dearest diary
i have had enough with people who always take me for granted,
today i willingly talked with our sales director in the company, and all he did was grill me into saying how the real world is cruel and unfair and how i seem to be …sheltered wow as if he knew the path i walked onto and my character per se…
i realize how we, as a human individual, can never really find ourselves and our worth in a person,
and how we must blossom where our heart and purpose go.
i deeply tried to leave their division and my team, but sales director said how i was the only rare case that dared to do that,
as nobody tried to leave due to personal preference,
just me.
to recount,
i was really clueless how to go about, i love my job but hate how the bosses cannot close the work,
i keep comparing them to my former developer.
the fact is, i love sales as i have thrived to keep up with manning and setting appointments to so many hopefuls na closing pero
lahat paasa,
i just really wished i was placed in a good group.
it is hard to say you can thrive anyplace and bloom,
mahirap yon.
mas mahirap pa kung di mo makita sarili mo dun, and yung purpose mo
and you ask what the heck am i doing this for.
many people broke me over the past years,
people i trusted the most.
i dont even begin to understand some big douchy boss can say and hurl shit stuff like that to my face.
i know education helps in identifying people and their capabilities but this is too much,
respect is the basic human gift apart from kindness,
if one lacks that
then obviously you know which way to go darling.
never ever doubt yourself,
dont give someone the power over you.
and if you dont like the people there,
better leave with head held high.
it doesnt matter anymore.
all the praise i held,
galing yun sa taas.
lahat ng ginawa ko,
sa alveo and sa nakaraan,
the effortless work i did for ortigas.
thank you so much, sales.
maybe, i have garnered enough lessons.
nobody ought to even point it out loud.
thanks for the grand finale.
signing off xoxo
sherry
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