive just recently been to dubai.

Its been real nice.

the food was amazing I ate much, but

The people were so kind and open.

I really liked how this little african baby just kept staring at me.

And all the head covers they have and scarves and them elegant long cloaks Muslim women wear are a mystery to some foreign girl like me.

theme parks were awesome,

Rode a roller coaster with a Jewish family.

Also visited synagogues and mosques.

Reminiscent of Germany

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Happy new year

Goth

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My november was so pretty time flew by so fast. I recently watch the duff and cyberbully movies and realized how it must be like to be outed or humiliated in public by casting out so much hate speech or defamatory bs,

So anyways I just recently had a ball fitting from a designer near our home. Im excited to see how its like to wear something fancy, like fifty shades of grey movie! Haha kidding.

Will update you followers how I will manage to survive the upcoming holidaze. Must be so much work but in practice I am hoping for some willing zest and zen. Toodles. Peace out xx 🙂