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Hey loves!

thank you all

so much

105 follows,

wow im flanked.

I try pretending each day

to just focus on myself

my space

my loves

but you know

its really, really hard

Life is a drama

A dog eat dog world

The survival of the fittest

Very darwinian right

Haha oh my,

I got two interviews

tomorrow

and on Thurs

Been invisible at work

Di na ko pumapasok since

Nag hawaii so called boss ko

 

Haaaaaay I dont want to rant pero sobrang confusing

 

 

Napakagrateful ko though.

Thanks to Alveo.

I got too many job offers at 26

Tryna be an adult

It resurfaces

but that sad kid in me

is still there.

I cut connections off my mom

Likewise my family.

It was all too much.

I cant remember the last time I was really happy

The only people kept me going were the bosses in Ayala

It felt all too much like a dream

I wish I never left

But nobody was there to take me in for a double job or extra cash

Wala rin mangutangan

Ayoko naman mangutang.

the Glory

is all up from God.

Lahat ng ginawa ko

tingnan mo lang

kahit malugkot ako sa officemates ko

I got hired out of hard work

Like

two days after my bday this year

alls been a blur.

I am truly confused,

I doubled my sleeping pills.

More confusing is my dad actually wanting me to pursue my “dreams”na raw like hoho srsly

I worked my damned ass of since college ended.

I dunno how to decide

whether to go with the flow ba or,

Lumaban para sa sarili ko.

Kasi di ko na alam anung gagawin.

Wala na kong pasensya

Tagal ng comm ko

Kadiri ang grupo ko

As in ako yung ginagawang crab para lahat sila umangat.

I lost also the guest list last August by a point.

Was never acknowledged really.

Am glad to the people who kept rescuing me out of that division.

So many really

All my heart

Love.

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Why Am I

You’re born, you know, the wrong names, wrong parents. I mean, that happens. You call yourself what you want to call yourself. This is the land of the free.

–  Bob Dylan
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