Summer

Hello world

Sherry here

I always wished I can be as pretty as Nam from that Thai movie

Beauty is on the inside

Our life will not be short if we fill it with meaningful moments

And live it

I also read a book

Humility is seeing less of ourselves and more about

Others,

It is recognizing that we as human beings

Begin to understand others

And put them on our shoe

That even though

they ignore us on our b-day,

Berate us on somebody they like

Fight us like we did something wrong,

We still stand up

Anybody out there left behind,

I will hold your hand

Loves and light

Sherry mae chan 💘👊💞💜

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Ive been young to believe that magic is amongst us. We just have to be wild enough and persistent to pursue it.

Im kinda

Done

With— people.

Too many things

So heres Whiz Khalifa in Saint Laurent.

Tomorrow I dunno what to expect

I just learned to drown the noise in

From things that get too much on my head

That literally

I just wanna scream

Where is my sale

 

I dont even pine for a boyfriend

But I always remember the books that got me by high school;

the books in class academically

Assigned to us

 

The A’s I never pretended I could get whatever I aimed for

 

The movie, “The First Time”.

the guy in college I thought,

I actually like.

 

 

The many, many haunted things and specified images that haunt my head

the decisions I am making,

 

the laundry lady who was witty and pretty

who told me I am young to be 26

— tomorrow.

 

It suddenly rained tonight.

Maybe

 

the universe is weeping for my age

@ 25 got not much– money friends family feelings,

 

 

How do you drown those noises unwanted

those people who are assholes

 

Those people who actually are so selfish and don’t care enough that

you invited them

asking who is on the guest list

asking if they can leave early.

 

 

So why bother going ???

hellow

cash and carry netopia always makes me happy.

since the service here c/o kuya is so very efficient.

this is the place where i printed my goal book photos (framed).

the place i bought reasonably expensive perfume for my boss.

the place i had a guest came to our open house.

it’s been real meaningful.

i’m still lost.

may sakit pa ko,

pero you know,

i’m throwing a party.

i don’t feel my birthday,

or any days.

pero i am, always trying.

sana makapasok na ko Lord.

 

sana rin di ako mahurt pag walang pumunta sa bday ko

Little star

So lately I panic and sleep for 100 hours and wake up to the reality of this thing called helloworld.

I catch myself most days feeling so hype up in anxiety aka anxiettack that I feel like nobody in my family cares that sick girl is actually here in their house thats not a house. Hello?

All I manage is drink the messy pills doctor says I drink, as I reminisce the times I had back then in Taipei I had to drink and buy those Chinese-Japanese Seirogan pills

And actually bomb on someones house after eating politely and having easy conversations with them

as I excuse myself

It hasn’t always been this way,

Barely do I have allergic reactions, viruses or whatever food inclined problems

But why is this happening now?

After I spent awhile Viber blasting people to invite to our event on Sunday

As I pity my boss that I am such a sick girl who always seem to have problems

Like,

When will my life get better

When will I have friends

Actually, real people to talk to

Those people who actually, will listen

How long does it take for me to wait?

 

Wake up,

 

Wheres home and yuh, gbye past.

#ToPeopleWhoUsedMe

#ToPeopleWhoJudgedMe

#ToPeopleWhoNeverCared

Lastly, adopting Haley Phams words.

If you dont like the people in your class, talk to the teacher.

Yups, baby girl

 

Thats what I do.

Now where is my 100B

Biotch

 

To the guy (are you a guy) who never will fully understand how much he/she hurt me

Auf wiedersehen you yes YOU

Still

To making wise decisions having integrity possessing humility being a good and calm person and knowing your limits setting boundaries and going towards the flow,

Making sure that God is the only thing on earth you can Trust. The only peace in life that will give you peace and silence amidst the noise and the empty convos, the materialism and sins

Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.

 

That’s ghandi for you.

Namaste’

demonetized

so what

if people

don’t like

me

 

or

my posts

 

i’ve never had a goddamn summer

since 2013

 

Life

 

has been

 

 

well fucked